Who am I Saving? She or Me?

As I have said many times in these dream blogs—dreams imply everything they do symbolically, as well as representing something of ourselves, as that symbol. Example, the little girl is someone outside this dreamer, as well as the ‘little girl’ within the dreamer’s Self. Without divulging too much background, this dreamer is an adoptive parent. I think that is highly important for this dream’s synopsis. If I did not know that, I would still have asked this dreamer what her experience was with children due to the content of the dream. The one thing I do not get to do when decoding dreams on this blog, as opposed to having a detailed dream session with someone, is asking them specific questions that could take the meaning in an alternative direction, or provide deeper analysis.

I have an inkling that this dream also expands beyond the current ‘time frame’ of what’s happening in the dreamer’s life; beyond the current situation she is experiencing, or possibly giving her a warning about the future. Because I know so much about this dreamer’s situation, I see this dream as very specific to what’s happening in her life around adoption.

In indigenous traditions, they view ‘time’ very differently than our culture. We tend to observe time as past, present and future—as a ‘timeline’. In the indigenous cultures they see time as a steady stream happening concurrently from their observation within the Now—from the center of the ‘circle of life’. Hence time is an empirical phenomenon that arises from some underlying notion we have yet to fully define, and which can be observed in many ways. This is where the dream takes us beyond time, and can supply information from the ‘center of all knowing’ to give us a view into what we perceive of as the future. Are we actually creating Then and our observation of what we will encounter in the future, through the Now of the dreaming self?

Hi, I had this dream and it stayed with me this morning so I wanted to put it in your lottery for dreams and see what it may mean.  

I am with a woman who is waiting for her daughter.  She is very upset but I don’t really know why. I just know that things feel off to me.  A lot of people come and go at the beginning of the dream from a house we are in, but I think it is more of an office.  One guy leaves and is supposed to come back and he never comes back.  We are then at a staircase and waiting for the little girl to be brought to us by someone.  We are waiting for a really long time and finally the woman goes to look for the little girl.  I turn around and see 3 wolves coming out of what looks like a fire but it’s not, it’s like a portal coming from the woods and as I watch I find it to be interesting that the lead wolf waits until all wolves are out of the portal and that then the portal shuts.  He doesn’t look at me and I have a feeling that he sees me but just isn’t worried about me.  I turn and hear the mother talking loud and clearly upset.  I am standing at the bottom of the staircase and turned to my right and saw that the fireplace had the same type of fire portal engulfing it.  I look back at the staircase and there is a big man sitting on it with the little girl and he is saying “She has to go! She has to go!!” He has a needle and he is getting ready to put it in her belly but closer to her chest. The mom is behind him crying.  I take in the situation.  I look at him and in my dream I realize – I have to get this girl away from him.  I take her feet and slide her off of him.  He starts yelling “She has to go! You have no idea what you are doing! You are ruining it!” I start running with the little girl.

Then I woke up and my heart was pounding and I was scared.  

I am with a woman who is waiting for her daughter.  She is very upset but I don’t really know why. I just know that things feel off to me. If this were my dream I would suggest that the woman (the dreamer) is waiting for “her daughter”, a child. She is upset and it feels ‘off’ to the dreamer. I think the dreamer may have an underlying doubt and is upset that she might not be able to keep the child once she receives it. Something off, could suggest that because of the adoption agency she is working with, that the biological parent’s rights will take precedence over hers as the adoptive parent. So, both the woman in the dram, and the dreamer feel that level of upset.

A lot of people come and go at the beginning of the dream from a house we are in, but I think it is more of an office.  One guy leaves and is supposed to come back and he never comes back.  Alot of people come and go at the beginning of the dream. Alot of children have come and gone, alot of promises are made, but the children delivered never stay, they end up going. One ‘guy’ (boy) leaves and is supposed to come back, but he doesn’t. I would gather that children have come to her, and just as quickly have been taken from her, never to come back. Possibly this dream happened  after one such incident.

We are waiting for a really long time and finally the woman goes to look for the little girl.  I turn around and see 3 wolves coming out of what looks like a fire but it’s not, it’s like a portal coming from the woods and as I watch I find it to be interesting that the lead wolf waits until all wolves are out of the portal and that then the portal shuts.  He doesn’t look at me and I have a feeling that he sees me but just isn’t worried about me. Finally, after waiting for a really long time—the adoption process can take years, and the biological parental rights can continue to be stretched out, despite incarceration, drug addiction, missing parents, etc. This adoptive mom has waited for the little girl she and her husband have cared for and nurtured for almost two years to be legally theirs. I am sure that has alot to do with the worried content of this dream, it shows her concern/fears and her need to have this resolved.

The little girl is also the ‘lead’ child to have come to them; and the only one thus far who has stayed, despite many ins and outs. I’m going out on a limb here, but possibly there are two more children who will come to these adoptive parents, and stay (represented by the wolves). And then the portal will shut and the family will be complete.

Dreaming of wolves, depends on what you are facing within your life experience as to  their meaning. Wolves are instinctual, they exist in packs and extended families. They often mean you have to face a fear within yourself about something. How do you control that fear and face your doubts? Wolves are also highly intelligent and intuitive. They know how to get in and out of situations, they can track the issue (or animal, situation, scenario of danger) and find a way through.

The dreamer sees them coming from fire or a portal, and there are three of them. There also seems to be a ‘head wolf’ that is not concerned with her presence. Going back to what I suggested above, the little girl (first child that came to them and has not been removed), is not concerned as she knows she will instinctually stay with this family.  That is  message to this dreamer. Three is the number of magic, change and metamorphosis. To me it promises good luck in this adoptive process. The fire represents the dreamer’s passion for bringing this adoption to fruition, and the portal represents a gateway or link to making this little girl their daughter.

I turn and hear the mother talking loud and clearly upset.  I am standing at the bottom of the staircase and turned to my right and saw that the fireplace had the same type of fire portal engulfing it.  I look back at the staircase and there is a big man sitting on it with the little girl and he is saying “She has to go! She has to go!!” He has a needle and he is getting ready to put it in her belly but closer to her chest. The mom is behind him crying.

Both the mother in the dream, and the adoptive mother are upset by all that is happening. The dreamer is at the bottom of a staircase. A staircase, especially standing at the bottom, can signify both confusion on how to hold the circumstances at a higher level of consciousness, and suggests that there have been alot of hurdles to climb. Staircases going up, also imply that you are ready to face your subconscious fears. The fireplace and portal situation again as a symbol represents that there is another situation, possibly in the near future, that will provide a link to more children, or the other two wolves that have not fully appeared in this dreamer’s family life yet. I say that with alot of caution, but I do believe a repetition of a symbol in the same dream is an opportunity for a repeat performance of something relayed earlier. In this case it brings to mind the first portal shown when three wolves came through. Because there is a fire burning, it implies warmth and a fulfillment of one’s desires or needs.

A large man holding a needle in a dream can suggest difficulties and trials ahead. The man represents concerns. The needle can suggest a pointedly intrusive situation. There might be something else that comes up with the current child, or a future child and this is a warning. My first reaction, which I often trust and have been instructed always to pay attention to when decoding, is that the future child this dreamer may receive might have almost been aborted. That’s why the needle is at the belly, and the man is shouting “She has to go.” It could also account for why the mother in the dream is crying, as she either thought the man would agree to keep the child, or perhaps doesn’t wish to abort the child, even  if she needs to give it up for adoption. In this day and age, it can also represent that the father may be a drug addict, and not want to deal with a pregnancy. Most of the children that have come through this dreamer’s door have also had that be a fact in their pregnancy background.

I take in the situation.  I look at him and in my dream I realize – I have to get this girl away from him.  I take her feet and slide her off of him.  He starts yelling “She has to go! You have no idea what you are doing! You are ruining it!” I start running with the little girl.

Whether in the dream, in the ethers, across time/space, it is quite possible that this action of the dreamer in the dreamstate quite literally saves this child’s life (whether in utero or already here), and brings her to this family eventually. Be that a new child, or even overcoming a new obstacle with the present child she is working to adopt.  I am struck by her pulling the child feet first off the man and running with her. Feet represent stability, foundation, and how we walk upon the earth. In that sense the dreamer will bring the children who come to her, stability and a strong foundation of safety, love and nurturing.  And, feet represent the ability to move forward in life, something I pray for, for this dreamer and the children that come to she and her husband.