My apologies to my readers for not posting for 2 months. This has been one the busiest international traveling/teaching summers for me on record. And, although I am grateful for the sponsorships, the new people I’ve met, and the wonderful folks in other countries that I’ve gotten to visit or revisit…..some things, like my dream blog, needed to be put aside to get through my schedule.

This is not unlike the hiatus many of us take from writing down, or remembering our dreams. We know we dream nightly; we know sometimes we remember them and sometimes we do not; and we sometimes think those little fragments of a dream don’t mean much. The dream symbols and their seemingly unconscious meanderings though always are trying to impart something to our waking self.

To that end I will explore two dreams this month, to make up a bit for being a “Dream AWOL” bogger. The first is to show you how powerful even a dream fragment can be. The second will be more in-depth simply because I will have more to work with. Both however are important pieces of information for the two dreamers who volunteered their nightly dreamscapes.

P.S. I really, really need more dreams, and I am hoping for more diversification of dreamers presenting them. Thank you to all who have or will.  

The first dream:

I don’t know what you will get out of my dream, it is very short and I don’t remember most of it. I dreamt I was handed a new born baby. I brought it to a doctor to be examined, and he told me the baby needed dental implants. It was only then I realized that the baby was so young, it didn’t even have any teeth yet. I couldn’t let that happen.

A new born baby being handed to you could mean you are being given a new opportunity to explore, birth, or renew something about yourself, that you have wanted to experience or develop. Now is the time. When you accept to hold the baby, it suggests that you are embracing this new aspect  and agreeing to be responsible for how it grows. It can also mean that you are finally at peace with accepting something burgeoning within yourself. The baby wasn’t crying, so you are not overwhelmed or resisting.

You take the baby (this represents an innocent part of yourself) to someone of authority, the doctor. This could mean you are looking for assistance or direction from outside yourself, but it could also suggest, there is an inner, knowledgeable part of yourself that you need to consult, in order to expand on this new opportunity. You must decide what resonates for you most with this symbol. Are you used to giving away your power to someone else? Are you being mentored in a wholesome way? Do you spend the time to self reflect to know what the best options are for you?

The doctor suggests the baby needs dental implants. Teeth often center around our self image. And you need to be careful whose opinion and direction you accept, as to how you wish to be seen in this new, developing part of yourself. Implants could suggest you have some fear around your image, your own self expression and/or how you will be met or seen by others as this new ‘something’ or part of yourself blossoms. Implants are not necessarily of our nature. Medically or dentally they may help us with our self image, but they are external to us; they do not represent the inner us. Legitimately often our new ideas or opportunities need time to develop at their own pace.

When the dreamer says, “The baby doesn’t even have teeth yet,” so she can’t let that happen, I would suggest that she take the time to nurture this new idea, thought, opportunity or self image ‘re-make’, slowly and gently, like one would nurture a new born baby. Only then will she be able to “sink her teeth” into whatever it is she is trying to bring forth.  

The second dream:

I’m lost, trying to find my way. I find myself in a large apartment, with dogs running around. Suddenly my spiritual teacher appears, it’s her apartment. Meryl Streep is with her. I apologize for being there. They are kind. They walk out, hands held in prayer and go to the left. I follow them out and go to the right. I’m on a well-worn path, it is very dark out but I can see the path. I’m walking up a mountain, the side of it rises steeply on my left. It is forested (like the way up Machu Picchu only narrower). I’m suddenly aware of a large dark man following beside me, off the path on my right. I can’t really see him, just know his presence is there. I’m frightened, it feels dangerous, like I’m being stalked. I lean in toward the cliff as I continue to walk. Suddenly I’m in a large busy terminal. I’m on a college campus, there is a shuttle train running through. I wonder if I should get on that train to reach my destination faster. But I don’t know where the train is going, don’t know how to use the train, and don’t know my destination. I look around to ask someone for help. A kind woman on the train, who is wearing a uniform so seems to be an official, appears in the open doorway and seems willing to offer help, but the doors close and the train moves off. I’m still being pursued, still in danger, and now I’m really afraid. I see an escalator and take it up, then run up a set of stairs. Part way up I see a door and push it open. I see a wide hallway and sense there are classrooms behind closed doors. It’s empty, all is quiet. I know that’s not the way. I feel dread, hopeless. There’s nowhere else to run. I will soon die, he’ll catch me. I turn back toward the stairs. I wake up.

I had the opportunity to ask this dreamer two questions: Who was her spiritual teacher? And what would be one word she would use for her teacher, and for Meryl Streep? She apologizes for using more than one word, which in itself is important for this dream dissection. I will take the first word she offered for each person-bolded below in her answer.
Lama Willa Miller, Tibetan Buddhist teacher. Sorry, 2 words: Embodied wisdom.                Meryl Streep: integrity, beauty and brilliance.

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I’m lost, trying to find my way. I find myself in a large apartment, with dogs running around. Suddenly my spiritual teacher appears, it’s her apartment. Meryl Streep is with her. I apologize for being there.

The dreamer is lost trying to find her way through something in her waking life, and her subconscious is trying to bring some answers through her dreamtime. She is in a large apartment, which means it may feel overwhelming to her in her waking state. There are dogs running around, (although she doesn’t say what color or type the dogs are which would give deeper information), in the tradition of Gram Twylah, dogs stand for loyalty to the self, and faithfulness to the fact that our answers come through self-reflection.

Her spiritual teacher appears. As I have said many times, everything in the dream is what it represents but also is associated with parts of our self. Buddhism is based on the teachings of the Buddha, as someone who attained becoming a realized being. Though there are varying schools and practices, the main goal of Buddhism, as I understand it, is to overcome suffering as we move through the cycles of death/rebirth, and through self reflection as we let go of our illusions and delusions. Meryl Streep, as we all know, is a brilliant actress, who has successfully portrayed many ‘faces’ through the many roles she has impeccably played and been acknowledged for. 

What the dreamer is looking to access is how to embody a new understanding of her needs, no longer playing a role, but living in the authenticity of her integrity, which is her impeccable realized self. But what does she do? She apologies for seeking that.  Counterintuitively, in some ways the two characters in her dream work together, they also signify polar opposites. One goes within to find her true self; the other is the actress on the outer stage that has to maintain a role. Both are needed to come together and find a balance. They are able to show the dreamer that this is possible by the symbol of bringing their hands together in that prayerful mudra.

They are kind. They walk out, hands held in prayer and go to the left. I follow them out and go to the right. I’m on a well-worn path, it is very dark out but I can see the path. I’m walking up a mountain, the side of it rises steeply on my left. It is forested (like the way up Machu Picchu only narrower).

Those aspects of herself (wisdom/beauty/inner and embodied/integrity/outer) are trying to kindly guide her in a new direction, and with hands held in prayer, symbolize self reflection of both her inner and outer persona. They try to lead her by going to the left, the place of “heart centeredness and the being ness that allows”, which would help her on this inner journey. But, she goes to the right, the place of the “head and doing,” which for her is a well-worn path. This suggests that she keeps trying the same old thing to get to where she wants to be, but it keeps leading her up a steep (hard), narrow (limited), path that is forested (hard to get perspective on). Question: If this were simpler, not a hard climb, and you needed to have the perspective of you as the ‘tree’ instead of you as the ‘forest’ what might you do differently?

I’m suddenly aware of a large dark man following beside me, off the path on my right. I can’t really see him, just know his presence is there. I’m frightened, it feels dangerous, like I’m being stalked. I lean in toward the cliff as I continue to walk. Suddenly I’m in a large busy terminal. I’m on a college campus, there is a shuttle train running through. I wonder if I should get on that train to reach my destination faster. But I don’t know where the train is going, don’t know how to use the train, and don’t know my destination.

She has a very distinct fear of this change (the man-possibly a part of herself; an outer man she would like to be in relationship with but is afraid to explore; a man from the past that presented a danger to her). Even though she might want an personal exchange given her search, she is frightened of the danger of the change she seeks. She needs to lean on something to continue pressing forward. The cliff although it represents the ‘rock’ she leans into for support, is also a cliff, which by its very nature, we can fall off of at any point. 

Then she is in a large terminal, which like the large apartment in the beginning, makes her feel like there aren’t safe boundaries, even her own perceived boundaries, if she takes this risk. This can set us up for failure because we will keep attracting the same thing to our self and concretize that same fear, that in trying again, nothing is different. Then she finds herself quickly at a large college campus. She wants to learn a new approach to overcome her fears.

There is a train, this is a huge symbol in dreaming. It represents movement forward. It suggests there are specific tracks you need to stay on so that you do not derail. It could represent that she is “in training” to learn more about herself. The psychoanalyst and dream therapist Carl Jung, suggested it was analogous to a male penis. I would ask the dreamer, “Do any of these analogies have anything to do with what you are trying to explore or overcome?”

Take the last sentence as to the truth of where her total confusion, and possible illusions may lay. “But I don’t know where the train is going, don’t know how to use the train, and don’t know my destination.” This is the most important sentence in the dream.

I look around to ask someone for help. A kind woman on the train, who is wearing a uniform so seems to be an official, appears in the open doorway and seems willing to offer help, but the doors close and the train moves off. I’m still being pursued, still in danger, and now I’m really afraid. I see an escalator and take it up, then run up a set of stairs. Part way up I see a door and push it open. I see a wide hallway and sense there are classrooms behind closed doors. It’s empty, all is quiet. I know that’s not the way. I feel dread, hopeless. There’s nowhere else to run. I will soon die, he’ll catch me. I turn back toward the stairs. I wake up.

She seeks out  help, this is good, we all need helps sometime and another’s perspective can often assist us to see things from a different vantage point. The woman on the train wearing a uniform implies that there is influential help that can ‘open a door’ for her.  It also suggests that there is an ‘official’ way she feels this should unfold. At the same time she is afraid that ‘doors will close for her,’ if she takes advantage of the assistance and that she will miss her opportunity. This danger that still pursues her is from her past, it hasn’t been resolved. I would suggest she looks at how inhibiting the old story is to her forward movement. Emotionally we may know ‘the story’ and we may have unpacked it in many ways, but there is still something there that affects her moving forward toward her goal.

To dream that you push through a door is about taking the chance for a new opportunity. She goes up an escalator (she wants this to happen quickly but realizations don’t always happen quickly just because we want them to); and then a set a stairs, which like the narrow mountain path, is an old constricted path or at least a somewhat limited way to approach a conscious understanding of the problem or fear. The classrooms, like the college campus, represents new ‘learning’ and to look into this challenge from a different perspective.

It is all empty and quiet-this is a great place to start–to be able to empty ones self and quiet ones thoughts. This suggests ‘going within’ like her Buddhist teacher suggests, to embody her inner wisdom, to change her fear. She knows to stay in her fear or unresolved confusion is not the way she wishes to proceed. She states, “there is no where else to run (away from herself), and she turns back to go down the stairs, (symbolizing going within to look at herself in a new light). Which for all of us, is the only way that we learn to embody our ‘impeccable realized self.’

Thank you dreamers

 

 

Yesterday was July 22nd and the celebration of Mary Magdalene, a woman who has been maligned, lied about, believed by many to be a whore redeemed by Christ, and many other things that she was not. Miriam of Magdala was a wise, learned, wealthy woman in her own rite, that came to be a supporter of The Way, Apostle to the apostles, and as some research shows, the wife of the Christ in the true act of the Hieros Gamos. 

I had intended to post this dream yesterday, but a family situation took precedence, as family over work should. I chose this dream, as you will see, because it is the first ‘holy’ dream I have been sent by a dreamer, and I thought the date and the dream coincided nicely.

Many people are having various signals, dreams, meditative or prayerful moments of alignment from the etheric realms with Jesus, the Mary’s, angels, and ascended masters these days. There has been an upsurge, possibly in answer to the times in which we find ourselves (so many being persecuted). Possibly  because enough people believe (not in a apocalyptic picture), but in one of a humanity finally awakened. And possibly even in a more refined, less dogmatic view of what Christ-consciousness is, aside from the more false rhetoric of those who push their uncompromising, false moralistic agendas. If I offend any readers in saying this, I do not apologize. 

I am a firm believer in the Christ energy, and in the life of Jesus who became the ‘Christ’ (profound conscious awareness), in the last three years of his life. I am also a believer that the supremacy of the ‘winners’ are the ones who get to write history. I think for those that research and have “eyes to see, and ears to hear” that there is a different story-line than the one that has been used to ‘guide and direct’ us, rather than to teach us the true nature of the light of Christ within ourselves, which is what I believe Jesus came to teach and sacrificed himself for, along with those that loved him.

I was sent an article by a friend in Wales, that I find very interesting to this premise. I am not sharing it to promote Rudolph Steiner, nor the Kabbalah, although I like the teachings of both. [See article at end of the dream.]

I was wondering if you could help me with a dream I had the other night?

The Dream:
In my dream I was driving with my friend who is also my hairdresser (and very spiritual). [Aside: I asked the dreamer the name of her hairdresser and one word to describe her. She said Monique, and the word ‘caring’ is what she would use.] When looking up at the sky it was cloudy and suddenly opened. As the sky opened Jesus came down on his cross, he had a lot of light around him and appeared to have a halo rainbow around him as well. I remember in my dream how beautiful we thought it was. He didn’t talk or say anything to me. Just dropped from sky. He didn’t fall on the ground.

The next day all I could think about was this dream. I was unsure if he was giving me a message or sign.

Another piece, I was calling to tell my sister about the dream, and in explaining it to her she mentioned her mother in law had same exact dream but in hers he played music that she had a hard time hearing.

I just find it very odd that both of us had similar dreams.

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In my dream I was driving with my friend who is also my hairdresser (and very spiritual). [Aside: I asked the dreamer the name of her hairdresser and one word to describe her. She said Monique, and the word ‘caring’ is what she would use.]

What I failed to ask the dreamer was who was driving. If the dreamer was driving, it would indicate that she is in control of her own life and the direction/s she wishes to take. If the friend was driving, it would indicate that the dreamer needs to be more ‘caring’ with herself, and/or the choices she makes moving forward. As I have suggested many times, the people in our dreams are who they represent, but also an aspect of our self.

I will assume (could be wrong), that her friend is driving, because she already suggests she is spiritual, and within the dream something significantly spiritual happens. I would read this as the dreamer’s  ‘Higher Self’ is driving this dream and is about to show her something very special. Even if the hairdresser were in the passenger seat, it is still an indication that some level of awareness from the spiritual realms is about to be offered.

Hairdressers are someone we all seem to speak freely to. Hair indicates vitality and a connection to psychic communication. In some cultures such as indigenous Native People and the Samurai of Japan, long hair was a sign of power and being in touch with the Earth energies. As such her hairdresser could be symbolic of the connection to communication of a higher nature, within herself.

Some say ‘hairdressers’ are someone who helps us change how we see ourselves (new do’s). Some teachings have said hairdresser symbolizes a healer or healing (occurring at the crown chakra). Others have suggested that hair is something that grows, and as such the dreamer may be about to ‘grow a new idea or perception.’ Monique means advisor or counselor, so this would fit.

When looking up at the sky it was cloudy and suddenly opened. As the sky opened Jesus came down on his cross, he had a lot of light around him and appeared to have a halo rainbow around him as well. I remember in my dream how beautiful we thought it was. He didn’t talk or say anything to me. Just dropped from sky. He didn’t fall on the ground.

The sky is initially cloudy. Something is either confusing the dreamer with a choice she has to make, or a new direction she wishes to go in. It suddenly opens up, a new perspective perhaps. There is an expansion of thought.

As the expansion of thought becomes available, Jesus comes down on a cross. This person suggested in her email that she was not religious per se, but a believer. Jesus not only symbolizes a light bearer to many around the world, but also a man full of the light of consciousness and unconditional love. My suggestion is with the expansion of light and self love comes consciousness, everything that the Christ wanted us to know is fully capable of experiencing within ourselves.

He is on the cross and surrounded by a halo and rainbow. This is a time period of not staying nailed to the cross of martyrdom and self flagellation; what purpose does that serve other than to keep us small and controlled by something/someone outside our self.  This is a time of ascension, and knowing that no person, no institution, no church can give us that. That was Christ’s message, “I do this so you know you can do it too.” When we embrace the thought that we are the light, that the light is us, and that we are all connected in that light As One, we understand his message.

Halo’s are symbols of enlightenment and divinity. Rainbows are seen as the many frequencies or vibrations (each color represents a different vibration) of connection between earth & sky; us and the divine within. Jesus is showing the dreamer what is within her, by his example. And, “That is beautiful.”

He doesn’t talk, he just let’s his light and presence be the teaching. There are no words for enlightenment and touching the divine within, it just is, it needs no explanation or justification. My belief is that he doesn’t drop to the ground, because he is no longer embodied in flesh and blood; he’s already completed that obligation. See article.

The next day all I could think about was this dream. I was unsure if he was giving me a message or sign.
Another piece, I was calling to tell my sister about the dream, and in explaining it to her she mentioned her mother in law had same exact dream but in hers he played music that she had a hard time hearing.
I just find it very odd that both of us had similar dreams.

Dreamer, I think it was the same. Whether you call it a message or a sign, Jesus wanted you to know you are capable, as are we all, of growing in consciousness and finding strength in faith. That you mother-in-law had the same dream, was a way for Him to show both you, and her, that the light is available to both of you, and the confirmation using a similar dream, was a message to both of you to pay attention. Interesting that Jesus spoke to her in the dream through music (sound-another frequency), and she has a hard time hearing.

Questions: What are you now capable of acknowledging that needs an enlightened change/choice in your life or that brings you into more alignment with who you are becoming? And, what does she (mother-in-law) need to acknowledge that she keeps out of reach for herself, by not ‘hearing’ a different perspective (from herself or other)?

Thank you dreamer for sharing. 

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Hello Dreamers,

Well June came and went with little time for me to blog. That didn’t mean I didn’t have time to literally and figuratively ‘unpack.’ Like all of you, I venture to still learn, discover, and witness myself in this crazy world we now occupy. And truth be told, even if it was a calm and peaceful world, I would still strive to explore my place in it.

I have been on two back-to-back journeys aimed at delving deeper and more persoanally into the Divine Feminine. Not for power over, but for equality of. One pilgrimage I co-lead with another teacher, working with astrology, psychology, and personal archetypes using the icons of Isis (Mother Mary), The Magdalene (Miriam of Magdala) and Lilith (the Black Madonna). The second was with a well known herstorian and writer exploring the Hieros Gamos, Cathar history, and the path of the Mary’s after the death of The Christ. Both were in the south of France. Both brought profound understanding and renewal.  My path/teaching content has wound full circle, as it was the path of the Feminine that started my feet through all the many cultures, stories, sacred sites, and awareness of humanity as One, that I have been blessed to explore these past 40 years. 

Why am I sharing that? Because whether you are a woman, or a man, we all need to unpack what holds us back from the profound knowledge, compassion, strength and creative spark that resides within us, once we learn to honor, transform and manifest our Divine Feminine, and co-create our own Hieros Gamos. 

I believe this dream is one person’s continued quest for that.

The dream:

I am in a big off-white room sitting in a room with lots of young women running around. I am sitting in a chair and a woman who I knew (can’t remember upon waking up) is standing behind me. She is sensing something. And I tell her the room just needs to be smudged or at least painted yellow. I asked her if she knew what smudging was and she said of course but she gave me a look and said but I am not sure about the young women. The room was to be a meeting place and everyone was there to fix/clean it up.

In the right corner there was an old dilapidated bureau. No one seemed to learn to fix it. I looked at it and said, it is only the veneer coming off, there will be another layer underneath. It will be fine. It just needs some paint and care. I can paint it blue. I look in the drawer as there are some tools. I pick up a wrapped screwdriver and I am really happy to find it. It has both kinds of tip. The woman I am with is looking at me and says, what are you going to do with that. I say it is a good screw driver, I can use it.

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I am in a big off-white room sitting with lots of young women running around. I am sitting in a chair and a woman who I knew (can’t remember upon waking up) is standing behind me. She is sensing something.

A big room signifies the dreamer is giving herself space to explore something. Big rooms suggest expanding consciousness around something-an understanding or knowing. [The rooms of a house or building are very important within a dream context-more on that another time.] There are lots of women running around. There are parts of herself that are looking for cohesiveness, but they are running around, not in alignment with each other and not focused.

Colors stimulate emotions; those emotions are based on our perceptions and ‘personal story.’ The room is off-white. White on the Wisdom Wheels stands for boundaries, sharing, magnetizing to ourselves the people, places and concepts that help us grow, and likewise removing from our life the people, places, and concepts that hold us back. White is a blank slate, a new start. Off-white however suggests something still needs to be cleaned up.

The dreamer is sitting in a chair, indicating she is ready to corral and listen to these parts of herself. There is a woman standing behind the dreamer who senses something. This is the unbridled, yet focused part of her self, the one not confined and limited to the past stories. She is sensing what needs to change, or come to light.

And I tell her the room just needs to be smudged or at least painted yellow. I asked her if she knew what smudging was and she said of course but she gave me a look and said but I am not sure about the young women. The room was to be a meeting place and everyone was there to fix/clean it up.

Intrinsically the Self (the dreamer) knows what needs to be done. She offers that the room needs to be smudged (which is a form of cleansing a space, as smudging collects the positive ions in an active area, and brings the space back to homeostasis); and “at least painted yellow.” Yellow on Wisdom Wheels (as I was taught by Grandmother Twylah Nitsch), signifies ‘overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of loving ourselves, as well as bringing justice, through forgiveness, to past hurts and injustices’. 

The dreamer knows she needs to clean up these feelings she still holds about herself from the past, and although the ‘sensing part of herself’ knows this to be true, neither are sure all the fragmented parts of herself (the other women all running around), will know how to integrate. This is her dilemma, integration of her sacred Divine Self. Every part of her has agreed to this ‘meeting within herself’ (as they are all in the room) and she has to fix this disconnect to feel solid.

In the right corner there was an old dilapidated bureau. No one seemed to learn to fix it. I looked at it and said, it is only the veneer coming off, there will be another layer underneath. It will be fine. It just needs some paint and care. I can paint it blue.

In the right corner there is an old dilapidated bureau. Corners ‘collect’ energy, in fact when smudging, it should be one of the first places in a room that you address. The right side of the body corresponds to the left brain. The right and left hemispheres of the brain each carry a function and specific traits. The left brain, (simply put) is about logical analysis, reasoning and attention to detail. These are the tools to look at our past, and put things in better perspective.

There is a dilapidated bureau, that no one seems to have learned how to fix. No one taught her what she needs to do to fix the feelings she is looking to either release or embody. A bureau ‘stores things’, and if we fail to clear our bureaus out once in a while, they collect old and out worn items that just take up space. metaphorically this symbol represents these thoughts about herself. However, she understands that the veneer is coming off-the old ways of thinking no longer serve her. She knows there is more under the surface of who she thought she was. This is the most important part of the dream, as she is acknowledging that she is more than meets the eye. 

Like the bureau , she needs a ‘change of color’ (perception), care (self-value) and self-love. There are things in the bureau that are worth keeping, and some that are not. This is what she needs to ‘unpack.’ This isn’t just a dream, it is a process.

She thinks to paint it blue. Blue on the wheels indicates understanding the difference between service and servitude, and trusting ones intuition as a growth factor.  This takes great care because not everything ‘we intuit’ is accurate, we must teach ourselves to know the difference between what we wish was, and what is.

I look in the drawer as there are some tools. I pick up a wrapped screwdriver and I am really happy to find it. It has both kinds of tip. The woman I am with is looking at me and says, what are you going to do with that. I say it is a good screw driver, I can use it.

Within the drawers she finds a screw driver and it has ‘both kinds of tips’. Two tips indicates the two sides of our self–the right & left brain; the divine feminine and masculine; the unloved and the loved; and the parts we need to assess or reassess to honor our truth.

A screw driver can unwind things, as well as secure things. This symbolically is a tool for her to use as she does her self-work and discovers new ways of looking at herself and her life. And will assist her to unwind or secure all old ways that need to be unpacked and released for her continued growth and happiness. She is on her way to another level; there are always other levels to explore.

Thank you dreamer.

Aside: I need more dreams for whomever is interested in sending me something. I will be doing another dream this month, but that will be the last one I have in my dream file. You can be anonymous if that is your preference, and just entitle the e-mail Dream. Thank you.

I chose this dream to explain a bit about how names and colors influence dream content, given their vibrational explanation/s. I draw on alot of Gram Twylah’s Wisdom Wheel psychology this month, even though I have done  a bit of that in past dream blog deciphering. I feel this dream is rich with how these meanings enhance the decoding of what the dreamer is trying to ‘tell’ herself. 

There are many interpretations to the Wisdom Wheels. On the simplest level, her teachings contained the Cycles of Truth (that we all must navigate as we live our Earthwalk), and the Pathway of Peace (that become our individual way of finding balance on that ‘walk’). 

The Dream:

I am in a familiar place and I am with Thomas, Ben, and Mary. I am preparing for something that begins with A but cant remember right now. I am very good at this and I need to show someone else what to do. People are milling around and I overhear that Mary and Thomas are going to the ashram for the week-end. I ask if there is room for me and they say Ben is going to maybe you can go with him. I ask Ben and he says fine. I ask if they had called accommodations to see if there was room. They asked if I could do that. I said I need to pack and it wont take long. I call accommodations and am waiting a while. I pass the phone to Mary and she waits for them to answer. I go to pack and I find my suitcase is full. I unpack and I open a door and I see that Gurumayi is sitting in a chair with her back to me giving darshan. She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. I close the door as not to disturb her. She says are you coming?

I am in a familiar place and I am with Thomas, Ben, and Mary. I am preparing for something that begins with A but cant remember right now.

Each of these people represent what they mean in waking life to the dreamer, but also an aspect about herself. She is in a familiar place, which with each of the names she list, could me she has come to an understanding of parts of herself.

Let’s take them one at a time and use some word play. Thomas: this is a part of her that doubts something, as in Doubting Thomas. Thomas also means ‘twin’. This suggests to me that there is a secondary part of the dreamer that may well know she is doubting something about herself, and trying to work past those feelings/thoughts to find a more secure base.

Ben is short for Benjamin or Benedict. It means ‘the son of’, and usually refers to ‘son of my right hand’ and courage. Here the dreamer is calling attention to the right hand/left brain. She needs to take charge of something in her personal life and logically, courageously figure out the part of herself that she is doubting denying or leaving hidden. 

Mary has many connotations. It has been a well used name biblically and historically. If we take the name from the Egyptian mry, it means loved or beloved. What aspect of herself does the dreamer need to work at loving? She is preparing to assimilate all of these clues to accomplish something that starts with an A, though upon waking she still hasn’t formulated what that is, or she would have awakened with an understanding of what she is preparing for. 

‘A’ is the first letter of the alphabet, as well as the first vowel (often labeled a capstone). And she has capitalized it in her dream description. In numerology it refers to courage, ambition, and being in charge. These are the significant adverbs she needs to utilize to uncover what she is trying to learn about herself.

I am very good at this and I need to show someone else what to do. People are milling around and I overhear that Mary and Thomas are going to the ashram for the week-end. I ask if there is room for me and they say Ben is going to maybe you can go with him. I ask Ben and he says fine.

The dreamer knows she has a talent she ‘hasn’t worn on her sleeve’ for others to see. In fact she probably still denies this part of her own talents and skills. The ‘red letter A’ was used to shame a literary character in the Scarlet Letter, perhaps, if we are still using word play, the dreamer feels ashamed to let others see this side strong part of herself?

There are other aspects of herself ‘milling around.’ These are the parts of herself that still judge her and possibly deny her courage and ambitions to be all she is. She overhears the struggle within between her ‘beloved self’ and her ‘doubting self’, who wish to go into the silence (the ashram) to find the balance of truth she holds within.

She petitions those parts of herself if there is ‘room’ for her in this realization, this place of self actualization, and the dream directs her to (Ben) logically think through where she denies herself, her love of self, or her sovereignty of purpose in this lifetime. Ben wants to help her, as he agrees he can direct her.

I ask if they had called accommodations to see if there was room. They asked if I could do that. I said I need to pack and it wont take long. I call accommodations and am waiting a while. I pass the phone to Mary and she waits for them to answer.

Ironically she is still looking to see if she can be accommodated in this inner search, through her outer world communication. They all encourage her to do this for herself. She needs to pack, although I would suggest she needs to ‘unpack’ some of the ways she looks at herself and/or feels about herself. She’s waiting on others to answer her call, when really she needs to allow the ‘beloved’ (Mary) in herself to communicate that.

I go to pack and I find my suitcase is full. I unpack and I open a door and I see that Gurumayi is sitting in a chair with her back to me giving darshan. She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. I close the door as not to disturb her. She says are you coming?

She goes to pack and finds her suitcase full. She needs to unpack her perceptions and beliefs, but has started the process. She has begun the ‘unpacking’ via the dream. She opens a door, signifying another way of going within or another way of letting something in.  A new awareness.

She sees Gurumayi sitting in a chair with her back to the dreamer giving darshan. This is very significant. Although Gurumayi is a spiritual teacher, she represents the spiritual teacher within this dreamer. At the level of One we are all spiritual teachers. We simply need to claim that knowingness within the context of our own life. So in her outer life, the dreamer still is seeking another person, leader, higher power to lead her to the  qualities of herself, when actually only the Self can tap that understanding and lay claim to all we are. This does not imply that we do not need mentors, guides, spiritual teachers, etc. along the way, but at some point we need to make the teachings our own.

Darshan is about receiving a blessing, which Gurumayi, the Higher Self is offering, but her back is to the dreamer. This implies that the dreamer doesn’t fully see who she is and all she is capable of. The higher Self 9Gurumayi) is not ignoring her, but the opportunity of seeing the ‘holy person’ or the image of our own divinity needs to come from within.

She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. White represent purity, boundaries’, and magnetizing to our self what we need to know our truth or releasing from our life that which is nolonger true for us. That it is a hat, signifies that the crown chakra is covered, and we need to bring our awareness to the highest level of personal understanding for our growth. Purple represents the dreamtime, healing, the wisdom that comes from gratitude and awareness. It is a shawl that surrounds her body, bringing that awareness as a cloak of knowing to her full terrestrial self. 

The last two sentences are a great response between the unrecognized self and the Higher Self. The dreamer doesn’t want to disturb this holy part that is confident in her own knowing, and yet that is exactly what she needs to do. The Higher Self knowing that, asks “Aren’t you coming in?” Aren’t you ready to converse? Aren’t you ready to let go of all your doubts about who you are, and love yourself enough to have the courage to be You. 

Do you dreamer? 

Hello Dreamers:

I don’t know about the rest of you, but that last Mercury retrograde from March 22nd-April 15th in the fire sign of Aries was a doozy. In the fire sign of Aries the retrograde motion brought up issues of independence, rethinking relationships (with self and others), speaking up/or not speaking before thinking through, and may have provoked childish responses from those who didn’t get their way the way they wanted. 

All things being equal, one of the ways I chose to exercise my independence and rethink my relationship with my blog, was to not offer a March excerpt. Now that might be perceived as a childish response on my part, but I’d rather like to think of it as redefining, or revisiting, my needs given the sheer overwhelm in my life last month. I decided I need not berate myself for not following “my self imposed monthly procedure to get my blog done and out.” 

What Mercury retrograde in its course offers each of us, is the opportunity to try out a different view. Maybe come back to an issue with a fresh set of eyes. Maybe renew, repeat, redirect, refurbish, restructure, reject or re-ignite something. It’s a good time to reorganize ourselves around what we need to tweak in our life to gain more satisfaction moving forward. Hence this dream. 

The Dream:

I’m in the hospital for knee replacement surgery. I haven’t been given my packet of information. A male doctor offers to help, he’s tall, can see over the heads of all the people clustered around to find what I need. I climb up on his shoulders. He sees the packet with a white label I need, it’s sitting open on an empty chair, incomplete. I find the head nurse, the Administrator, to complain that my packet was in full view of everyone, violating my HIPAA privacy rights. I’m angry. She’s doing exercises, showing other women how to open their hips to help with the recovery from surgery. I want to know why she didn’t include me in her lesson. She said I had to ask. I wonder why I have to ask when I’m here for help in the first place and don’t know anything about this whole thing. I’m confused, angry and alone. Then I suddenly get this sense of a solid concrete feminine pillar rooted in the base of the central channel. Beside it is a watery New Mary surging up from the depths to loosen and release the concrete form of the Old Mary. I wake up.

I’m in the hospital for knee replacement surgery. I haven’t been given my packet of information.

Hospitals are places of healing. Structures that can possibly help restore something that has gone array physically, emotionally, or mentally. We go to hospitals when we need to feel better; they are often places we go to seek ‘an educated opinion about something’ and hopefully to gain insight so we can feel better or heal something. 

In this case the dreamer needs knee replacement surgery. Knees are crucial to the ability of the body to be flexible and walk forward in life. Knees also indicate the ability to bend; to surrender; to supplicate. They are joints so they symbolize changing circumstances. Knees are often seen as the part of the body that represents karma, and in many studies represents sexual desires and passion.

This dreamer needs to be more flexible with the way she needs to replace what she has ignored about her own sexual desires. She is seeking a place to heal and educate herself on what she needs to welcome the next phase into her life. This will help her to karmically adjust and educate herself, so she is able to change her circumstances, and heal that which no longer serves, engaging and exploring relationship in the new ways she may desire.

The dreamer hasn’t been given her packet of information. She doesn’t know how to do this quite yet. She wants to do it, but she’s in need of help.

A male doctor offers to help, he’s tall, can see over the heads of all the people clustered around to find what I need. I climb up on his shoulders. He sees the packet with a white label I need, it’s sitting open on an empty chair, incomplete.

The male doctor in this case represents her inner masculine. We all  are made up of both divine feminine attributes and divine masculine attributes, our souls contain all potentialities. We often make the mistake choosing an outer representation of what we wish to experience within ourselves when choosing a partners; and then get hurt in the process because they too are trying to find what they are seeking in themselves. Knowing the Self is an inner experience, not an outer one, can bring us different relationships with self or other.

The masculine offers focus, discipline and a way to logically but compassionately balance her view. He can help fix this situation, why? Because he is able to look above all the parts of herself (the people), that represent her past wounds, and/or simply get in the way of herself. That can include both her self directed isolation, and those elements she has experienced in this life that have made her pull back full feminine expression.

She needs to climb on his shoulders. She is willing to ask him to help her get above this issue. She relies on his strength, (shoulders represent being able to handle the burden for someone else) and warmth (because climbing on someone’s shoulders suggests trust, but not being yet able to have intimacy).

White, on the Wisdom Wheels as I have been taught, represents boundaries, sharing, magnetizing to ourselves what we want, and releasing what no longer serves. It also represents purity. A packet represents all the information the dreamer already knows, but hasn’t fully discovered,  but it is fully contained within her already. The purity represents coming to this inner knowing without debasing herself.

The packet is sitting on an empty chair, incomplete. Again, the packet represents the fact that she has everything within her to look at this situation with new eyes. The empty chair represents that she is not confronting something, and that makes her ability to deal with these feelings and desires, incomplete. She needs to sit with herself.

I find the head nurse, the Administrator, to complain that my packet was in full view of everyone, violating my HIPAA privacy rights. I’m angry.

She is looking for the higher authority within herself to heal this situation. And, she is upset that although she thinks this personal aspect of herself has been well hidden, that now others see this incomplete part of herself too. Her sexual desires have been exposed and brought to the forefront of her waking life, and this is still uncomfortable on one or more levels. She still holds anger around her desires and her past history with men, which needs to be addressed. Her higher authority, higher self, is exposing her to normal human physical needs, and that feels a bit like a violation.

She’s doing exercises, showing other women how to open their hips to help with the recovery from surgery. I want to know why she didn’t include me in her lesson. She said I had to ask. I wonder why I have to ask when I’m here for help in the first place and don’t know anything about this whole thing. I’m confused, angry and alone.

The higher authority (administrative nurse) is doing exercises with other women to open their hips….open their sexuality as part of their recovery. The dreamer is angry she wasn’t included in the lessons that would help her open herself again to sexual exploration or partnership. She may need to find a ‘teacher’ or counselor to help her explore this.

The nurse tells her she has to ask. We all need to ask for help when we are confused and uncertain; we often need to find new means to explore what still feels unknown to us. Yes, she has to go within and ask herself why? and how? and what? to all the ways she has , or still limits the expression of her desires and passions. It is suggested that she look at her fear, and anger, and whatever else comes up in her ‘inner discussion’ with the part of her being that wishes to be liberated. She clearly doesn’t know how to approach that discussion and that leaves her confused, angry and still alone.

Then I suddenly get this sense of a solid concrete feminine pillar rooted in the base of the central channel. Beside it is a watery New Mary surging up from the depths to loosen and release the concrete form of the Old Mary. I wake up.

If I understand this part of the dream, her Divine Feminine is still within her central core, her knowingness, her supreme being, but it has become atrophied, a concrete pillar, instead of flesh and blood, movement and action, desire and aliveness….she is awakening. A statue simulates life, it is not life.

A watery new Mary shows her that emotionally she is capable of rising from the depths of herself, her subconscious self wants and needs to be brought to a new measure of life, releasing the old ways she has confined herself. 

Some say Mary means ‘star of the sea’, others that the word comes from the Hebrew, and means ‘bitter’. We juggle both those factors within us as women. There are many Mary’s: Virgin Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Mary of Bethany (Martha & Lazarus’s sister), Mary Salome (Salome means peace).

These are all the Mary’s within us as women that we need to uncover and give voice to. Each of the Mary’s teaches us something about ourselves: the way we forget to mother and nurture ourselves; the way we have allowed others to malign our worth or worse, done that to ourselves; the way we can help ourselves rise again; the way we can find peace–what ever that means for us, for it is different for, and equally special in each of us.  All these aspects are part of the personal healing process when we choose a higher view of who we are, and allow that to manifest outwardly.

Thank you dreamer for sharing. 

This is the shortest month of the year, and in lieu of that, this will be the shortest dream blog decoding for this year. Why? Because I need more dreams people!!! LOL

The most important piece about this dreamer’s dream, is that she did not relay the choice she ended up making; there is no ability to give her a different perspective of her choice. In this case I applaud that missed piece of information.

This somewhat mirrors the awareness that can arise during this astrological period in which we now find ourselves; which I will explain in a minute. Even if this dream occurred in the past, because dreams come from the unconscious, they are not bound by time or space. That is why you can decode a dream from childhood, and it will still hold significance in the explanation of it, for some aspect of where you currently find yourself.

Astrologically we are under the influence of a stellium of planets in Pisces. A stellium is a number of planets (or important asteroids), in the same zodiacal sign. The Sun, Venus, Mercury, Chiron and Neptune will be in the sign of Pisces between February 18th and March 5th, 2018. With Jupiter currently in Scorpio, it expands and impacts, what lies deep within, either for release or expanded self-understanding.

All signs have their positive and less positive aspects. Pisces is a water sign. It can cleanse, overwhelm, is intuitive, compassionate, self-less—to the point of one’ own detriment sometimes—escapist, and creative. Scorpio is likewise a water sign—powerful, magnetic, emotional, intuitive, secretive, compulsive, inflexible and resentful.

Why am I sharing astrological information for a dream blog? Well, like this dreamer’s dream, this time period offers all of us a deep healing and a time for strong ‘knowing’. In this time period, it is possible to release old karmic ties and patterns—especially those in which we may still wear rose-colored glasses—if we are able to assess the karmic cycles and contracts we have been trying to move beyond for so long.

How does this apply to the dream? I know this dreamer well. We have worked in session through her dreams for many years. She is an intuitive, giving person, but she often has denied what she knows giving her power away to others, under the illusion that they might now better or more. She has been learning to stand in her own power, and the fact that she clearly states that “I choose correctly” shows me she is moving past old karmic patterns of seeking out others opinions, and trusting her own.

The Dream:
It is dark in the dream and I have to choose from some hollowed out rubber tubes. They are red yellow and green. I had to choose the ones that were flexible and could unfold. I choose correctly. Then I remembered I dreamed this dream before and I chose the same tubes before. I told myself I had to remember the dream if I had it before. It must be important, something I need to know.

It is dark in the dream and I have to choose from some hollowed out rubber tubes.

This implies that she feels ‘in the dark’ about something. Something has as yet come into your conscious awareness. Tubes by their definition are hollow, which means they can be filled with something. But to hollow something out, also means to clean something out of an item, to its core level. Rubber indicates that something is flexible, resilient and can be shaped in a new way.

They are red yellow and green. I had to choose the ones that were flexible and could unfold.

On the wisdom wheel, red stands for life force energy, speaking your truth and trusting yourself. Yellow stands for overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of you loving yourself, releasing past injustices, and the persistence to conquer your fears. Green stands for analyzing where you need to deconstruct your world to reconstruct it, self-determination to respect one’s truth, and coming to one’s own self-authority.

She has to be flexible with these choices, and unfold the old story she has told herself; the one’s that have held her back from each of these aspects of herself. The story of the past (its questions, mistakes, alliances), nolonger are important. What is of utmost importance is the story she creates for herself as she moves towards her future choices.

I choose correctly.

She has taken a stand for herself. She knows her truth. She has defined that she made the right choice for herself. No one else needs to know what that is, she has determined it for herself, and only herself. Brava!!!

Anyone of those colored tubes could have brought her to a place of self-actualization, so it almost doesn’t matter which one she chose. That she chose, and sees it as the correct choice, is empowering enough. It implies she has done the self-work she has needed to stand in her own sovereignty.

Then I remembered I dreamed this dream before and I chose the same tubes before. I told myself I had to remember the dream if I had it before. It must be important, something I need to know.

Her dreaming self, the 95% subconscious self, (where so much of our personal ‘iceberg’ dwells), brings her to a memory that she has not only dreamt this same dream before, but that she has chosen correctly before. It is a reminder to take that knowing into her waking state. For not only having made this choice, but other choices she makes for herself moving forward. 

Yes, it is important to know that the choices we make, can untie the karmic cycles we often find ourselves in. That when we trust ourselves, love ourselves, and stand in our self-authority, that we ARE being compassionate, intuitive, and flexible with our own needs….and that is self-realization.
Thank you dreamer.

My apologies for not getting a dream out at the end of 2017. Like so many things, life simply took over and I didn’t have the time to write. But I did enjoy the holidays with my daughter, and for me to step away from my therapy work for that long during the holidays from others who find this time of year difficult, provided both a blessing and renewal. And that is what Solstice, Christmas, Hanukkah, New Year’s etc. represents—an opportunity to change how we’ve done things and go within, choosing something that nurtures us.

Due to not providing a dream blog in December, I am doing an extra-long interpretation this month. I chose this dream because in a small way, it mirrored my own emotional juggling to take a different path over these holidays, in ways I hadn’t fully allowed myself in the past.

I woke this morning to this dream and it was so strong that I recorded on my voice recorder so I could remember details to write to you.

So:

I am walking across a street at night — not quite running away from something, but definitely staying to the shadows and trying to avoid something. I get across and go to the side/back of a building to have a cigarette (even though, awake, I don’t smoke 🙂 When I finish and go to the front, I run into my parents and one of my brothers. They are going inside the restaurant/bar and I say I will join them and ‘buy a round’ of drinks.

I don’t remember what happens in there but as I’m leaving the building the “government or police” arrest me for smoking. I’m put with a bunch of people waiting to be executed/hung for their crimes. I say to one that I can’t believe this is really going to happen and she says that they don’t go ‘all the way through with it’ (meaning executing people).

My phone is there and I put it down. Next thing I know we (criminals) are being taken out and I see others outside waiting with black veils on their heads and faces. I realize they are the family members of others and are ready to be in mourning because we are going to die. I’m mad that I didn’t make a call to my roommate to feed and take care of my cat (I haven’t had a roommate in over a year in waking life)

We go down a dirt path to where I see 3 stumps with a large ax and some hanging rope near them. Each stump has a circle of dried blood in the center. Right before we reached the location a woman (prisoner) says to me “You don’t want to be in the front with the smokers’ – which of course I am (ugh)

I am able to wake myself at this point with heart racing. In waking, I realize I kept thinking all along that I would be hanged, but actually would have had my head chopped off. I fell back asleep and was back in this place in some hazy way, but it’s not clear. Finally woke exhausted (and late, of course)

 

I am walking across a street at night — not quite running away from something, but definitely staying to the shadows and trying to avoid something. I get across and go to the side/back of a building to have a cigarette (even though, awake, I don’t smoke 🙂 When I finish and go to the front, I run into my parents and one of my brothers. They are going inside the restaurant/bar and I say I will join them and ‘buy a round’ of drinks.

A street represents a life path, walking across it signifies that one is changing the way they have done their life path up to this point. You are not quite running, but you are definitely staying to the shadows, and it is night. Not quit running suggests you may be fearing something about this life change.

To me it is curious that you are staying to the shadows, because shadows show themselves mainly during daylight, and they are an illusion of form. But these shadows (assuming from streetlights or the like) give you comfort from not being seen. My question/s would be how do you see yourself now that you have created this change in your life? And what are you avoiding perhaps, due to this change in your life? Staying to the shadows implies that there is a sense of needing to be either prudent about the change or perhaps you need to revisit some of the options you made for this change.

You go to the back of the building and have a cigarette, even though you don’t smoke. Smoking in a dream often implies feeling stressed, and going to the back of the building implies trying to hide something (either from yourself or another). It also carries implications to watch for high blood pressure.

Seeing family members can mean many things. They can represent themselves or something about you. I know that your parents have passed, so when we dream of parents who have crossed over (like you have done on the street, and in your new life) it is asking us to let go of a way we see ourselves and learn to ‘parent’ ourselves in a new way. They are with your brother. What was your relationship with your brother? What is one word you would use to describe your brother? That’s a clue for you. Is the interaction a pleasant one, are you glad to see him, is there a dispute you have had with him….what is your connection in one word.

They are going inside a restaurant. Restaurants, like families can suggest nurturing. But if the restaurant is not good, or the family wasn’t supportive, or possibly even distant, it says something about a conflict within yourself that you might need to change, address, and/or nurture within yourself moving forward. You offer to buy them a drink. This appears like you wish to celebrate something or toast something. Maybe about what it has taken you to change your course and release stress from your world? To drink something in a dream (and you didn’t say what, which also carries a symbology) represents the ability to take in a new idea or implement a new concept.

I don’t remember what happens in there but as I’m leaving the building the “government or police” arrest me for smoking. I’m put with a bunch of people waiting to be executed/hung for their crimes. I say to one that I can’t believe this is really going to happen and she says that they don’t go ‘all the way through with it’ (meaning executing people).

You don’t remember, which could suggest that you don’t know the new way to fully implement this new life. Also I have suggested in other blog posts, that other people in the dream represent themselves as well as aspects of our self. The police and government imply monitoring agents; they suggest there are new rules and regulations that you need to implement in your life now. They also suggest that some aspect within you is putting stress in the form of ‘rules’ about something in regards to this change. It would be good to take some time and think on what that might be.

The ‘bunch of people’ waiting to be executed are perhaps aspects of yourself that that are ‘dying’ to an old way of doing things, i.e. your life as you once did it. There is a part of you though (the woman), who knows that we really don’t need to let go of all aspects of our self if we do not wish to, it is merely a metaphor of how we speak of our self and are heard in the world now….especially if your past job was one where you spoke, lectured, taught, or counseled because hanging implies the throat chakra and voice.

My phone is there and I put it down. Next thing I know we (criminals) are being taken out and I see others outside waiting with black veils on their heads and faces. I realize they are the family members of others and are ready to be in mourning because we are going to die. I’m mad that I didn’t make a call to my roommate to feed and take care of my cat (I haven’t had a roommate in over a year in waking life)

You put your phone down. Phones are access of communication to the outer world. You have put aside how you communicate with the outer world, and decide how to do that perhaps differently in your life now. Criminal from the Latin root means “to decide.” Deciding how, when, and what you wish to do, is all yours.

The others are wearing black veils on their heads and faces. Black on the Wisdom Wheel is about going within, listening to one’s inner guidance, and finding one’s own source of truth moving forward. These are the most important symbols in this dream as I see it, because it gives you the direction you need to go, within “to decide” how you wish to proceed. The family they represent, is the new ‘inner family’ you are formulating now that you are “parenting” yourself to take a new direction.

The old is dying away, but you know that death is simply transformation to another awareness. Some part of you, subconsciously, is mourning the old you, or old position, as you redefine your new life. This could be as simple as the day-to-day time/structure of your life having changed, to the location you lived and worked that you once knew so well.

Your roommate is you, the one that lives within your psyche and the cat (in dreams) represents intuition and mystery….which we get to fully tap when we are in the ‘black position’ on the Wheel, because we now have the time to explore another part of our selves that needs voice.

We go down a dirt path to where I see 3 stumps with a large ax and some hanging rope near them. Each stump has a circle of dried blood in the center. Right before we reached the location a woman (prisoner) says to me “You don’t want to be in the front with the smokers’ – which of course I am (ugh)

I could interpret a dirt path in two ways, and would need to ask you more questions to assess which interpretation might be right for you. Dirt is needed to seed something, and it is already laid out in path which means the direction is there for you, to release the old and grow something new. But again there is a need for prudence, because not all seeds planted take in dirt. The other way it can be interpreted is that a dirt road can portend a possible struggle, and you may be encountering that internally by the way you are fearing punishment ahead.

A stump represents the ‘tree’ is no longer what it once was. The Tree Of Life, symbolizes our life’s path in many forms, and this stump appears to signify that you do not feel the lushness of the growth of the tree anymore.

Three (3) on the Wheel symbolizes “regulating and refining.” It has to do with new ideas and impressions; reorganization of our behavior; discipline, growth, precision and commitment. To what? Your new life. How will you enhance your life source energy? What will you choose to do? 

Dried blood may signify that you feel a lack of life force energy, but it is in a circle, and circles represent eternity. You are in the front of the line. This new path and the seeds you plant are entirely up to you; this is a new beginning.

I am able to wake myself at this point with heart racing. In waking, I realize I kept thinking all along that I would be hanged, but actually would have had my head chopped off. I fell back asleep and was back in this place in some hazy way, but it’s not clear. Finally woke exhausted (and late, of course)

When we wake up sharply like that, with a start, or our heart racing, or a jolt, it is our Higher Self, the most conscious part of our being, trying to make sure “we got the memo.”

Believe it or not, beheading in dreams represents personal freedom. Why? Because the head and mental body that defines often how and what we should do, is severed from the body and the pleasure centers that desire. Thus you are not relegated to any one else’s systems, time-lines, or rules, other than creating your own script.

Death becomes your liberation here, not as a reality, but as a new beginning from the old way you did your life for so many years; it offers you new freedoms and explorations. The dream does ask you to review where you may still feel connected to a past definition of yourself that no longer serves the new life you can embrace, as it has ‘your heart racing’. Although, the liberation to plant new seeds and discover whatever brings you to a celebration of your new life, is right there too. Salute!!!
Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Today is Thanksgiving in the US, a day set aside for gratitude, family, friends, and the bounty of what the Earth offers us, and the generosity of what those First Nations People, the Wampanoag, offered those first refugees of religious freedom. Our country from the very first landing of those ships, was based on refugees looking for a better way of life, for themselves, and their children. We are at our best when we keep that in mind, as our global situation–where all colors and creeds are forced into situations where they become refugees–to be cognizant of what those Pilgrims really were, and remember the assistance to their survival that those they did not know, the Wampanoag, offered them.

Why state all that in a dream blog? Because the Pilgrims dreamed big to find a place to celebrate their religious beliefs. And the Native People dreamed big to step outside of fear of strangers and instead encourage, teach, and welcome these refugees. And our dreams are big opportunities that show us, life and choices is neither black nor white; and between the two often lies sacrifice, trust, and new beginnings to change old ways. This dreamer’s, dream brings this to mind.

The Dream: This was a long dream, and I don’t remember anything else but this fragment. I don’t know if it is enough for you to decode, but I thought to send it along.

I am looking in lots, and lots of rooms for something, or someone. I go into one room that is very sunny and I see a tiny black puppy all alone. I don’t want to leave it there alone, but I also know I can’t take it with me because I travel so much. I go into another room and see a small white puppy, exactly the same size and breed as the black one, only this one is with its mother, so it is easier to leave it there. 

The scene changes and becomes almost cartoon-like. There is a big game going on, and Tom Brady is yelling at everyone to be aware of something. I wake up.

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Aside: even one sentence, or perhaps if you title your dream…even if you just have a feeling about the dream. These can all be decoded, because they are simply your dream-self giving you clues to something that needs to be addressed, uncovered, discovered or released.

I am looking in lots, and lots of rooms for something, or someone.

The dreamer is on a search for something, possibly someone (their inner knowing) that can inform them of a turn they need to explore on their path. Searching enables one to transform, or to awaken to something they have been denying or ignoring. Lots and lots of rooms signifies that they need to search all levels of themselves: physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, whatever domain they can explore, that may trigger awareness for a growth process.

I go into one room that is very sunny and I see a tiny black puppy all alone. I don’t want to leave it there alone, but I also know I can’t take it with me because I travel so much.

There is a place within the dreamer that is trying to light her way forward. The lit room represents a clear situation she must look at, or that might prove brighter or clearer for her growth should she explore it further. There is a tiny black puppy. Puppies signify a dog that still needs to mature. Black on the Wisdom Wheel (as Gram Twylah taught me), signifies listening to yourself, sound, harmony, the balance of one’s truth (which is never simply black or white). It’s adversary is anxiety, because anxiety triggers us into a vibration where we often can’t hear the truth, or listen to our Higher self’s caution/s. 

Dogs are about loyalty, pursuit, and how to play while holding a profession. I would assess that because the dreamer travels so much, that she doesn’t have enough time to play. No down time. Something is trying to light-up that fact within her (all the rooms represent all the places within her). She feels she cannot take the time to play, and be loyal to her own needs, and leaves that truth (the black puppy) behind. She is not listening to herself.

I go into another room and see a small white puppy, exactly the same size and breed as the black one, only this one is with its mother, so it is easier to leave it there. 

She is given another perspective. Same size, same breed, different color. This one is white, and it seems it may be easier for her to nurture this aspect of herself in the immediate, because “the mother is there.”

A couple of observations. First, on the Wisdom Wheels, black falls opposite white. White represents magnetism, boundaries, sharing, and release. In order to work one side of the wheel (in this case, her inner ‘black’ desires) , one must approach from the opposite side. So she needs to nurture herself to create better boundaries in her work, while also magnetizing that which she needs to grow and that which she needs to release (‘white puppy’).  Sharing with others is not fulfilling if we cannot share with our self, our own self needs. She needs to create a strategy to bridge the two ‘puppies’ to be loyal to herself.

The scene changes and becomes almost cartoon-like. There is a big game going on, and Tom Brady is yelling at everyone to be aware of something. I wake up.

A scene shift in the dream-time often is our dreaming selves way of trying to impart the message again. In this case it is cartoon-like, making the dreamer curious because for her to note that, suggests it caught her attention. 

There is a big game going on…yes the ‘game’ of her life. Tom Brady (for those of you who are not sports fans or from New England), is the quarter-back of the Patriot’s. The quarter-back is the central figure on the field, he controls the plays. This represents the part of her Self that not only wants her to play more, but who needs to gain control with how she has been addressing her life to create more balance.

And, the ‘patriot’s’ represent having the courage to do something different, possibly something that others won’t back. Maybe travel less, maybe have more spontaneous fun, maybe take time to meditate to listen to herself needs, maybe creating boundaries with others usurping her time….it could be many things, and that is for the dreamer to decide. BUT, Tom (her inner personal quarter-back) is yelling “to be aware.” Aware of her needs so she has the ability to control them, instead of them controlling her.

Thank you dreamer for sharing…….and Happy Thanks that life is not simply black and white.

 

What if dreams and your waking state are both reality, merely from an alternative observation point, or perhaps from a different time line? In the waking state, your focus moves from your outer world as you interpret what is happening in your daily actions, through your inner world’s understanding and comparisons, adding to what you know, or perhaps how you wish to react.  The dreamstate on the other hand, contains messages from your inner world, and once awake, need to be processed through your outer world, your conscious state, to get the most benefit from what your Soul is trying to share with you. 

Our dream worlds are actually a higher level of our existence and value, and yet we often treat them as a distraction at best, or worse as something to be ignored and forgotten. In so doing we miss a huge part of who we are, and the information we hold within ourselves to move forward with less stress. 

When our subconscious and higher conscious aspects want us to stop ignoring cues imparted in our dreamstate, then we are often triggered by something in our awake state to remind us of  something we have yet uncovered.

I wasn’t able to find an entry in my dream journal about the white llama, but I can recall a specific scene of a dream which was triggered by the white llama we encountered on the path at the end of the trail at Machu Picchu.

THE DREAM:
In the dream, I was hiking along steep and rocky trails much like the ones we were on in Peru. I remember I was with a small group and initially I was hesitant about our route. As we kept walking, we came upon a white llama and its companions. Now the others in the group were more hesitant. They did not want to go further out of fear, despite the herd appearing very docile and doing nothing but feeding upon the grass. I felt that it was important for us to go on and so I stepped forward towards the llama and she and I exchanged gazes. After a few moments, we compromise and share the road. It was as if we came to an understanding, acknowledging one another’s presence and honoring that presence. The llama walks past my right closer to the rocky ledge as I am given the safer passage on the left. Both our groups have now passed one another on the road and I look back at the llama and her group one last time with deep-felt gratitude beyond a simple “thank you.”

In the dream, I was hiking along steep and rocky trails much like the ones we were on in Peru. I remember I was with a small group and initially I was hesitant about our route.

This implies the dreamer feels that she has some tough or rocky challenges ahead, as she moves towards something in her life she wants for herself. She is with others, but she is hesitant about the route. The others could be parts of herself that wish to take a different path, or perhaps people in her life that she is currently friends with, that don’t understand the path she is taking.

As we kept walking, we came upon a white llama and its companions. Now the others in the group were more hesitant.

She keeps forging ahead, when they come upon a white llama and its herd. White animals in waking or sleeping life indicate a message from Spirit. Llamas often imply the strength that comes through awareness, or the endurance it takes to get to that awareness. This would parallel the steep and rocky path, also indicating there needs to be a level of awareness and caution to traverse the direction being taken, without mishap.

Llamas are burden carriers, so I would ask the dreamer in lieu of the group she hangs out with, or perhaps the job she has, if she carries alot of the burden and responsibility, of doing her own thing, without support. There needs to be balance both on the path and in regards to the endurance she uses with others to succeed in getting where she wants. Llamas have the ability to adapt to many situations, as does she. 

This could also signify that there are those in her crowd of friends that are taking advantage of her. Why: Llamas in the South American tradition are somewhat akin to the buffalo in Native American tradition; they represent Mother Earth, offer their love by giving everything of themselves so the people may live, and they care for the ‘herd’ at large. So there also needs to boundaries established, as evidenced by the color white.  In this regard, her biggest focus needs to be on herself.

Now the others in the group were more hesitant. They did not want to go further out of fear, despite the herd appearing very docile and doing nothing but feeding upon the grass. I felt that it was important for us to go on and so I stepped forward towards the llama and she and I exchanged gazes.

Others in her group are hesitant to face the challenges that she is willing to face. They are fearful of the changes and the challenges it will take to move forward, both of which are needed in life to grow.

The llamas here are docile and feeding on grass. What an animal is doing in a dream is very important to the context. Grazing docile animals signify that peace and calm can come, but it also could imply that we are not stretching toward our goal, which inevitably could bring greater peace and calm to our life. Green is about growing in the direction of change that you wish to experience.

In general an animal’s state in the dreamtime can tell us something about our  own attitude. I would ask the dreamer what she is being docile about in attaining something she wishes to change on her own path, either because it goes against the ‘herd’, or perhaps because it is easier to go along with the crowd at points. Here is also where she makes a decision to claim herself, as she decides it is important to move forward, despite their fear, or her own. 

She and the llama gaze at each other. Gazing implies they look into each others eyes. Eyes indicate the gateway to the soul. At a soul level the dreamer knows her instincts and desires are to keep moving, growing, exploring and changing, even if that risks not being fully understood.

After a few moments, we compromise and share the road. It was as if we came to an understanding, acknowledging one another’s presence and honoring that presence. The llama walks past my right closer to the rocky ledge as I am given the safer passage on the left.

There is part of the dreamer that knows she can find an inner compromise to follow her route forward in life. Not everything has to be hard and challenging to be sincere and validating. The llama walks on the right, closer to the rocky edge, giving her safe passage on the left. The part of her that wants peace and awareness is willing to logically (right-side) risk the edge; allowing the part of her that still needs to feel nurtured (the left-side), to trust her intuition on what is the best route for her to take to accomplish her goal/s. The compromise is a good one because it serves two purposes–forward movement, in a safe and calm direction.

Both our groups have now passed one another on the road and I look back at the llama and her group one last time with deep-felt gratitude beyond a simple “thank you.”

The dreamer has gotten her soul’s message; she can be full of gratitude that the path ahead may sometimes appear rocky or steep, but that there are ways for her to move toward her ultimate goal without it feeling like a burden. To feel comfortable that sometimes her desires will take her ‘away’ from her herd temporarily, but that there will also be other groups that she will find kinship with along the path.

Thank you dreamer

 

Ernest Hoffman, director of the Sleep Disorders Center at Newton-Wellesley Hospital in Massachusetts, suggested in ​a 2006 Scientific American article that “…a possible (though certainly not proven) function of a dream is to be weaving new material into the memory system in a way that both reduces emotional arousal and is adaptive in helping us cope with further trauma or past stressful events.”

When learning how to “listen” to the dreamers cadence and dream imagery, Gram Twylah suggested that the dream becomes an important therapeutic emotional security mechanism of the dreamer because they are stimulated to make connections between different thoughts and emotions in a safe environment (the dream).

Robert Moss, a well known dream author, postulates that “dreams are an experience into our alternate lives.” This concept is talked about at great length by a theoretical physicist named Michio Kaku in his book called, Parallel Universes. If this theory is true, then it stands to reason that we can be shown alternate images of our self, when we are ready to explore parts of our Greater Self , that might have been left behind, or not recognized/realized at all due to our childhood situation/s.

The dream offers a way for those parts of our Self to become known to us, when we are ready to explore them more actively, or embrace their potency more freely. I believe this is what this dreamer is wrestling with in the following dream.

THE DREAM:

I am in a house and the glass doors are open and there is a breeze. There is a young child with blond hair, may 4 years old. I am coloring my hair and I am about to rinse it out when I realize I have maybe 25 min before rinsing it out. The little girl wants to come into the house, but I am not ready and I want more time to be alone. The little girl goes and gets a woman and they try to get inside the house, but I am ahead of them and I close the door and lock it with a black wrought iron beautiful lock. I run to the different windows and doors so they won’t get in. It feels like they are taunting me to get in. I locked or closed everything I could. Only one door remained unlocked because I knew they were gone and I was safe.

I am in a house and the glass doors are open and there is a breeze.

Again dream symbology is both metaphoric and individual. I cannot stress this enough in my blogs. That said, houses often represent the physical body. Glass doors signify a need for a sense of openness, clarity, and a way to see past old obstructions.

Doors can be seen as a passage ways into a new phase, or level of consciousness. In a way they represent an ‘invitation.’ It is open and there is a breeze, which means that the dreamer wants to be open to something new, and the breeze is an indication of movement. It is not a howling wind, or a still-point. The breeze suggests this can be an inviting, easy, gentle opportunity.

There is a young child with blond hair, may 4 years old. I am coloring my hair and I am about to rinse it out when I realize I have maybe 25 min before rinsing it out.

Here I would ask the dreamer what happened around 4 years old in her life?  Little girls in dreams can mean happier times. They can also suggest there were fewer burdens at that time, or alternatively express a need to release burdens felt at that time. The blonde hair signifies a need to enjoy life or lighten up. Four (4) on the Wisdom Wheel is significant in terms of observing where you might be holding your self back from these experiences and learning to look at the past in a new , fresher way.

The dreamer is coloring her hair. The color and style or condition of the hair in a dream represents one’s thought process. Hair length in many traditions: Native, Samurai, Hawaiian, can signify your power. Coloring one’s hair means you wish to experience a change in how you are thinking about something, or the ideals you are currently living that may be holding you from a more empowered state of being. The dreamer does not state the color she is dying her hair, but I would ask her that in follow up questions as we decoded, as each color signifies what she is thinking or feeling.

She is also rinsing the dye (the change needed) out, which suggests that the changes or awareness she is awakening to is ready to take place, but she is not quite there yet. She has 25 minutes. So if I were to look at that numerologically, or even using the significator of the major arcane of the tarot, I would suggest two things. On the Wisdom Wheel, 2+5=7. The placement of 7 is about overcoming past injustices, and discovering where we place obstacles in the way of loving our self. The Chariot in the tarot signifies self generation, movement, moving toward a higher goal, but often that forward direction comes in fits and starts. Cheiro, a famous seer, as well as a palmist of the late 1800’s early 1900’s, gave an explanation of the vibration of the number 25, as a “frequency denoting strength gained through experience.”

The little girl wants to come into the house, but I am not ready and I want more time to be alone. The little girl goes and gets a woman and they try to get inside the house, but I am ahead of them and I close the door and lock it with a black wrought iron beautiful lock.

This aspect of the dreamer (the little blonde haired girl), is someone who is lighter, fun, possibly more trusting, and definitely more willing to help the dreamer empower her self moving forward. She is ready to return, but the dreamer still doesn’t trust this part of her inner pantheon. The dreamer still feels she is not ready; she still needs time. So the little girl gets an older woman. I see this alternate older woman, as the part of this adult woman dreamer; a part who wants to encourage the dreamer to let this little girl access for fresh experiences. She can add measure to the dreamer’s life. The little girl, knows she needs a higher authority for the adult dreamer to trust. They both try to get in, they wish to support the growth and experiences the dreamer has worked through.

Look what the dreamer does. She runs around locking all the doors and windows. There is a new direction in life that the dreamer is blocking, and further she locks the passageways towards a new path (door) and the awareness of her soul (windows), hence exposing her confusion and uncertainty to accept all the changes she has worked towards.

It’s a big black wrought iron “beautiful” lock. The block is a big one for the dreamer to overcome. It’s wrought iron, which says it’s a strong block, or a huge lack of self trust. It is black, which on the Wheel signifies she is not listening to herself (the aspects of the little girl and the woman). Although the choice is always our own, we can miss our soul’s opportunity for change, change we’ve spent years working towards under the illusion that it “beautiful and safe” to stay the way we are.

It feels like they are taunting me to get in. I locked or closed everything I could. Only one door remained unlocked because I knew they were gone and I was safe.

And here we have the illusion that the dream is trying to expose to herself through this dream. Yes, they are taunting her, because it is time to explore this part of her self. Even if she doesn’t know how to do that fully, intentionally dialoguing with them, or meditating with them, or being conscious of how they crop up in different scenarios in her waking life, will give her more information about herself. 

Gratefully she has left one door open, showing she is coming to a place where she will feel safe to be able to accept and trust these new ‘feelings’ and emotions that the little girl and the woman represent. They are not gone, that is an illusion. They simply receded to a place (her unconscious or subconscious), where they wouldn’t frighten her. They will be back, in other forms, through other symbols, in other dreams. And she will not experience ‘safe’ through how her past may still wish to control her emotions, until she allows them to enter her reality. It is what she has been working towards. It’s all in the timing.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.