llama Memories

What if dreams and your waking state are both reality, merely from an alternative observation point, or perhaps from a different time line? In the waking state, your focus moves from your outer world as you interpret what is happening in your daily actions, through your inner world’s understanding and comparisons, adding to what you know, or perhaps how you wish to react.  The dreamstate on the other hand, contains messages from your inner world, and once awake, need to be processed through your outer world, your conscious state, to get the most benefit from what your Soul is trying to share with you. 

Our dream worlds are actually a higher level of our existence and value, and yet we often treat them as a distraction at best, or worse as something to be ignored and forgotten. In so doing we miss a huge part of who we are, and the information we hold within ourselves to move forward with less stress. 

When our subconscious and higher conscious aspects want us to stop ignoring cues imparted in our dreamstate, then we are often triggered by something in our awake state to remind us of  something we have yet uncovered.

I wasn’t able to find an entry in my dream journal about the white llama, but I can recall a specific scene of a dream which was triggered by the white llama we encountered on the path at the end of the trail at Machu Picchu.

THE DREAM:
In the dream, I was hiking along steep and rocky trails much like the ones we were on in Peru. I remember I was with a small group and initially I was hesitant about our route. As we kept walking, we came upon a white llama and its companions. Now the others in the group were more hesitant. They did not want to go further out of fear, despite the herd appearing very docile and doing nothing but feeding upon the grass. I felt that it was important for us to go on and so I stepped forward towards the llama and she and I exchanged gazes. After a few moments, we compromise and share the road. It was as if we came to an understanding, acknowledging one another’s presence and honoring that presence. The llama walks past my right closer to the rocky ledge as I am given the safer passage on the left. Both our groups have now passed one another on the road and I look back at the llama and her group one last time with deep-felt gratitude beyond a simple “thank you.”

In the dream, I was hiking along steep and rocky trails much like the ones we were on in Peru. I remember I was with a small group and initially I was hesitant about our route.

This implies the dreamer feels that she has some tough or rocky challenges ahead, as she moves towards something in her life she wants for herself. She is with others, but she is hesitant about the route. The others could be parts of herself that wish to take a different path, or perhaps people in her life that she is currently friends with, that don’t understand the path she is taking.

As we kept walking, we came upon a white llama and its companions. Now the others in the group were more hesitant.

She keeps forging ahead, when they come upon a white llama and its herd. White animals in waking or sleeping life indicate a message from Spirit. Llamas often imply the strength that comes through awareness, or the endurance it takes to get to that awareness. This would parallel the steep and rocky path, also indicating there needs to be a level of awareness and caution to traverse the direction being taken, without mishap.

Llamas are burden carriers, so I would ask the dreamer in lieu of the group she hangs out with, or perhaps the job she has, if she carries alot of the burden and responsibility, of doing her own thing, without support. There needs to be balance both on the path and in regards to the endurance she uses with others to succeed in getting where she wants. Llamas have the ability to adapt to many situations, as does she. 

This could also signify that there are those in her crowd of friends that are taking advantage of her. Why: Llamas in the South American tradition are somewhat akin to the buffalo in Native American tradition; they represent Mother Earth, offer their love by giving everything of themselves so the people may live, and they care for the ‘herd’ at large. So there also needs to boundaries established, as evidenced by the color white.  In this regard, her biggest focus needs to be on herself.

Now the others in the group were more hesitant. They did not want to go further out of fear, despite the herd appearing very docile and doing nothing but feeding upon the grass. I felt that it was important for us to go on and so I stepped forward towards the llama and she and I exchanged gazes.

Others in her group are hesitant to face the challenges that she is willing to face. They are fearful of the changes and the challenges it will take to move forward, both of which are needed in life to grow.

The llamas here are docile and feeding on grass. What an animal is doing in a dream is very important to the context. Grazing docile animals signify that peace and calm can come, but it also could imply that we are not stretching toward our goal, which inevitably could bring greater peace and calm to our life. Green is about growing in the direction of change that you wish to experience.

In general an animal’s state in the dreamtime can tell us something about our  own attitude. I would ask the dreamer what she is being docile about in attaining something she wishes to change on her own path, either because it goes against the ‘herd’, or perhaps because it is easier to go along with the crowd at points. Here is also where she makes a decision to claim herself, as she decides it is important to move forward, despite their fear, or her own. 

She and the llama gaze at each other. Gazing implies they look into each others eyes. Eyes indicate the gateway to the soul. At a soul level the dreamer knows her instincts and desires are to keep moving, growing, exploring and changing, even if that risks not being fully understood.

After a few moments, we compromise and share the road. It was as if we came to an understanding, acknowledging one another’s presence and honoring that presence. The llama walks past my right closer to the rocky ledge as I am given the safer passage on the left.

There is part of the dreamer that knows she can find an inner compromise to follow her route forward in life. Not everything has to be hard and challenging to be sincere and validating. The llama walks on the right, closer to the rocky edge, giving her safe passage on the left. The part of her that wants peace and awareness is willing to logically (right-side) risk the edge; allowing the part of her that still needs to feel nurtured (the left-side), to trust her intuition on what is the best route for her to take to accomplish her goal/s. The compromise is a good one because it serves two purposes–forward movement, in a safe and calm direction.

Both our groups have now passed one another on the road and I look back at the llama and her group one last time with deep-felt gratitude beyond a simple “thank you.”

The dreamer has gotten her soul’s message; she can be full of gratitude that the path ahead may sometimes appear rocky or steep, but that there are ways for her to move toward her ultimate goal without it feeling like a burden. To feel comfortable that sometimes her desires will take her ‘away’ from her herd temporarily, but that there will also be other groups that she will find kinship with along the path.

Thank you dreamer

 

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Let Me In

Ernest Hoffman, director of the Sleep Disorders Center at Newton-Wellesley Hospital in Massachusetts, suggested in ​a 2006 Scientific American article that “…a possible (though certainly not proven) function of a dream is to be weaving new material into the memory system in a way that both reduces emotional arousal and is adaptive in helping us cope with further trauma or past stressful events.”

When learning how to “listen” to the dreamers cadence and dream imagery, Gram Twylah suggested that the dream becomes an important therapeutic emotional security mechanism of the dreamer because they are stimulated to make connections between different thoughts and emotions in a safe environment (the dream).

Robert Moss, a well known dream author, postulates that “dreams are an experience into our alternate lives.” This concept is talked about at great length by a theoretical physicist named Michio Kaku in his book called, Parallel Universes. If this theory is true, then it stands to reason that we can be shown alternate images of our self, when we are ready to explore parts of our Greater Self , that might have been left behind, or not recognized/realized at all due to our childhood situation/s.

The dream offers a way for those parts of our Self to become known to us, when we are ready to explore them more actively, or embrace their potency more freely. I believe this is what this dreamer is wrestling with in the following dream.

THE DREAM:

I am in a house and the glass doors are open and there is a breeze. There is a young child with blond hair, may 4 years old. I am coloring my hair and I am about to rinse it out when I realize I have maybe 25 min before rinsing it out. The little girl wants to come into the house, but I am not ready and I want more time to be alone. The little girl goes and gets a woman and they try to get inside the house, but I am ahead of them and I close the door and lock it with a black wrought iron beautiful lock. I run to the different windows and doors so they won’t get in. It feels like they are taunting me to get in. I locked or closed everything I could. Only one door remained unlocked because I knew they were gone and I was safe.

I am in a house and the glass doors are open and there is a breeze.

Again dream symbology is both metaphoric and individual. I cannot stress this enough in my blogs. That said, houses often represent the physical body. Glass doors signify a need for a sense of openness, clarity, and a way to see past old obstructions.

Doors can be seen as a passage ways into a new phase, or level of consciousness. In a way they represent an ‘invitation.’ It is open and there is a breeze, which means that the dreamer wants to be open to something new, and the breeze is an indication of movement. It is not a howling wind, or a still-point. The breeze suggests this can be an inviting, easy, gentle opportunity.

There is a young child with blond hair, may 4 years old. I am coloring my hair and I am about to rinse it out when I realize I have maybe 25 min before rinsing it out.

Here I would ask the dreamer what happened around 4 years old in her life?  Little girls in dreams can mean happier times. They can also suggest there were fewer burdens at that time, or alternatively express a need to release burdens felt at that time. The blonde hair signifies a need to enjoy life or lighten up. Four (4) on the Wisdom Wheel is significant in terms of observing where you might be holding your self back from these experiences and learning to look at the past in a new , fresher way.

The dreamer is coloring her hair. The color and style or condition of the hair in a dream represents one’s thought process. Hair length in many traditions: Native, Samurai, Hawaiian, can signify your power. Coloring one’s hair means you wish to experience a change in how you are thinking about something, or the ideals you are currently living that may be holding you from a more empowered state of being. The dreamer does not state the color she is dying her hair, but I would ask her that in follow up questions as we decoded, as each color signifies what she is thinking or feeling.

She is also rinsing the dye (the change needed) out, which suggests that the changes or awareness she is awakening to is ready to take place, but she is not quite there yet. She has 25 minutes. So if I were to look at that numerologically, or even using the significator of the major arcane of the tarot, I would suggest two things. On the Wisdom Wheel, 2+5=7. The placement of 7 is about overcoming past injustices, and discovering where we place obstacles in the way of loving our self. The Chariot in the tarot signifies self generation, movement, moving toward a higher goal, but often that forward direction comes in fits and starts. Cheiro, a famous seer, as well as a palmist of the late 1800’s early 1900’s, gave an explanation of the vibration of the number 25, as a “frequency denoting strength gained through experience.”

The little girl wants to come into the house, but I am not ready and I want more time to be alone. The little girl goes and gets a woman and they try to get inside the house, but I am ahead of them and I close the door and lock it with a black wrought iron beautiful lock.

This aspect of the dreamer (the little blonde haired girl), is someone who is lighter, fun, possibly more trusting, and definitely more willing to help the dreamer empower her self moving forward. She is ready to return, but the dreamer still doesn’t trust this part of her inner pantheon. The dreamer still feels she is not ready; she still needs time. So the little girl gets an older woman. I see this alternate older woman, as the part of this adult woman dreamer; a part who wants to encourage the dreamer to let this little girl access for fresh experiences. She can add measure to the dreamer’s life. The little girl, knows she needs a higher authority for the adult dreamer to trust. They both try to get in, they wish to support the growth and experiences the dreamer has worked through.

Look what the dreamer does. She runs around locking all the doors and windows. There is a new direction in life that the dreamer is blocking, and further she locks the passageways towards a new path (door) and the awareness of her soul (windows), hence exposing her confusion and uncertainty to accept all the changes she has worked towards.

It’s a big black wrought iron “beautiful” lock. The block is a big one for the dreamer to overcome. It’s wrought iron, which says it’s a strong block, or a huge lack of self trust. It is black, which on the Wheel signifies she is not listening to herself (the aspects of the little girl and the woman). Although the choice is always our own, we can miss our soul’s opportunity for change, change we’ve spent years working towards under the illusion that it “beautiful and safe” to stay the way we are.

It feels like they are taunting me to get in. I locked or closed everything I could. Only one door remained unlocked because I knew they were gone and I was safe.

And here we have the illusion that the dream is trying to expose to herself through this dream. Yes, they are taunting her, because it is time to explore this part of her self. Even if she doesn’t know how to do that fully, intentionally dialoguing with them, or meditating with them, or being conscious of how they crop up in different scenarios in her waking life, will give her more information about herself. 

Gratefully she has left one door open, showing she is coming to a place where she will feel safe to be able to accept and trust these new ‘feelings’ and emotions that the little girl and the woman represent. They are not gone, that is an illusion. They simply receded to a place (her unconscious or subconscious), where they wouldn’t frighten her. They will be back, in other forms, through other symbols, in other dreams. And she will not experience ‘safe’ through how her past may still wish to control her emotions, until she allows them to enter her reality. It is what she has been working towards. It’s all in the timing.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Time for Transmutation

There is a difference between transformation and transmutation.  Transformation is essential to transmutation, but transmutation is deeper. Transformation is to change something, to shape shift or alter its essence, but the core remains. Transmutation is to become totally different, to shed what once was, on the deepest most known/unknown  levels of oneself. Like the snake shedding its skin, it changes the state of your very nature; you are renewed. The alchemy of turning lead into gold, explains the depth of the change and the ability for others to witness something uniquely different from what was.

This dreamer speak of anacondas, a large type of snake. I want to spend some time on this mythological symbol because of its many representations throughout many civilizations.

In many cultures, snakes are one of the oldest image representations used in ritual or as totems. They signify fertility, creation, healing, rebirth, and life force energy. In the Andean tradition, the anaconda is used to represent the Ukhu Pacha, the lower world; it is also the great snake of the jungles of the Amazon. When an anaconda strikes it crushes its victim, loosing one’s breath and its life force, it is then swallowed. Loosely, like the kundalini energy, the amaru or anaconda is metaphorically used in one part of the teachings as a force raised from the Earth, up our backbone and over the top of our heads, to signify our ability to cleanse and heighten our personal power.  For this to happen, we need to transmute the densest parts of ourselves to raise that energy in accountable, light encoded, and meaningful ways.

The Hopi have an annual snake dance that is used to unite the sky spirits and the underworld spirits, for renewal and fertility. The Crete statues of the Snake Goddess were representatives of the guardians of renewal and rebirth. Snake goddesses would tolerate many snake bites so they could learn to transmute the poison of the bite and go into trance. In Hinduism, snake is the coiled kundalini energy of desire, that sits at the base of the spine, and which one uses to transcend past base desires. The Ouroboros, the symbol of eternity, is represented by two snakes holding each others tail. Moses used the snake staff against pharaoh’s priests to show God’s power.  In the Egyptian pantheon it was the staff of Thoth which held with two serpents coiled around its length, that later became the symbol for medical personnel, or a place of healing.  Snakes sat above the head of Buddha when he became realized. The Aztec and Maya saw snake as representing wisdom, power, and life force energy.

Gram Twylah described snake as the totem of transmutation. Snake knew everything happening on Mother Earth because its belly ran across her skin, and hence snake could feel all her vibrations. Snake also renews itself by shedding its old skin and replacing it with something new. She explained that snake medicine is hard to balance. Snakes can release poison that bring demise, signifying that unbalanced psychic and sexual powers can affect us mentally, spiritually or emotionally, as well as signifying that they have the ability to bring us to ascension. Hence the snake in the Garden of Eden was not evil, as much as it symbolized offering personal power and wisdom, that needed to be modulated and not abused.      

On to the dream: 

My Dream:

I was in the living room of my great aunt (Audrey) and uncle’s (Donald) home sitting on my knees on a square ottoman that was covered in yellow cloth.  There were other square ottomans all over the room covered in yellow cloth.  I was facing a single window on the left and a single door on the right.  The walls were white and it was bright in the room.
I knew there was something on the wood floor.  At first I thought it was a bone.  Then I leaned over and saw this small black looking wiggling worm.  When I straightened up on the ottoman, the room had changed.

The room had changed to a jungle and was dark and humid.  The walls had disappeared but the outline of the room, window, and door was still visible and the jungle extended past the outline of the room.  I was still sitting on the ottoman and there were 7 anacondas around me.  To get a feel for the size, wrap your arms around yourself and take the circumference.  They were in front of me and spaced out around me like the spines of an open handheld fan a lady would use to cool herself in the summer heat.  Their heads were up close and personal to me and their bodies stretched out passed the outline of the room.  I wasn’t afraid.

The 3 on my left were mostly in the dark. I could barely see them.  The one directly in front of me and the one that was larger than the others appeared to be shedding its skin and was directly in the doorway.  The 3 on the right of me were in full light.  I looked intently at the one closest to me just to my right and said “ha ha you can’t get me” and it opened its eye.  I woke up.

I laughed nervously to myself and thought “that snake could have had you for lunch”.

Please remember, all dreams are open to decoding, but the one who knows best what the dream is trying to bring up for consideration from the unconscious, is the dreamer. What is helpful about sharing one’s dream, is getting another perspective that you might not have considered, or because you have limited yourself from looking deeper at the issue because the change is uncomfortable.

I was in the living room of my great aunt (Audrey) and uncle’s (Donald) home sitting on my knees on a square ottoman that was covered in yellow cloth.  There were other square ottomans all over the room covered in yellow cloth.  I was facing a single window on the left and a single door on the right.  The walls were white and it was bright in the room.

Every room in the house represents something. in the dreamer’s mind. A living room represents literally “where you live” inside yourself.  Here the dreamer is at Audrey & Donald’s, her aunt and uncle, representing that she is removed from something within herself, because it is not her living room.  Loosely Audrey means strong and Donald means mighty or chief. I interpret this as the parts of her that are strong and mighty are trying to get her attention.

She however, is sitting on an ottoman, which signifies avoidance, preoccupation or resting and not doing anything about a situation which she hasn’t addressed. There are ottomans all over the room, signifying she has filled her space with ways to procrastinate and not to look at what needs to be addressed, and it has brought her to her knees. You look to the color of the cloth that is covering the ottomans, and it is yellow. Yellow on the Wisdom Wheels (the way Gram Twy taught) represents overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of us loving ourselves, and learning the injustices others impose on us that pull on our energy and support.

She is facing a window on the left. Windows are for viewing. Windows are doorways to the soul and the left side is the heart side, the deep feminine creative, intuitive, magical side.  There is a door on the right. Doors are for leaving or coming in; they can represent renewal or freedom. On the right, they signify the logic, discipline, and focus this dreamer might need to apply to find renewal or freedom. The room is white and bright. I would suggest something is trying to en-“lighten” her and that white on the Wisdom Wheel is about boundaries that need to be established. Magnetizing the people, places and things to one’s life to live more fully and feel freed from some burden; as well as removing in more boundaried ways the people, places and things that are drawing her away from herself and her own needs.

I knew there was something on the wood floor.  At first I thought it was a bone.  Then I leaned over and saw this small black looking wiggling worm.  When I straightened up on the ottoman, the room had changed.

Wood floors suggests something at her foundation has atrophied; that one feels down to their very foundation, emotionless and dead inside.  Bones have many meanings in dreams–getting back to the ‘bear bones’, or basics of something; uncovering family secrets or manipulations; something weak or broken; something ingrained deeply in you; and issues that affect you down to the marrow or the essence of your life.

Worms are wonderful creature, they aerate the soil so that things grow. People often find them yucky when the rains wash them up from the depths of the ground. But that’s an important symbol in this dream of buried or invalidated needs, that for this individual’s optimal growth are required to be brought to the surface (named) through rains, deep emotions, to find personal growth. Black on the Wheels is about listening to yourself and being sensitive to your own rhythms, choosing things in life that apply to your own needs and not everyone else’s. And, when the dreamer does that, the room (the situation or impact of how she has been living her life), changes.

The room had changed to a jungle and was dark and humid.  The walls had disappeared but the outline of the room, window, and door was still visible and the jungle extended past the outline of the room.  I was still sitting on the ottoman and there were 7 anacondas around me.  To get a feel for the size, wrap your arms around yourself and take the circumference.  They were in front of me and spaced out around me like the spines of an open handheld fan a lady would use to cool herself in the summer heat.  Their heads were up close and personal to me and their bodies stretched out passed the outline of the room.  I wasn’t afraid.

Jungles in dreams show the state of where this dreamer goes in her mind. Her emotions can get jangled and go both dark and hot. The walls, door, and window, although visible do not give her the benefit of either form or protection, there is no solidity as both visions overlap.  Jungles are full of lushness, life, healing herbs, and suggest the wild, passionate nature of ourselves. My sense is that the dreamer feels jangled at this time in her life, and is desperate to open her mind to finding what will heal her entanglements and make her passionate about life again. She is still sitting on the ottoman, procrastinating about making the choices that will help her embody the life she wants.

However now there are 7 anacondas around her. Seven (7) on the Wheel again is represented by the frequency of yellow, so her inner dream self is choosing a different approach to get the message across again that she is not defining her space by letting others take advantage of her, which equates to not loving herself.  Seven (7) in the tarot is the Chariot card, the direction the High Priestess needs to walk towards to balance herself. It is about self-generation, and often suggests fits and starts, but ultimately requires movement for change. Seven (7) in numerology is the vibration of “the seeker in search of the truth;” the truth we have hidden from our self with the illusions we use to justify not living our truth.

In other words, once she acknowledges the issue that is squeezing her life, and pressing on her (anaconda), and the excuses she has used not to speak to how it is affecting her life force, regeneration and healing (the ottoman), she will then need to do something about it, despite how others may accuse her of being unjust. Anaconda, as I said earlier is about stepping back into her personal power and away from those who live off it.

I love her image of the 7 of them appearing like the spines of a lady’s hand-held fan. Their ‘spines’ represent her needing the backbone to speak her truth. A hand held fan, suggests she has the power in her own hands to do something about this. A fan is something one uses to ‘move the air’….movement and air; a new direction and breath; changing what is needed for renewal of her life and personal power. Their heads are up “in her face.” It is past time for transmuting something deep that she as agreed to, and their tails take her outside the room/box she finds herself in. By her own admission she is not afraid, a deep part of her knows this must be done.

The 3 on my left were mostly in the dark. I could barely see them.  The one directly in front of me and the one that was larger than the others appeared to be shedding its skin and was directly in the doorway.  The 3 on the right of me were in full light.  I looked intently at the one closest to me just to my right and said “ha ha you can’t get me” and it opened its eye.  I woke up.

There are three anacondas on the left, diffused in the dark, or possibly something that is hard for the dreamer to see and acknowledge, as it might be better left hidden or unacknowledged (but not in her best interest). Three not only represents the vibration of change, it signifies regulating and refining your life to better live your truth (Wisdom Wheel). It takes discipline to change what you know is affecting you, but change’s promise growth and illumination. In the tarot it represents the Empress. This begs the questions, How do you nurture yourself?  How were you mothered? How do you mother yourself? The upside of the Empress is she is creative and flows with the needs of others; the down side of the Empress (as show on her card in the Thoth deck), is she pulls out the blood (life source energy) from her own heart to feed everyone else. There’s a message in that.

The one in the doorway, (the way out to personal freedom), is literally the largest, directly infront of her (fully getting her attention) and shedding it’s skin. It is so ready to transmute these pressures and be in the full light and its empowered self. The three in the light suggest this will take some discipline for her to organize, but logically she already knows it is her only way out to a more fulfilled, and happier life, one that is fully her own to live.

She still seems to be in denial of what she needs to do, as she says to the one in the light (something obvious and not hidden) on her right (it will take discipline, but it is a logical move), that is close to her (ready to help her change), “ha ha, you can’t get me.” It opens its eye. Again, like windows, eyes are doorways’ to the soul. This majestic, symbol of healing, life force, renewed personal power, looks her right in the eye and she wakes up. You can’t deny the direct challenge of that look.

When we wake up from a dream that has such deep imagery, it’s our Higher Self wanting us to really ‘get’ that if we don’t do something about our situation, then changes will be done for us, because that is not the way our path wants us to move forward. Her path clearly wants her to actively stop denying or procrastinating what needs to be done. To be able to create boundaries with the obstacles people have unjustly thrust upon her, and which she has held as an illusion that it is her job to support. For that transformation to take place she must be willing to love herself enough to put herself first, by having the strength to stop others that prey on her personal power.

I laughed nervously to myself and thought “that snake could have had you for lunch”. 

Those parts of yourself encouraging you to take a stand, will have you for lunch, if you prolong what you know needs to change. Said in light and love.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Clear as a Bell

G. C. Jung suggested that the dream emotions translated into images and those images exposed what lay hidden in the emotion of the individual. Although, I have said in the past in other dream posts that only the dreamer has full knowledge of what the dream means for them, often the images and symbols of the dreamscape portray a massive amount of emotionally charged information to consider. Ultimately what any dream content is trying to have you become aware of, or pay closer attention to, is the ability to trust or uncover the wisdom that you hold within around your life’s situation. Therefore as Gram Twylah said, “Dreams are an important source of spiritual and practical guidance.”

I believe this dreamer’s conscious understanding of the untenable and undeniable situation she was in with her husband came across in this dream. It was nightmarish because she needed to pay attention that to survive spiritually, emotionally, and quite possibly physically, that she needed to extract herself. That message is beyond clear in her visuals.

I had a difficult time coming up with a title for this dream, because there is simply so much here. The title never came until I finished decoding, but I feel it captures the directness of this dream content, for instruction and resolve for this dreamer.

This is what I remember of my dream…………..

I walked into a garden in some unknown place. There was what appeared to be a large oblong rabbit hutch, raised about 4 foot off the ground. It had a wooden frame and chicken wire at the sides.

As I approach the side of the cage, I saw there was someone laying in it! I got closer and saw it was me! I was laying on my back, naked with clear plastic tubes (like the drains they use after operations) in my body at different points. There were large jars on the ground by the cage that had liquid in them. I saw that my body (my limbs and torso) had completely deflated! I mean I was “flat” as if all the substance of me was gone. At the area of my heart there was a tube and indeed my chest and my head were the only parts of me that were not deflated and sucked dry.

The next thing I knew I was in my body, in the cage, and Peter approached to the side. He looked in at me in the cage and I told him he would never break my spirit, that he would never have my soul. he showed no affection for me, or emotions at all.

He told me that I wasn’t going to be alive for much longer and that I may as well accept that he had ‘won’ (n.b. ‘you can’t win and ‘you can’t beat me’ were two of his favourite sayings to me). I was so weak and half dead, but my heart was pink and glowing in my chest and I still had my mind, I still knew right from wrong and I refused to give in.

The word that came to me while I was reviewing/participating in the dream was ‘Harvesting’–I was aware that he was harvesting my Vital Force Energy to ‘feed’ himself as he has lost his connection to Source.

That’s it. That’s all I remember. 

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I walked into a garden in some unknown place. There was what appeared to be a large oblong rabbit hutch, raised about 4 foot off the ground. It had a wooden frame and chicken wire at the sides.

The condition of gardens in the dreamscape says alot about what the dreamer is trying to relay to herself. This garden is unknown, it is not hers and although she doesn’t mention the type of garden, nor its condition, “some unknown place” signifies something she hasn’t encountered before, indicating this is a sign of confusion. 

There is a large oblong rabbit hutch. Shapes signify both ideas and emotions. Shapes with straight lines and angles usually symbolize structure or perhaps order; shapes with curves are softer and represent connection. Culturally, circles and ovals have been used throughout time to represent unity, movement and integrity. Wedding bands are the perfect example of what many consider the unity between two people; and nature shows circles all around us, from the sun & moon to orbs, to drops of rain in a pond. Rabbits in the tradition I was taught symbolize sensitivity, comfort and strategy combined with intuition. [They run because they know the fox is coming and is hot on their trail.] Some indigenous People say they also stand for fear, but it is fear of the known vibration they are sensing, and not fear as an inhibitor. The hutch is confinement. 

To me the circle of unity between two people has been elongated/stretched from unity and harmony, to something which confines the dreamer to a ‘shape’ or situation that is nolonger harmonious. And, the dreamer is feeling confined, aware of vibrations that can threaten her, and is in need of a strategy to bring herself back to center and her own garden.

Raised 4′ off the ground, is signifying something is not grounded. The number 4 in the Wisdom Wheels stands for motivation and seer ship capabilities. In the tarot it is the Emperor, which loosely can indicate strong will, assertive, self-confidence. But the #4 on the Wheel needs to see the achievement of truth in what they are observing, and the Emperor can mean hard choices between mind and heart, that aren’t always welcome.

The chicken wire is not presenting something that is totally closed off and allows the dreamer to look within. This is also a play on words, look within the hutch, and look within the self. Wood signifies one is feeling emotionless and almost dead inside, which corresponds perfectly with how this dream unfolds.

As I approach the side of the cage, I saw there was someone laying in it! I got closer and saw it was me! I was laying on my back, naked with clear plastic tubes (like the drains they use after operations) in my body at different points. There were large jars on the ground by the cage that had liquid in them. I saw that my body (my limbs and torso) had completely deflated! I mean I was “flat” as if all the substance of me was gone. At the area of my heart there was a tube and indeed my chest and my head were the only parts of me that were not deflated and sucked dry.

She discovers that it is she who is held hostage, and she is naked. This indicates that she is feeling highly vulnerable with the situation she is in. There are clear plastic tubes, like surgical drains coming out of her body. Dreams, like illnesses, come through our body indicating that not only is her energy being drained purposefully, but that if she should continue in this relationship, she will find herself ill.

The large jars on the ground with liquid signify she is being drained on all levels (physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually), and she is already flat. When they speak about ‘flat-lined’ in operations or accidents they are talking about death. Could be the death of her energy, the death of a relationship, the death of the dream she once had.

Her chest (where the heart is housed) and her head (where the intellect is housed) are the only things at this point not sucked dry. Clearly this dream is a strong signal to her that the relationship portends her demise.

The next thing I knew I was in my body, in the cage, and Peter approached to the side. He looked in at me in the cage and I told him he would never break my spirit, that he would never have my soul. He showed no affection for me, or emotions at all.

Peter means rock or stone. He is stony in his emotions, and lacks heart energy. And this name also denied Jesus 3x’s, so if everything is symbolic, he will deny how he is approaching the dreamer in the waking state and how he is threatening or harming her. Although he has her ‘caged’ she loudly declares he will not break her spirit. This is her higher self’s clarion cry.

He told me that I wasn’t going to be alive for much longer and that I may as well accept that he had ‘won’ (n.b. ‘you can’t win and ‘you can’t beat me’ were two of his favourite sayings to me). I was so weak and half dead, but my heart was pink and glowing in my chest and I still had my mind, I still knew right from wrong and I refused to give in.

Bullies as we all know are in this for themselves, and when you add the misalignment of a sociopath to the character mix, you get this person. But the dreamer recognizes her heart is pink and glowing and she has her mind intact.

Interestingly, on the wheel, the color or vibration of pink, falls opposite the placement of the #4 thus signifying to me, she has found a way out. Pink is the truth revealed and offers us the insights and foresights to creatively work through an issue. To see your heart in a dream means getting to the heart-of-the-matter with courage and directed self-love. Glowing signifies, that like a beam of light, she needs to remind herself to come from the heart, despite the hurt she has been subjected to. And yes, she still has her mind too: heart and intellect/love and focus/intuition and logic/creativity and discipline.  

The word that came to me while I was reviewing/participating in the dream was ‘Harvesting’–I was aware that he was harvesting my Vital Force Energy to ‘feed’ himself as he has lost his connection to Source.

I was going to use harvesting as the title at first, but I felt that would give more power to him that to her until she recognized it was her strength and not his for the taking. I would say, “Clear as a Bell” that it is you who is harvesting yourself. It is you who has accomplished the goal of extracting yourself from what brought so much pain. It is you who can welcome back happiness, joy, and contentment as you dominate your own life again. You were aware in the dream what needed to change for you to live fully again.

So dreamer, remember: Love didn’t hurt you. Someone who doesn’t know how to love hurt you, and you temporarily confused the two, but no longer.

Thank you dreamer for sharing from the deepest wound, to the clearest renewal of yourself.

“The Lizard Guard”

I love what the dreamer named this dream. In my workshops on the dreamtime, I encourage participants to name their dreams. The reason for this is two-fold. In naming the dream you consolidate the most important feature of what your inner self is trying to offer your waking mind from the dreamscape. Often without even knowing it at the time of giving it a title, the titles often become the ‘nugget’ of the dream. And, secondly by naming the dream it commits it to memory in a deeper way.

Lizard in shamanic traditions is about dreaming and the dreamtime. I don’t suspect the dreamer knew this at the time she labeled this dream, although I may be incorrect. Lizard is literally seen as the ‘medicine’ of dreamers in many shamanic traditions. Jamie Sams, in one of the first books offered on the symbolism of animal totems, Medicine Cards, suggests in a dialogue between snake and lizard, “Snake you are looking for shade, and I am looking for shadow. Shadow is where the dreams live.”

Gram Twylah suggested that lizards are very perceptive, and they feel the vibrations along the ground. They have amazing hearing capacity and don’t miss any movement with their eyes. Some are able to drop their tail to escape, suggesting that one of the medicine gifts of lizard is the ability to detach from a situation, person, or emotion whose time has come to be left behind. They teach us to choose which path is best for our next step.

The other thing that hit me with the title, is the reptilian aspect of lizard…and that this one is guarding something. A lizard can represent an omen to watch what you are approaching, or clearly a need to choose a different path to move forward. Lizard holds a ‘decree of memory’ and as such a desire to return to a state of mental peace, signifying that we must release certain memories that we carry. Guarding usually means protection. The dreamer noted to me that the date of the dream was in 2015, although this dream had always stuck with her. I would ask her, “What was happening in your life at that time?” Is there a lingering need to still be cognizant of addressing what this dream brought up then, and that’s why it still sticks with you now.

I was concerned about making dinner and had gone to the refrigerator to get some meat to make spaghetti sauce. This house required me to go through the laundry room in order to get to the garage. There was a huge boulder in the laundry room. There was a large bunch of cut basil on top of the washing machine. There were also some other things on the floor and on top of the washer and dryer – clothes or plants?

We start with the acknowledgement that the dreamer is concerned. It is stated right in her first sentence, and suggests this concern is something she is experiencing in some aspect of her life. She goes to the refrigerator. Refrigerators imply keeping thing ‘in the dark & cold’ to ‘keep them fresh & alive.’ So there is a possibility that there is a concern that she has kept hidden (in the dark) or cold (not dealt with) and it is still fresh and alive in her memory. She is going to make spaghetti sauce, which is a food we think of as nurturing, hearty, comfort food….although spaghetti itself can often speak to our entanglements. She needs comforting.

She is trying to get to the garage, a place of storage and usually a space disconnected from the ‘family living place.’ And she has to go through the laundry room. This implies that something needs to be ‘cleaned’-up. But there is a boulder in the way. Her way is blocked from knowing how to do that, or possibly she feels something is blocking her in her life at that time from getting something else she wants or needs to move forward. Perhaps she isn’t even clear what it is she wants, she just feels blocked from cleaning up what she has ‘stored away’ and no longer serves.

There is a bunch of basil on the washing machine. This is what needs attention, the washing machine is symbolic of what she needs to address to clean something up. It is clearly the need to get to the “basil” supposedly in order to make the pasta sauce (self-nurturing). Ironically in shamanic healing traditions, basil is often used to draw away evil, due to its fiery content. In the Mayan tradition bundles of basil (and other herbs depending on the healing taking place) are used to strike or smooth the auric field of a client, helping to pull from the breaks in our light body, the places where we leak our life force energy due to wounds, injuries or frights. This does not mean that something evil is stalking her, you use word play in the dream time decoding, and evil spelled backwards is ‘live’; so something isn’t allowing her to live to her full capacity. Clothes and plants are in the way….there are distractions.

There was a large lizard in the basil – which did not really scare me; I could have picked up the basil, which I wanted to use in the sauce. But there was also a surprising rustle among the things on the floor. I looked and saw the head of another very large lizard. It had huge jaws and mouth, and it was not happy to be disturbed! I wasn’t real scared of it, but I couldn’t get close enough to get the basil and I couldn’t get into the garage. I left.

There is a lizard in the basil. Although she isn’t scared, this lizard (this perception she has) is something more obvious that she is aware of, and could deal with, but there is something even more surprising or buried in her subconscious that is beyond the obvious situation—the new bigger lizard. This rustling on the floor (symbolizing a deeper foundational belief), distracts her from getting the basil for the sauce. Its large head, mouth open, huge jaws and not happy to be disturbed.

There is some old thought and perhaps a past slight or wound that is starting to surface into her awareness. It can’t be buried anymore, the head is exposed and the mouth and jaws large and open suggest this is something she should be cautious of, although again she states she is not afraid to confront it. But she is not ready to fully deal with it, and remove whatever the impact of the past situation is, as she leaves the garage (where she’s stored it) without dealing with it.

I went back into the family room. There was an ibis, or tall grey heron, in the corner. I thought it was a statue and was touching it’s beak thoughtlessly as I passed or paused to think about something. Then I realized it was alive! The poor thing was almost dead! It was dusty. I realized it needed food. It made a sound that made me understand it needed fish. I said out loud, “Oh, you need fish – or sardines. I’ll get some.”

She goes back to where she feels support-the family room, or perhaps this is an indication in the dream that the issue has to do with her family of origin or something happening in her immediate family at the time of the dream. She feels safer by maintaining the illusion that it is either supportive or nurturing. Rooms suggest different stages of one’s life, and family rooms suggest the necessity of strong family communication. This can be interpreted as her family, or her inner family, those parts of herself that make up the pantheon of her inner resources. Here she sees a tall gray heron in the corner.

The corner means something has been put aside or pigeon-holed. In the Medicine Wheel studies with Gram Twylah, gray on the Wheel stands for how we assess a situation and/or where we need to honor ourselves. Heron stands for mothering, it is a divine feminine, majestic, ancient looking bird. Symbolically it seeks quietude and inner-peace. The heron is called on in the indigenous traditions to bring in lofty thoughts and ideals when feeling off balanced, to birth something new, to mother or nurture ourselves past old emotional wounds. It also represents our ancient, divine feminine spirit.

The bird is looking dead and dusty, it is motionless, and it hasn’t been ‘fed’ in a long time. She is even ‘thought-less’ in her approach to it, not realizing how undernourished this part of herself is. I would suggest that this dreamer look at where she may be over mothering others at her own expense; or not nurturing herself by engaging her divine feminine principles in a more fulfilling way; or perhaps is going along in life without a thought as to how to feed her own wants and needs in life.

It indicates almost telepathically that it needs fish; she is speaking to herself here. Fish indicates that something is being brought to the surface; they represent the unconscious mind because they exist under water, which represents emotions. Fish are also an ancient symbol of spirituality, so it can also imply that she knows on some level that she needs to feed her spiritual side to feel more nourished in this world.

So I went into the kitchen because I had some sardines or small fish. But I was distracted by other people (?). There was some kind of discussion that someone wanted fish for dinner. I momentarily forgot about the lizard and heron.

She goes into the kitchen, which is a place of nourishment, but she gets distracted by others from her own needs—both what needs to come to the surface from the shadow or unconscious part of herself (the lizard) and the heron (which is the desperate feminine side of herself that needs nurturing). Other people want fish for dinner, indicating she is taking care of others before herself. This can be family, people at her job, friends or relatives….but they are distracting her from concentrating on herself.

This house was large, white painted wood, on top of a large rocky hill overlooking “expanses.” I believe the ocean was below the hill and there was a long view of hillsides, countryside, in a foreign country.

Houses in dreams usually represent the components and aspects of our mind, or even the physical body. This house is large (she wants to expand). It is painted white. On the Medicine Wheel white stands for boundaries, the boundaries we need to magnetize to ourselves the people, places and mind-sets that can help us to grow; as well as the people, places, and mindsets that we need to release to grow. It is made of wood, which often in dreams is an indication that although things are stable, something inside feels emotionless. It also gives us the means to ‘build on the past’ by creatively changing the structure of what we believe in.

The house is on a large rocky hill. Although the rocks provide stability to her foundation, and the hill gives her far sighted vision, there is a rockiness to her ability to reach them. There is an ocean below the hills, below her enlarged vision, there are deep emotions that come and go in waves. She can take the long view, she is perceptive and can wait, but all this feels ‘foreign’ to her, as if she doesn’t have full ownership of all these parts of herself (foreign country).

I said I didn’t care if we had spaghetti or fish, but that I had to get into the garage and there was a lizard in the way. My husband, Charlie, came behind to help me. We went back to the laundry room.

She doesn’t care if things get entangled (spaghetti) as they are brought to the surface (fish), but she is determined to deal with this lizard, this shadow aspect. Her husband comes to help, indicates that she trusts her husband to either help her uncover what she is trying to bring to the surface, or that he has her back while she discovers this within herself. Again, playing with words, Charlie in old English means free man, so he can help free her from something.

The large lizard was now on the washing machine, eating or guarding the basil. It had a really big head – about 6-8 inches across. It was white and had a fat, short body. I couldn’t really see legs – it was more like a fat snake. The head was scaly and had a horned-toad look to it. The jaws were really big. It kept opening it’s mouth and hissing, or making hissing looks – not sure if actual sound came out. It did not want us there! It was definitely threatening us.

Now the large lizard has risen to the surface, it is no longer hiding under the clothes, and it is guarding the issue which needs to be cleansed and could remove something that is holding this dreamer back from a fuller life. Keep in mind the basil is the issue being guarded, and for her to understand and deal with what that issue is, can remove its hold on her life.

It’s white and fat—there clearly needs to be boundaries before this continues to spread and the issue or belief get larger. She can’t see the legs—there is a question on how to move this forward. It’s more reminiscent of a snake—snakes are all about transmutation and represent the birth, death, rebirth cycle.

Clearly this dreamer is ready to confront something, even though there is a part of her that would prefer it stay buried. There is some resistance as the snake is hissing and giving off vibes that it is feeling threatened, but it is there right in front of her ready to be dealt with. Question: whatever this something in need of change within yourself is, does it feel like it could likewise threaten the marriage? Keep in mind you will be ‘free’ from this unconscious burden and/or what may be inhibiting you from a fuller expression of your deep spiritual feminine if you challenge the hissing. The hissing is your inner warning, but also what you have to move beyond. And the dream shows you that you can rely on your husband, as he is with you.

We began to discuss how we could capture it or get it outside the house. We couldn’t get past it to open the garage door. That would have allowed it to go into the garage and then we could have opened the garage door for it to go out on its own. If we captured it, we could release it up on the hillside by our house. We considered taking it up into the mountains to release it in a more remote area.

You decide together how to get rid of this, so it is outside the house (the place where you both reside) and you can both work on the issue. You can’t bring it into the garage, which is good, because you don’t want to store ‘it’ away anymore. If you capture it (deal with it), you could take it to the hillside. Hillsides signify taking it to a higher level, a higher knowing and mountains indicate that whatever this pressing issue is, you will be able to accomplish your goal. Taking it to a remote area is not giving it as much significance anymore as it might once have had.

That is when I woke up – feeling sad that I had forgotten the sardines for the poor heron. I wanted to go back to sleep so I could feed it.

It was perfect you woke up then. Our dreams often do that to us in the middle of something frightening or sad so we will get the full impact of what our unconscious is trying to bring to the surface for us to deal with. And here it is, the divine part of yourself that needs nurturing, honoring, and needs to be fed to thrive—that is what you are left knowing. You can’t go back to sleep (become unconscious) to deal with this situation and ironically you need to be both awake and aware to correct this for yourself.

Hope that helped and thank you for sharing.

Who am I Saving? She or Me?

As I have said many times in these dream blogs—dreams imply everything they do symbolically, as well as representing something of ourselves, as that symbol. Example, the little girl is someone outside this dreamer, as well as the ‘little girl’ within the dreamer’s Self. Without divulging too much background, this dreamer is an adoptive parent. I think that is highly important for this dream’s synopsis. If I did not know that, I would still have asked this dreamer what her experience was with children due to the content of the dream. The one thing I do not get to do when decoding dreams on this blog, as opposed to having a detailed dream session with someone, is asking them specific questions that could take the meaning in an alternative direction, or provide deeper analysis.

I have an inkling that this dream also expands beyond the current ‘time frame’ of what’s happening in the dreamer’s life; beyond the current situation she is experiencing, or possibly giving her a warning about the future. Because I know so much about this dreamer’s situation, I see this dream as very specific to what’s happening in her life around adoption.

In indigenous traditions, they view ‘time’ very differently than our culture. We tend to observe time as past, present and future—as a ‘timeline’. In the indigenous cultures they see time as a steady stream happening concurrently from their observation within the Now—from the center of the ‘circle of life’. Hence time is an empirical phenomenon that arises from some underlying notion we have yet to fully define, and which can be observed in many ways. This is where the dream takes us beyond time, and can supply information from the ‘center of all knowing’ to give us a view into what we perceive of as the future. Are we actually creating Then and our observation of what we will encounter in the future, through the Now of the dreaming self?

Hi, I had this dream and it stayed with me this morning so I wanted to put it in your lottery for dreams and see what it may mean.  

I am with a woman who is waiting for her daughter.  She is very upset but I don’t really know why. I just know that things feel off to me.  A lot of people come and go at the beginning of the dream from a house we are in, but I think it is more of an office.  One guy leaves and is supposed to come back and he never comes back.  We are then at a staircase and waiting for the little girl to be brought to us by someone.  We are waiting for a really long time and finally the woman goes to look for the little girl.  I turn around and see 3 wolves coming out of what looks like a fire but it’s not, it’s like a portal coming from the woods and as I watch I find it to be interesting that the lead wolf waits until all wolves are out of the portal and that then the portal shuts.  He doesn’t look at me and I have a feeling that he sees me but just isn’t worried about me.  I turn and hear the mother talking loud and clearly upset.  I am standing at the bottom of the staircase and turned to my right and saw that the fireplace had the same type of fire portal engulfing it.  I look back at the staircase and there is a big man sitting on it with the little girl and he is saying “She has to go! She has to go!!” He has a needle and he is getting ready to put it in her belly but closer to her chest. The mom is behind him crying.  I take in the situation.  I look at him and in my dream I realize – I have to get this girl away from him.  I take her feet and slide her off of him.  He starts yelling “She has to go! You have no idea what you are doing! You are ruining it!” I start running with the little girl.

Then I woke up and my heart was pounding and I was scared.  

I am with a woman who is waiting for her daughter.  She is very upset but I don’t really know why. I just know that things feel off to me. If this were my dream I would suggest that the woman (the dreamer) is waiting for “her daughter”, a child. She is upset and it feels ‘off’ to the dreamer. I think the dreamer may have an underlying doubt and is upset that she might not be able to keep the child once she receives it. Something off, could suggest that because of the adoption agency she is working with, that the biological parent’s rights will take precedence over hers as the adoptive parent. So, both the woman in the dram, and the dreamer feel that level of upset.

A lot of people come and go at the beginning of the dream from a house we are in, but I think it is more of an office.  One guy leaves and is supposed to come back and he never comes back.  Alot of people come and go at the beginning of the dream. Alot of children have come and gone, alot of promises are made, but the children delivered never stay, they end up going. One ‘guy’ (boy) leaves and is supposed to come back, but he doesn’t. I would gather that children have come to her, and just as quickly have been taken from her, never to come back. Possibly this dream happened  after one such incident.

We are waiting for a really long time and finally the woman goes to look for the little girl.  I turn around and see 3 wolves coming out of what looks like a fire but it’s not, it’s like a portal coming from the woods and as I watch I find it to be interesting that the lead wolf waits until all wolves are out of the portal and that then the portal shuts.  He doesn’t look at me and I have a feeling that he sees me but just isn’t worried about me. Finally, after waiting for a really long time—the adoption process can take years, and the biological parental rights can continue to be stretched out, despite incarceration, drug addiction, missing parents, etc. This adoptive mom has waited for the little girl she and her husband have cared for and nurtured for almost two years to be legally theirs. I am sure that has alot to do with the worried content of this dream, it shows her concern/fears and her need to have this resolved.

The little girl is also the ‘lead’ child to have come to them; and the only one thus far who has stayed, despite many ins and outs. I’m going out on a limb here, but possibly there are two more children who will come to these adoptive parents, and stay (represented by the wolves). And then the portal will shut and the family will be complete.

Dreaming of wolves, depends on what you are facing within your life experience as to  their meaning. Wolves are instinctual, they exist in packs and extended families. They often mean you have to face a fear within yourself about something. How do you control that fear and face your doubts? Wolves are also highly intelligent and intuitive. They know how to get in and out of situations, they can track the issue (or animal, situation, scenario of danger) and find a way through.

The dreamer sees them coming from fire or a portal, and there are three of them. There also seems to be a ‘head wolf’ that is not concerned with her presence. Going back to what I suggested above, the little girl (first child that came to them and has not been removed), is not concerned as she knows she will instinctually stay with this family.  That is  message to this dreamer. Three is the number of magic, change and metamorphosis. To me it promises good luck in this adoptive process. The fire represents the dreamer’s passion for bringing this adoption to fruition, and the portal represents a gateway or link to making this little girl their daughter.

I turn and hear the mother talking loud and clearly upset.  I am standing at the bottom of the staircase and turned to my right and saw that the fireplace had the same type of fire portal engulfing it.  I look back at the staircase and there is a big man sitting on it with the little girl and he is saying “She has to go! She has to go!!” He has a needle and he is getting ready to put it in her belly but closer to her chest. The mom is behind him crying.

Both the mother in the dream, and the adoptive mother are upset by all that is happening. The dreamer is at the bottom of a staircase. A staircase, especially standing at the bottom, can signify both confusion on how to hold the circumstances at a higher level of consciousness, and suggests that there have been alot of hurdles to climb. Staircases going up, also imply that you are ready to face your subconscious fears. The fireplace and portal situation again as a symbol represents that there is another situation, possibly in the near future, that will provide a link to more children, or the other two wolves that have not fully appeared in this dreamer’s family life yet. I say that with alot of caution, but I do believe a repetition of a symbol in the same dream is an opportunity for a repeat performance of something relayed earlier. In this case it brings to mind the first portal shown when three wolves came through. Because there is a fire burning, it implies warmth and a fulfillment of one’s desires or needs.

A large man holding a needle in a dream can suggest difficulties and trials ahead. The man represents concerns. The needle can suggest a pointedly intrusive situation. There might be something else that comes up with the current child, or a future child and this is a warning. My first reaction, which I often trust and have been instructed always to pay attention to when decoding, is that the future child this dreamer may receive might have almost been aborted. That’s why the needle is at the belly, and the man is shouting “She has to go.” It could also account for why the mother in the dream is crying, as she either thought the man would agree to keep the child, or perhaps doesn’t wish to abort the child, even  if she needs to give it up for adoption. In this day and age, it can also represent that the father may be a drug addict, and not want to deal with a pregnancy. Most of the children that have come through this dreamer’s door have also had that be a fact in their pregnancy background.

I take in the situation.  I look at him and in my dream I realize – I have to get this girl away from him.  I take her feet and slide her off of him.  He starts yelling “She has to go! You have no idea what you are doing! You are ruining it!” I start running with the little girl.

Whether in the dream, in the ethers, across time/space, it is quite possible that this action of the dreamer in the dreamstate quite literally saves this child’s life (whether in utero or already here), and brings her to this family eventually. Be that a new child, or even overcoming a new obstacle with the present child she is working to adopt.  I am struck by her pulling the child feet first off the man and running with her. Feet represent stability, foundation, and how we walk upon the earth. In that sense the dreamer will bring the children who come to her, stability and a strong foundation of safety, love and nurturing.  And, feet represent the ability to move forward in life, something I pray for, for this dreamer and the children that come to she and her husband.

 

 

Getting to the ‘Heart’ of the Matter

Here is the dream that I had the other night:   

I was standing in back of a man I did not know.  I told him I was going to perform open heart surgery on him and not to be afraid that I’d be quick and just stay with it.  I was a bit to his right.  I inserted my bare left hand directly into the middle part of his back, pushing down.  He winced in pain but I told him it was OK.  Then I went a bit further where he winced again and the third time I went deeper I was able to pull his heart out which I held in my hand for a moment before transferring it to my right hand.  I noticed that it was a very big heart.  I placed it into a receptacle to my right and that was the end of the dream.  But the phrase “Open heart surgery” was repeated.

Hope this is useful Sandy.  (I still really don’t have a clue what this one was about).

Dream content of course, can mean many things to different people as well as to each of us individually on any given day. The revelations or confusion, depends on one’s past and current life situation, as well as their existing emotions and cultural backgrounds. My mentors told me dreams are like holograms and can/should be looked at from many alternatives and perspectives.

If dreams can, and do, mean more than just one thing at any given time, then they offer us many ways to understand ourselves. Our first impressions of the dream are important but we can travel back into our dreams (if journaling), to discover further meanings, at future times. That implies that none of the explanations or interpretations you assess to a dream sequence are wrong, merely another consideration of the data provided.

Because dreams arise from the pool of our unconscious or subconscious ‘knowing,’ the symbology, emotional overtones, and cadence of our dreams, try to grab our attention for a brief window of ‘time’ in an effort to try to get as much lucidity as possible up to our conscious awareness during each dreamscape storyline.

One of my mentors, Grandmother Twylah Nitsch, even went so far as to suggest that dreams are merely a continuation of each dream experienced, remembered or not, by our individuation and held within the collective, for bringing discovery and meaning throughout our entire Earthwalk, by providing a connection to Source. That’s a big thought.

The Dream:

I was standing in back of a man I did not know.  I told him I was going to perform open heart surgery on him and not to be afraid that I’d be quick and just stay with it. I was a bit to his right. 

If this were my dream, I would suggest that the heart is a common symbol for love and emotional balance. It can also show you where you may be carrying hidden worries or concerns. Surgery often suggests that something is either infected thus causing you harm, or not beneficial to your needs anymore.

She is standing, “behind” the man, and it is someone she doesn’t know. I could read this two ways. The ‘man’ could be an aspect of her soul’s polar opposite—her logic, discipline, free will OR it could be a part of herself she doesn’t know very well yet. Because everything in a dream is both what it is, and a representation of the dreamer, this man is also her.

She is going to perform open heart surgery on this man, or this aspect of herself. Dreaming of surgery implies we feel vulnerable to something, but she is opening up this aspect of herself to an emotional healing. This is a brave thing to do. She wants it to be quick and easy, showing she is both prepared and ready to allow this aspect or awareness of herself to emerge.

She is standing to his right. The right side of the body corresponds to the left brain activities; each side of the brain having different functions. Although this is a simplistic explanation, the left brain function is responsible for language, processing, carrying out logic and mathematical computations…the left brain also pulls from our memory. So now a wider story opens for the dreamer.  This dream is trying to help her to comprehend something about her past that she may/may not have brought to closure, or might be re-experiencing similarly now. What part of her memory about a man, or how she views herself, does she need to release from?

I inserted my bare left hand directly into the middle part of his back, pushing down.  He winced in pain but I told him it was OK.  Then I went a bit further where he winced again and the third time I went deeper I was able to pull his heart out…

She inserts her bare left hand (right brain function) directly into the middle of his back, pushing down—The right brain helps us to comprehend imagery, facial recognition and to make sense of what we see. She wants to see this for what it is. Pushing down implies going deeper into herself, or this aspect of herself that she is either trying to open to by eliminating feelings that no longer serve, or release a past memory that likewise might not serve. The hand is ‘bare’, she wants to ‘bare all’ so she can expose and clearly see how this emotion or memory is affecting her.

This part of her (or the memory of someone) winces in the process of release, release is not easy. But she goes further, deeper, honestly within. The fact that ‘he’ is wincing and not crying out in pain suggests this will not be as painful as she might have imagined, in fact as she stated earlier, it can be quick and easy. She does this 3x’s. Three is the number of change and transformation.

She pulls out the heart of the matter, even if consciously when she wakes up she doesn’t understand the dream, the mere fact she pulls it out into consciousness, exposing it, suggests that she will come to whatever IT is for her.

….which I held in my hand for a moment before transferring it to my right hand.  I noticed that it was a very big heart.  I placed it into a receptacle to my right and that was the end of the dream.  But the phrase “Open heart surgery” was repeated.

She then transfers the heart (emotions, self-love, forgiveness) to her other hand, creating a balance and equilibrium to what needs to be assessed. It is a big heart, signifying this dreamer is a big hearted person. I know her, she is.

She puts it in a receptacle so she can deal with it, as the “ah ha’s” arise. She doesn’t place it back in the cavity of the person/past, she places it in a container. Whatever conflict she might have been feeling about a person or situation or herself, she is willing to address and change the circumstances. The human heart also represents awareness. So she is bringing in awareness to herself.

Aside: Again, because dreams mean more than one thing, and because her words at the end were so strong to her….someone she knows, but maybe not well, may need open heart surgery within the year. We are attached to the collective through the dreamtime, so other information comes into what we assume are our personal dreams, which have been pulled from the collective unconscious. And, because we are all connected to Source as One, this symbolic overlay applies as well.