Well June came and went with little time for me to blog. That didn’t mean I didn’t have time to literally and figuratively ‘unpack.’ Like all of you, I venture to still learn, discover, and witness myself in this crazy world we now occupy. And truth be told, even if it was a calm and peaceful world, I would still strive to explore my place in it.
I have been on two back-to-back journeys aimed at delving deeper and more persoanally into the Divine Feminine. Not for power over, but for equality of. One pilgrimage I co-lead with another teacher, working with astrology, psychology, and personal archetypes using the icons of Isis (Mother Mary), The Magdalene (Miriam of Magdala) and Lilith (the Black Madonna). The second was with a well known herstorian and writer exploring the Hieros Gamos, Cathar history, and the path of the Mary’s after the death of The Christ. Both were in the south of France. Both brought profound understanding and renewal. My path/teaching content has wound full circle, as it was the path of the Feminine that started my feet through all the many cultures, stories, sacred sites, and awareness of humanity as One, that I have been blessed to explore these past 40 years.
Why am I sharing that? Because whether you are a woman, or a man, we all need to unpack what holds us back from the profound knowledge, compassion, strength and creative spark that resides within us, once we learn to honor, transform and manifest our Divine Feminine, and co-create our own Hieros Gamos.
I believe this dream is one person’s continued quest for that.
I am in a big off-white room sitting in a room with lots of young women running around. I am sitting in a chair and a woman who I knew (can’t remember upon waking up) is standing behind me. She is sensing something. And I tell her the room just needs to be smudged or at least painted yellow. I asked her if she knew what smudging was and she said of course but she gave me a look and said but I am not sure about the young women. The room was to be a meeting place and everyone was there to fix/clean it up.
In the right corner there was an old dilapidated bureau. No one seemed to learn to fix it. I looked at it and said, it is only the veneer coming off, there will be another layer underneath. It will be fine. It just needs some paint and care. I can paint it blue. I look in the drawer as there are some tools. I pick up a wrapped screwdriver and I am really happy to find it. It has both kinds of tip. The woman I am with is looking at me and says, what are you going to do with that. I say it is a good screw driver, I can use it.
I am in a big off-white room sitting with lots of young women running around. I am sitting in a chair and a woman who I knew (can’t remember upon waking up) is standing behind me. She is sensing something.
A big room signifies the dreamer is giving herself space to explore something. Big rooms suggest expanding consciousness around something-an understanding or knowing. [The rooms of a house or building are very important within a dream context-more on that another time.] There are lots of women running around. There are parts of herself that are looking for cohesiveness, but they are running around, not in alignment with each other and not focused.
Colors stimulate emotions; those emotions are based on our perceptions and ‘personal story.’ The room is off-white. White on the Wisdom Wheels stands for boundaries, sharing, magnetizing to ourselves the people, places and concepts that help us grow, and likewise removing from our life the people, places, and concepts that hold us back. White is a blank slate, a new start. Off-white however suggests something still needs to be cleaned up.
The dreamer is sitting in a chair, indicating she is ready to corral and listen to these parts of herself. There is a woman standing behind the dreamer who senses something. This is the unbridled, yet focused part of her self, the one not confined and limited to the past stories. She is sensing what needs to change, or come to light.
And I tell her the room just needs to be smudged or at least painted yellow. I asked her if she knew what smudging was and she said of course but she gave me a look and said but I am not sure about the young women. The room was to be a meeting place and everyone was there to fix/clean it up.
Intrinsically the Self (the dreamer) knows what needs to be done. She offers that the room needs to be smudged (which is a form of cleansing a space, as smudging collects the positive ions in an active area, and brings the space back to homeostasis); and “at least painted yellow.” Yellow on Wisdom Wheels (as I was taught by Grandmother Twylah Nitsch), signifies ‘overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of loving ourselves, as well as bringing justice, through forgiveness, to past hurts and injustices’.
The dreamer knows she needs to clean up these feelings she still holds about herself from the past, and although the ‘sensing part of herself’ knows this to be true, neither are sure all the fragmented parts of herself (the other women all running around), will know how to integrate. This is her dilemma, integration of her sacred Divine Self. Every part of her has agreed to this ‘meeting within herself’ (as they are all in the room) and she has to fix this disconnect to feel solid.
In the right corner there was an old dilapidated bureau. No one seemed to learn to fix it. I looked at it and said, it is only the veneer coming off, there will be another layer underneath. It will be fine. It just needs some paint and care. I can paint it blue.
In the right corner there is an old dilapidated bureau. Corners ‘collect’ energy, in fact when smudging, it should be one of the first places in a room that you address. The right side of the body corresponds to the left brain. The right and left hemispheres of the brain each carry a function and specific traits. The left brain, (simply put) is about logical analysis, reasoning and attention to detail. These are the tools to look at our past, and put things in better perspective.
There is a dilapidated bureau, that no one seems to have learned how to fix. No one taught her what she needs to do to fix the feelings she is looking to either release or embody. A bureau ‘stores things’, and if we fail to clear our bureaus out once in a while, they collect old and out worn items that just take up space. metaphorically this symbol represents these thoughts about herself. However, she understands that the veneer is coming off-the old ways of thinking no longer serve her. She knows there is more under the surface of who she thought she was. This is the most important part of the dream, as she is acknowledging that she is more than meets the eye.
Like the bureau , she needs a ‘change of color’ (perception), care (self-value) and self-love. There are things in the bureau that are worth keeping, and some that are not. This is what she needs to ‘unpack.’ This isn’t just a dream, it is a process.
She thinks to paint it blue. Blue on the wheels indicates understanding the difference between service and servitude, and trusting ones intuition as a growth factor. This takes great care because not everything ‘we intuit’ is accurate, we must teach ourselves to know the difference between what we wish was, and what is.
I look in the drawer as there are some tools. I pick up a wrapped screwdriver and I am really happy to find it. It has both kinds of tip. The woman I am with is looking at me and says, what are you going to do with that. I say it is a good screw driver, I can use it.
Within the drawers she finds a screw driver and it has ‘both kinds of tips’. Two tips indicates the two sides of our self–the right & left brain; the divine feminine and masculine; the unloved and the loved; and the parts we need to assess or reassess to honor our truth.
A screw driver can unwind things, as well as secure things. This symbolically is a tool for her to use as she does her self-work and discovers new ways of looking at herself and her life. And will assist her to unwind or secure all old ways that need to be unpacked and released for her continued growth and happiness. She is on her way to another level; there are always other levels to explore.
Thank you dreamer.
Aside: I need more dreams for whomever is interested in sending me something. I will be doing another dream this month, but that will be the last one I have in my dream file. You can be anonymous if that is your preference, and just entitle the e-mail Dream. Thank you.