Bird on the Wire

This will be a shorter dream blog, with not a lot of initial teaching comments in the beginning. Not because I usually don’t have lots to say (LOL), but sometimes there is also nothing to say because it is a time for listening, for reformatting and waiting for a sign to get the message.

Aside: I know we are all stretched during these chaotic times. So many ideas, paradigms and people need healing, whether that’s individually, family wise, within communities, environmentally, or globally. Talking with clients, friends, family and international connections, I hear the same thing: we’re overwhelmed; we’re just unclear; we’re afraid; we’re trying to believe; we want this to change…….these are times that are certainly testing our souls. We are in the chrysalis of change and rebirth. We are in the transition that has the potential to bring us to something new. But what do you/me/we wish to manifest?

I believe at the heart of it that humanity is mostly good. I believe anyone who has done their homework over the years has known something big, and life changing was coming. No one can ever really predict the how, or the when with pinpoint accuracy, but it seems that 2020, Covid and financial change is how it has unfolded. Whether ‘the new’ will be good or bad is up to us; we always have a choice. In part it is why I chose this dream for this month.

As I end most of my FB tarot postings, the best we can do for ourselves and for each other in these becoming times, is to: Stay Safe, Stay Centered, and Stay Kind.

THE DREAM

I dreamt I went to see (XXX) for a healing and I was running late.  (XXX) had a really beautiful, cozy apartment.  I went to the bathroom and there was a hammered copper wood stove.  While I was in this little washroom, I could see little birds perched through thin netting between me and the birds (like mosquito netting) with light from outside shining on them, including the tiny silhouette of a hummingbird perched on a branch.  (XXX) entered and the birds flew away.  Later, around her kitchen table I asked about books (XXX) recommended.  Through the dream I could feel my root chakra pulsing.

The Decoding:

I dreamt I went to see (XXX) for a healing and I was running late.  (XXX) had a really beautiful, cozy apartment. 

I asked the dreamer about this person who was named in her dream, and she said the word that came to mind was Wise Woman. So although we have other folks show up in our dreams, they not only represent who they are to us in the outer world, but the part of one’s self that we need to recognize and honor whilst we acknowledge that in the inner-self.

I would suggest that this dreamer look within, because some part of her doesn’t want her to linger any longer not knowing the wisdom she carries within herself. And, when she is able to relax into that knowing, she will see how beautiful her inner wise woman self is, and how much work she has done to develop ‘her.’

Apartments (similarly to houses) in a dream signify a place of comfort, safety and the protection you’ve built for yourself. To acknowledge our inner beauty is a good thing, so my sense is this dreamer is feeling more comfortable and settled within her life now and within her residence now too, whether that be her body or her physical abode.

I went to the bathroom and there was a hammered copper wood stove. 

Bathrooms represent where we need to still release, or wash clean. When something is hammered, it is molded into a new form. Copper has a wide array of healing properties and has been used successfully to detoxify, conduct and enhance spiritual energy between people, crystals, auras, etc. And wood stoves symbolize something that brings warmth and nourishment. So in this sense the dreamer is ready to release some beliefs, situations, or people from her past and reformat new opportunities that will bring healing, warmth, and nourishment to herself and others within the space she calls home.

While I was in this little washroom, I could see little birds perched through thin netting between me and the birds (like mosquito netting) with light from outside shining on them, including the tiny silhouette of a hummingbird perched on a branch. 

Within the process of her washing away old story loops, beliefs or simply ways of being that no longer serve the direction she is moving toward, she sees little birds. Birds have been very symbolic in many cultures signifying hope, peace and new found joy. Birds suggest that everything is becoming lighter and falling into place. They signify something good is coming.  [I don’t know the species of bird or their colors, but that would have given more information for the dreamer to consider.]

In this case there is mosquito netting between the birds and herself. I am going to suggest that there is still someone or something that is an annoyance to her that she needs to deal with to move forward. Mosquitos represent an annoying bug, and the netting represents you no longer wish to let their influence in, and have started to build a thin boundary between them/that and yourself to help you accomplish more autonomy. It is not a big deal because she can see the birds clearly and the light is shining on them, so there is some distance from the irritation already. But there may be someone or something that is still in her way that she needs to “fly away from” or release, to feel free. Birds also represent the mental Body as the wings represent the two hemispheres of the brain, so this could be an old belief or story that she still allows to influence her sense of self.

She can see the tiny silhouette of a hummingbird. Her future path is there for her to create and enliven. Hummingbirds are used in love charms in some indigenous cultures; they represent joy, beauty and flexibility, because the can move in any direction. In Peru the air in the mountains gets so cold at night, that they look like they have died, but with the sun’s rays they rise again, so there is a sense of rebirth about them as well. In the Andean Mystical Tradition, they carry the message for humanity to the Hanaq Pacha, or the higher realms (also discussed as the supra-consciousness from a Jungian view point), where they fertilize the flowers in the Garden of Wirachocha, God….the flowers represent each of us.

So to be in her joy, to feel enlivened in her work, and to know she can be flexible with herself and move in multiple directions to accomplish what she wants/desires, it is important to use this period as a rebirth or reconstruction time. This also can symbolize a future birth as well.

(XXX) entered and the birds flew away.  Later, around her kitchen table I asked about books (XXX) recommended.  Through the dream I could feel my root chakra pulsing.

The “wise women representative of the dreamer” enters and the birds fly away. They indicate her own freedom and liberation from past obstacles or annoyances. Now the two aspects of herself are sitting around a kitchen table, symbolizing joining company within herself. It is a time to ask how you wish to nurture yourself?  Kitchen tables suggest that something will be changing for the better within your profession or your home. She is asking about books, because she still is learning to formulate, trust and understand her self-growth and liberating changes.  Know the answers are in You already, they are there for you to discover from your wise women self.

The root chakra is a powerful place of feeling home & roots, security, safety, embodiment and empowered by being in a healthy physical body. The chakra is pulsating because the past (family of origin, past lives, past fears, etc.) are all up for revamping. The pulsing awakens the dreamer to the fact that she feels being alive and being well. She can proceed under her own agency and doesn’t need to go back to the old way of feeling disempowered or disenfranchised with life.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Nothing But Ash

When teaching my dream classes, I always suggest participants title their dreams once awake, as sort of a place holder for the feeling the dream elicited. Even if it is only the title that they remember, it gives significance to the dream story or dream memory. As such I left what this dreamer passed along as her title, as the title for this blog.

In the world at large right now we are being given a huge opportunity to reassess, rebuild, and reorganize. Covid has forced us to stop. This has also changed our night dreaming content, which I spoke a bit about in last months blog. In stepping back we have given ourselves, and the planet time to breath, time to rest, time to consciously choose different.

Our dreamtimes are being flooded with symbols and antidotal ‘movie clips’ which reveal buried feelings, old narratives, and unacknowledged beliefs, that can wake us up to something new. Once we understand what our dreaming self is showing us through the symbols it offers us, we can reorganize how we choose to embrace a more authentic self moving forward.

Astrologically as we are beginning to move away from the impact of so many  of the  outer planets in the sign of Capricorn. This has give us an opportunity to regain a stronger footing, at the same time as we break the old paradigms and personal stories we’ve used consciously, or unconsciously to box our self into some false truth. There is a liberation possible for each of us on so many levels at this time.

When someone dies, there is a phrase in the burial process of many religions, “Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.” Ashes represent a letting go of the physical body into the spiritual body—a return to our true essence. Whether it is in the Christin lexicon which states, “Dust though art, to dust though shalt return;” or a yogi or holy man smearing himself with ashes as a sign of having renounced his worldly desires and needs; or Australian Aboriginal healers dressing a wound in ash and dirt to heal a spiritual wound, beyond the physical wound—ash is not nothing, it is significant.

THE DREAM:
I am in a cave with a warrior god and a fire god. There is a light coming into the cave somewhere from above but I don’t think there was an opening in the ceiling of the cave. They lived in beautiful stall-like houses that were painted red and gold trim around the doors and windows. The stalls were very ornate like a temple. The fire god was actual fire in the shape of a human. The warrior god looked like a Roman soldier with helmet, sword, metal skirt and breastplate. The warrior god and the fire god left their houses.
From the sky, I am looking down on the warrior god and the fire god. They are laying on the ground facing each other laughing. The ground is ash. I look up and out over the land and it is all ash. There is nothing left, no people, no buildings, no trees, plants, or animals. The warrior god and fire god go back home. I am there with them. The fire god is very happy to be back in the cave where their stall-like houses are. The red paint has faded, the gold trim has started flaking from the doors and window frames. The doors and windows have been boarded up. The fire god goes to his house rips off the boards from the doors and the windows and goes into his house. You can see he’s happy and immediately lights up the house. He’s the fire god, after all. The warrior god doesn’t seem happy to be back and chooses not to go to his house. I don’t know where he goes.

I wake up.

The Decoding:

I am in a cave with a warrior god and a fire god. There is a light coming into the cave somewhere from above but I don’t think there was an opening in the ceiling of the cave.

Some say caves are incubators; birthing places in the womb of Mother Earth. Caves are where the ancients went to vision quest, or pray, to find shelter or sleep. Caves are where we can birth awareness in the darkness of our own unknowing. There is ‘light’ coming from above, from a higher place of knowing. It is perhaps beyond our conscious knowing yet even in the moment, that when we find ourselves in our darkness, we are being given an opportunity to see.

There are two aspects of the Self here. Remember everything in the dream is not only what it represents, but also an aspect of yourself.  A warrior is someone who is trying to uphold what ‘they or who they serve’ think is right, and defend against what ‘they or who they serve’ think is wrong.  Is the cause always worth defending though, or is it a form of controlling the self (or one’s turf)? Is this a warrior who represents the dreamers pre conceived notion of self or perhaps their insecurities as needing protection?

The fire god on the other hand is Spirit Self. Fire represents passion, inspiration; fire can also indicate anger or volcanic eruptions.  Fire burns things so that there is new growth; from destruction comes transformation. Fire ‘god’—the God in each of us, is the power of our divine will within the fire of our soul. 

They lived in beautiful stall-like houses that were painted red and gold trim around the doors and windows. The stalls were very ornate like a temple. The fire god was actual fire in the shape of a human. The warrior god looked like a Roman soldier with helmet, sword, metal skirt and breastplate. The warrior god and the fire god left their houses.

When we dream of houses we are dreaming of where we live within ourselves. In this case they are in stalls, which means the dreamer has departmentalized parts of her life, or things from the past. They leave the house, forcing her to take a journey outside herself via the dream story. This is their gift to her, as representations or symbols of what she needs to revisit about herself.

The stalls are painted red and gold around the windows and the doors.  Windows represent being able to see into and out of—in other words how does the dreamer see herself in her inner world, and how does she allow her self to express herself, or be seen in her outer world? The doors represent that she has closed some part of herself off in someway, although she has the capability of ‘letting herself out.’  

Red represents passion, life force energy, trust and the ability to communicate one’s truth. Gold holds value from the beginning of time. It is the highest color or vibration to express the essence of our God/Goddess Self, which is why only kings and queens could wear it. In Middle Eastern and East Indian countries still, the amount of gold a women and her family owns, in part signifies her worth. Does the dreamer see her own worth? Has she created some definition of worth that needs a review?

The fire god holds the shape of a human, yes her Higher vibrant Self. And the warrior god is totally armored, yes her shielded and self-protected self. I would ask the dreamer to sit and feel (not think, but feel) how this resonates for her. Because she is being guided to sit within her ‘inner temple of truth and self value.’  To find what that truly means for her, she has to leave the protection (as they did) from her house, the domain in which she hides herself…..be that metaphorically, personally, physically or emotionally.

From the sky, I am looking down on the warrior god and the fire god. They are laying on the ground facing each other laughing. The ground is ash. I look up and out over the land and it is all ash. There is nothing left, no people, no buildings, no trees, plants, or animals.

The dreamer is being given a higher perspective to witness these aspects of herself. They are laying on the ground laughing at each other because they want her to find the humor in her life. To not resist change. To live a fuller existence. [This doesn’t mean yachts and travel and diamonds. It means her ability to meet those inner desires of self love and confidence and joy.] Her fire self and her warrior self have protected, inspired and been with her in tough times and in good….they want her to lighten up, to experience more joy, to have more fun, to be less constrained.

The ground, the land and everything around is ash and everything is now gone. This is a new beginning. She can construct something different now, and bring in new life experiences to a new personal terrain. This is a huge opportunity. There is nothing left of the old, only the challenge to build what she now wants. TO RENEW.  

The warrior god and fire god go back home. I am there with them. The fire god is very happy to be back in the cave where their stall-like houses are. The red paint has faded, the gold trim has started flaking from the doors and window frames. The doors and windows have been boarded up. The fire god goes to his house rips off the boards from the doors and the windows and goes into his house. You can see he’s happy and immediately lights up the house. He’s the fire god, after all. The warrior god doesn’t seem happy to be back and chooses not to go to his house. I don’t know where he goes.

This is my favorite part of the dream. (I always have a favorite part of a dream, as the dreamer usually gives themselves the answers they seek.) They all go back home, within YOU. The fire god—your divine self—is glad to be back in the womb of your future creations. 

The colors are fading, not because she is lacking what those colors mean, but because the dream is coming to and end, and they have served their purpose, offered as an explanation to further tap into self realization. The colors fade not as a loss of those frequencies, but to create space to build something new, a new dream, a new way of living the inner you in your outer expression. 

Parts of herself have been walled off, and boarded up, but the fire god rips them all down. He enters refreshed, happy and lights up her inner world; it is time.  Why does he do this, because “he is the fire god after all.” Our soul essence will never leave us, and it always wants us to have the fullest most joyous life we possibly can, but on this plane of existence we have free will, so we must decide the ‘how of it.’  We always have a choice. The dreamer now has open windows and open doors to make those other choices possible. 

The warrior god knows his time has come to rest. He doesn’t need to go back in, because you do not need his protection in the ways he has been forced to serve you.  The fire god will guide you now for the coming times. T he warrior god is not necessarily unhappy, he made a choice not to go back in, to show you that you have choices too. You made a choice in this dream whether you feel comfortable with it as yet, or not—that you do not need to be armored. In fact you have released the warrior god into the light (where all good warriors go), as he has now offered you through his service, the potential to step more fully into your Light.

Thank you for sharing dreamer, very powerful. 

What Movie do you Replay?

I have been hearing from a lot of people that they have been having “dreams in review.” It is why I chose this particular dream for this month’s blog. People have told me that they are dreaming of folks from their past; people who have died; situations they thought they had a handle on, or had overcome. I have been having some doozies of my own, which made me ask, Why Now?”

To set the stage, this is something I posted on FB about a week ago in response to another friends dream posting. My share: “I have a friend who teaches lucid dreaming in England, and he was telling me that one of the reasons there’s a rash of people having weird dreams right now is because of the ‘stay in’ order. That we’re not dealing with the everyday confusion, triggers, to-do lists, running around, work deadlines that usually get cleared during our dream time.”

With the 24/7 fear media and the social distancing, not only are we living in a new level of ‘quiet’ stress, but we have no one to process our thoughts with in isolation. If we are not in isolation we are thrown together in new ways with our partners or children that promote a different type of stress. Without our dreams centering on the activities of our day-to-day, and influencing our nightly sojourns, what is happening now is that we’re sinking deeper and deeper into our own personal subconscious, our unprocessed fears, or the pool of what we still need to discover, unearth, and/or process yet ‘again,’ to understand more about the choices we’ve made. And WHY?

Possibly this is a ‘gift’ of this virus? The capacity to delve deeper into the voice of our bizarre or nightmarish dreams, simply because they stimulate further consideration for the ways we will choose to make future choices in our waking state moving forward. On all levels this virus is a reboot of grand proportions, so why not our dream musings too.

“According to an ongoing study the Lyon Neuroscience Research Center in France initiated in March, the coronavirus pandemic has caused a 35 percent increase in dream recall among participants, with respondents reporting 15 percent more negative dreams than usual.”
https://www.nationalgeographic.com/science/2020/04/coronavirus-pandemic-is-giving-people-vivid-unusual-dreams-here-is-why/#close

The Dream:
I have had a couple of dreams lately about an ex-boyfriend who I adored. It ended six years ago when he just stopped calling. I was annoyed/upset about the dreams because I’ve done SO much work on letting him go that I took them as a sign that even after all this time I still haven’t properly let go. I fall in love with alpha males. I am ridiculous in this as I see the pattern but can’t stop myself.

I included part of her backstory here because she states clearly what she feels her issue is. She is already chastising herself for the fact that falling in love deserves great loss and a broken heart. Why? Because she has chosen alpha males, and somehow that is wrong and deserves punishment. Now there’s a storyline that needs a revisit!!!

And, she thought because this happened 6 years ago, (and she worked hard at letting it go), that there still shouldn’t be something to process. Six (6) on the wisdom wheel is the number of trust, communication and faith. I share this with her (and you the reader), because I know from giving this woman a reading a short time ago, that she has the potential within the next year to have a man walk into her life. It will take trust; she certainly will need to shush her ‘critical voice’; and when he shows up, probably as an alpha male (no reason to condemn who turns us on), she will need to have faith. You can’t learn faith, you either have it or you don’t.

Not all alpha males are uncaring, nor unable to fully love their partner. So I see this dream as a preparation for her to unravel the false stories she has told herself about love; her capacity to be loved by someone she desires; and that there is someone who can truly love her for who and what she is. Certainly her inner story needs tweaking as she walks into her future.

So, to the dreams. The first dream I was walking along and suddenly saw him coming and realized I looked a complete mess and in particular I had no make-up on. I felt a kind of horror – an elation at seeing him and an urgency of “I must hide quickly, he mustn’t see me like this!”

What’s happening is not going on between the dreamer and her ex, it is about something happening within herself. She is a mess when she thinks of finding love again. He embodies what she needs to discover and feel about herself. That she can be “seen” for all of who she is. But instead she thinks she must hide from that euphoria of having those feelings of excitement and connection again—to change the type of person that she is attracted to, or to be hurt again.

She has no makeup on—she has to look at herself devoid of any masks and know that her true self is capable of being embraced fully just because of who she is. And, maybe this is a part of herself that she has tried to hide from past lovers, to please them instead of herself, or perhaps make her persona appear aloof to their reactions or hurtful rejections. Does she have a  fear of appearing too vulnerable? Where did that false story start? We are all vulnerable in love.

The second dream had two parts – one in which he was about to get married to this current girlfriend (he never wanted to marry me) and I was congratulating him and being all “spiritual” about how pleased I was for him to find the person who was exactly right for him after a lifetime of ‘searching’ (he’s been married 4 times). Ugh so false of me! Though I think I kind of believed even myself in the dream.

When a dream is in two parts it is often our Higher Self trying to get the information to us in more than one way. The pain that he has chosen someone else, not her, is a reflection that she has not put herself first in relationships.

Partnership/Marriage is about union, and this dream is trying to focus the dreamer to consider the union of her Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine. When we know our inner lover, we will more often than not be able to find our outer lover, because we are not looking to plug a hole we think can only be fulfilled ‘out there.’ We often ask lovers to satisfy something that we are afraid to realize or own in our self—or perhaps think is broken in our self, or been falsely modeled in our family of origin. This is why alot of partnerships break up, because at a certain point the other can’t fulfill what is broken, missing or unfulfilled within us.

She’s acting “all spiritual”….like there is a higher, more enlightened way to falsify our inner pain. Is it not spiritual to acknowledge our pain? That’s a lie we tell ourselves, and often why even our ‘spiritual’ persuasions fall away as well, in part because they don’t fill the hole.

No Law of Attraction will come to manifestation if we are not ‘Attracted to Our Self.’ It sounds like she has been searching for a lifetime—out there—to find what she needs to fall in love with—in here. [That is not criticism or judgement, it is something we all are prone to do.]

He’s been married 4 times. I would ask the dreamer how many times she has been in relationships where she has been rejected or left…or was the one doing the rejecting or leaving? Four is the number of the Emperor, suggesting she has tried to work things out with strong, desirable, career oriented, powerful men. But 4 is also the number on the Wisdom Wheel that asks us to look at our motivation, see clearly, observe what makes us choose one thing over another, and to then perceive ‘our truth’ so we can make better choices the next time. So dreamer, admit what attracts you and moving forward know the signs when it is not working; seek instead the equation you need to define your own needs to make it work for you. That is not self-fish, that is self-worth.

The second part of the dream, he was ill and came to seek me out. He had terrible pains in his feet and I was flattered and pleased that he’d finally come back to me. I think his business was also maybe collapsing. (I always thought of this guy as a genius and felt lucky to be with him).

He comes back, but he is ill. What is the emotion you felt? In addition what is the emotion you are feeling right now about life? About love? About desire?

He has terrible pain in his feet. Everyone in the dream represents who they are, but also an aspect of one’s self….are you ready to move forward again. Do you think you can look at the pain of that experience maybe one more time to tease out a bit more clarity of how you do relationship, and why you do it that way? Your feet are your foundation to move forward on the Earth. You thought he was a genius, do you see the genius in yourself? His business is collapsing, which was probably everything in his world back then. Maybe as you revisit how your world collapsed with him, not to bring back the pain, but so you can let go of the falsities that might be holding you back from falling in love again.

This was worse because when I reflected on the dream when I woke up I suddenly imagined myself as Kathy Bates in Misery, where I had willed this accident on him to make him less powerful so that he’d come back to me.

I loved this, she has defined what she believes to be her destined movie sequence. What a perfect metaphor her dreaming-self left her with. My dream teacher, Gram Twylah, always reminded me to write down the impression of the dream when I first came back to waking. It was the underlying point of the entire dream sequence.

Misery, how do you wish to experience relationships? In the horror movie of the same name, Bates damaged her male obsession so he had to stay with her. Playing on words, how do you “Bait” yourself.  Do you tell yourself you need to accidentally or purposefully fall in love with the same old ‘story’ and continue to make yourself less powerful in another’s partnership movie?

No you don’t need to be afraid to fall in love and experience it once again. You know more about yourself, your worth, your value so that your next romantic movie can end differently this time. As Carlos Castaneda said: “The trick is what one emphasizes. We either make ourselves miserable or we make ourselves happy-the amount of work is the same.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Let’s have a Heart to Heart

I hesitated to use this dream this month, given the situation the world finds itself in, that of a 24/7 news cycle filled with fear and death and more fear. But these are powerful times for change, waking up, and creating anew. To me this dream was very shamanic.  Shamanic experiences can appear frightening because they take us into ‘our’ unknown, or outside our comfort zone.

To work shamanically does not mean you need to be a shaman, medicine person, healer, etc. We are here to find our unique place and alignment with everything around us. This is our test as humans; it’s also our gift to be human. In that sense I believe we are all capable of working in the shamanic realms.

Although a shaman in the historical/cultural aspect of the word, is a medicine elder from the Tungus region of Siberia, in the popular lexicon, the word shaman has become a catch all phrase for those who practice journeying, rituals or healing practices of an indigenous and/or earth-based nature. There is nothing but good in tapping one’s inner knowing, however you get there. Dreams are a big part of the shamanic path.

Although I work shamanically with clients, I would never call myself a shaman. That is a clear and personal choice. I am a firm believer that anyone who hangs out a shingle claiming to be such, cannot do it out of want, ego or without true training; but that is a completely different conversation.

There are many people around the globe who currently have a strong desire to create a more meaningful relationship with all aspects of Nature, Mother Earth as a living entity, the energies of the Universe and the energies of the unseen—as a way to bring awareness and balance not only back to the self, but hopefully to extend that out to other in a good way.

In these times where everything is shut down, it is a reboot opportunity to be in the Silence and discover that which we wish to rebirth about ourselves, our environment, our planet, our worth, our health, how we wish to live. We cannot do that through fear and anxiety—that is the cage of the old model. It is our responsibility to take hold of our destiny to make the changes needed for a fairer, kinder, more aware and participatory existence. It starts with the self. It’s the process that is important, not the title one gives it; the process must be practical and adaptable.

It’s why I find dreams so profound. They are shamanic. They are teachers. They are informative. At their core they are really practical for our own growth, and understanding them allows us to be adaptable with our self. They come from our inner voice, which is connected to Source, thus they are a way for the Divine within us, to speak to us.

Just like the fear many are experiencing with the virus, this entire world’s current PAUSE BUTTON is a teacher for change, but only if we don’t fall into the immobility of the panic. This dream is an amazing shamanic healing source for the dreamer, if the dreamer doesn’t linger in the fear of the disturbance created in the story-line, but rather sees the gift being offered by her heart’s voice within her own dream-story.

THE DREAM:

(It was brief, but one of the most disturbing dreams I have ever had. I am not sure if I should provide you with any background information on myself, so I won’t; but if you would like to know anything to help interpret the dream, I am happy to share.) Side bar: I didn’t ask this person anything about this dream. This is not someone I know.

I am eating my own heart. It does not look like a human heart, but I know that it is my heart. It looks like a pale pink artichoke, with leaves or layers that I am peeling back with a fork. I know that I should not be doing this, that I will die if I eat my own heart, and I don’t understand how I am even still living with my heart outside of my body. But I am compelled to eat it, so I peel a layer off with my fork, and as I am raising it to my mouth, I can see a small red core in the center of the heart and it is beating. At the same time, I can feel my heart in my chest, beating to the same rhythm. I know my heart will stop beating if I eat it, but I cannot stop myself.

Then, I wake up.

Decoding:

I am eating my own heart. It does not look like a human heart, but I know that it is my heart.

Eating a human heart means you are trying to process something that has potentially affected your ability to express, or receive unconditional love. Ironically, in the dream it does not look like a human heart, which can imply that you do not feel someone cares about you, about your love, or what you offer of yourself. Or perhaps that you are not fully realizing the true nature of your heart because the image is skewed.

Eating a heart is a huge rite of both communion and passage. In First Nations hunting experiences back in times gone by…. [Remember Dances With Wolves & Kevin Costner?]  ….When the People hunted buffalo, deer, etc., they believed that the animal was part of the cycle of life, and that it had laid down it’s life so the People might live. Eating of its heart was to take in that courage, that unconditional love, in a rite of both gratitude and appreciation for what the animal had offered. 

Because you know it is ‘your’ heart it suggests you need to be more tender with yourself. You need to ask yourself where you are willing to give or receive love in a more self-accepting way. I would ask the client, “How do you value yourself?” And because the heart is misshaped from what you know a heart to look like, I might also ask the client, “Why do you feel wounded?” ” “How do you not see the heart’s lesson clearly?” and also “Have you had your heart checked by a professional to make sure nothing organically is wrong?” [Which I do not think is the case here, but it is valuable to ere on the side of caution.]

It looks like a pale pink artichoke, with leaves or layers that I am peeling back with a fork. I know that I should not be doing this, that I will die if I eat my own heart, and I don’t understand how I am even still living with my heart outside of my body.

Pink on the Wisdom Wheels represents insights and foresights, that it is pale, suggests you may be in a period where you do not trust or listen to your inner knowing around an issue past, or present.

It’s got leaves and layers (like an artichoke I am assuming), which implies the “heart” (which is what they call the center of an artichoke), is covered with sorrow. Perhaps something of import to your personal growth needs to be scrutinized, thought through, reflected on, to get to the ‘heart of the matter.’ Grief cannot be ignored, it is a process and each step will come no matter how we try to cover it. [see Kuble-Ross’s steps to grief]

Taken as a play on words, it says, “your heart is choking” on something you haven’t digested, or about someone you are still chocked-up about. What must you assess? And, do you need help from someone or something external to get through the layers of this?

My sense is that you feel that if you face this wound, some part of you will die. Personal truth is actually held the potential of your ability to release. Dying to who we are IS the shamanic act of dying to what nolonger serves us moving forward. As you say in the dream, you don’t know how you are living with your heart outside your body, yet you are, just not fully. When a shaman goes through the ‘death of the self’ she/he is capable of being the conduit for others by working in the unseen parts you are unable to see because your story limits you. You must be the conduit for your self healing and open  your heart again. The dreamtime is called, “the little death”, so this dream makes you really face that letting go phase.

But I am compelled to eat it, so I peel a layer off with my fork, and as I am raising it to my mouth, I can see a small red core in the center of the heart and it is beating.

You are compelled to heal, to get to the core of what stops you from raising your vibration and nurturing yourself. Eating is a way of nurturing ourselves, and going back to Dances With Wolves, taking a bite of the heart of the courageous buffalo that offered its life so the People could be nourished, presented Costner with his personal rite of passage. Likewise you will need to call on your own courage, and find the love of yourself, to address what your heart wants you to heal.

This issue is multi-layered. Forks indicate there is an situation or problem in your circle of folks: be that family, community, partner/lover, work, etc….or even your inner pantheon of guides and subtle bodies. This doesn’t even have to be current, it can be from the past, but the dream is indicating that now is the time to look at that story and how it has run your life up to this point, so you can make changes.

You see a small red core and it is beating. Your heart is still intact; it is still alive; it holds truth and it is strong, despite the grievance/s. Red on the Wisdom Wheels is about trust, communication, and having faith in yourself. As one of my mentors, Gram Twylah used to tell me, “You can’t learn faith, you either have it or you don’t.” Do you have faith in yourself? Do you get that your heart wants to live fully, and express fully, and love fully?

At the same time, I can feel my heart in my chest, beating to the same rhythm. I know my heart will stop beating if I eat it, but I cannot stop myself.

To eat the heart means you want to process this issue. It is not a death toll; to do so offers you a new lease on life, a deeper understanding of yourself. Your true heart is still in your chest; you can feel it beating, wanting to live large. Its beat is sending out its resonance, its rhythm, calling you home.

Epigenetics says the heart is the primary brain in the body. It modulates the frequency or heart/brain coherence for higher consciousness with the mind. In the Andean tradition it is called the Inca Seed—the pure potential we all have to grow the Self in love and right knowing. In some traditions, the heart center is where the Evolving Soul resides. You should not stop yourself dreamer; ‘eat your heart out’, find you in that beat. If you have the courage to eat, digest and release your pain, it will become your personal shamanic process back to a greater You.

Thank you dreamer for sharing

Look Through My Window, What Do You See?

I chose this dream because of the packed astrological alignments happening now that I feel speak to this dreamer. Very loosely (and nowhere near the full impact/explanation of all of what is going on in the sky right now), we just arrived at a new moon in Pisces (healing, compassion, re-connection), with the North Node in Cancer (family, the past, emotions) while the South Node is in Capricorn (karmic accumulation, structure, ancestors), and Mercury is in its retrograde cycle (review, restore, renew). 

I see this as a time of cleansing emotional situations and/or buried memories from the past. It is a time to renew a compassionate beginning for yourself. (Layers, our life is layered with experiences and awareness that shed light only when the timing is right.)          

An astrologer I follow suggests (paraphrasing): “Look back to 2001, 1982, or even 1964 to see what you were doing and what was brought to your awareness with the South Node in Capricorn and the North Node in Cancer. It may have been a change or challenge to one or more of these: emotional experiences, familial relationships, location, etc. See how you are being asked to navigate now, as a consequence of those key decision then, and how those situations have manifested in you, or for you over time.”                    

This dream speaks to needing to transform, uncover or reveal the emotions coming up through this dream, while connecting to one’s self with a level of awareness of how your past has shaped your current reality, and being compassionate for the ‘ride’ you need to take to become aware or healthier in your choices.

THE DREAM:
My dream was fragmented.
It is very hot in the room so I go to a window and the screen is showing. As I look through it, I see behind the screen there are multiple levels. I take the screen out and see there is a storm window. Behind that, there is a broken wooden window with a ripped screen in it. I remove them and as I am telling someone about this, the dream shifts.

I am driving with an Uber driver. He is a young man, with ginger hair, but he is being so rude that I keep flipping him off. He drops me off at my home. I am surprised to see it is where I lived as a kid. He picks up a family of 4, but he won’t send me the connection to the app so I can pay him. Now we’re in a room with the whole family and he is frustrated with me trying to work my phone to get the app so it will show the cost of the ride. The more upset and frustrated he gets, the nicer I get. I lose the dream.

The Decoding:
It is very hot and I go to a window. The screen is showing, but I see behind it there are multiple levels.    

To dream of being hot in your dream (temperature and not related to night sweats) is often related to something that feels excessive, it has become “too much” to handle, and in some cases can mean you need to clear yourself of the memory of someone or something. Temperature in dreams signifies the quality of your emotions around something.

Windows have often been interpreted as “doorways or windows” to the soul. Doors need to be opened so you can get out, and windows need to be clear to see through and beyond. There are multiple layers. Your outlook is about to change or a new awareness is ready to bubble to the surface, however this will be multi-layered for you.

To dream of a clear window suggests clear sightedness around an issue, but to dream of broken windows often signifies that your viewpint around an issue is in need of being assessed and then fixed. With multiple layers, there are multiple issues that need to be addressed or may be coming to light all at the same time, that has distorted one’s past experiences.                                                                                             

I take the screen out and see there is a storm window. Behind it, there is a broken wooden window with a ripped screen in it. I remove them and as I am telling someone about this, the dream shifts.                                                                                          

The dreamer is ready to “unpack’ something about her past that if/when remembered, or faced could create a stormy or stressful situation. This could be about difficult emotional times, family or friends who were not supportive, or perhaps experiences that broke her faith in herself. That the dreamer is taking them out shows she is willing to reassess the past situation. The rip in the screen allows her an opening to review what is beyond. I would ask the dreamer if she remembers what the view or the weather was outside that window, despite the condition of the window/s, as this would add to the “soul searching” that needs to be done.

I am driving with an Uber driver. He is a young man, with ginger hair, but he is being so rude that I keep flipping him off.

The dream has shifted, when this happens usually it is the ‘Self’ trying to bring info in another way, with a different set of symbols for the dreamer to review. The dreamer is with an Uber driver, possibly signifying that she does not feel in control with the information from the past, and needs “a map, for someone to drive her there.” Someone to help unpack the memories or get to a better destination within herself that she is having trouble navigating alone.

Seeing that everything in the dream is also an aspect of our self, it is interesting to look at the symbology. Hair represents personal power but in dreams in can also refer to sexuality, sensuality, attitude or one’s thinking style. Ginger headed suggests you cannot avoid this any longer—there are beliefs, emotions, behaviors or anger that need to be explored and dealt with. The mere fact that the dreamer keeps flipping him off shows her level of emotional upset.                                                                 

He drops me off at my home. I am surprised to see it is where I lived as a kid.              

Here is where the impact of her feelings occurred, in the past. She is at the home where she lived as a kid; this is a childhood issue that needs to be resolved. She is surprised to find herself here, which might suggest she hadn’t either remembered this before, or has suppressed it for reasons of safety.                                                                                                   

He picks up a family of 4, but he won’t send me the connection to the app so I can pay him.

Possibly there was an issue within the family. Possibly she felt little connection to the family. Possibly she felt alone in this family. Possibly everyone in the family knew but chose to be quiet.

Four is about restructuring, finding balance, solidity, clear-vision, responsibility; also the Emperor in the tarot is the 4th arcana—father-figures, health, structure. (Remember Mercury–review, restore, renew; and Cancer South Node-family, emotions; and North Node in Capricorn-karmic accumulation, ancestors?)            

Phones are about contacting someone for communication. It is about reaching out to feel connection, to share or to get help. Apps are about finding the help needed to connect with something new or to navigate how to deal with new information.    

This young man (who is also part of herself) is withholding some piece of information for an exchange to be completed. But more importantly this is not allowing the culmination of the transaction–the full blown memory.

There is a problem, a lack of connection, a ‘disconnect’ to something that can finalize the conscious awareness of whatever the dreamer is trying to bring to completion from her past. Perhaps she is withholding the memory from herself? I would also ask her if there were any ‘gingers’ in her family.  

Now we’re in a room with the family. He is frustrated with me trying to work my phone to get the app so it will show the cost of the ride. The more upset and frustrated he gets, the nicer I get. I lose the dream.

Having the whole family in the room means all the pieces are coming together to be assessed and reviewed. The app is still not connecting—the full memory or impact of the emotions the dream might unleash isn’t ready to fully be brought into consciousness. Or perhaps at the time of childhood their was a fear or frustration that ‘a transaction’ may have been brought to light in the family unit. She couldn’t ask for help. Timing is everything, but there are many clues to begin to explore the symbols contained herein.

The more upset ‘he’ gets, the nicer she gets. I see this as two different things. First being nice is probably something she had to force herself to be as a child to be safe. And secondly, if she is ‘nice’ she might not have to fully remember and deal with what this unravels about her childhood. However, as the layers of windows suggest, you can take the emotional strata ‘out’ one step at a time, and hopefully with someone who will assist you to help you through what may be revealed.                            

Thank you dreamer for your dream.

How Do I Love Thee?

This month’s dream blog will be shorter than usual, because it’s a short dream. Short dreams can sometimes be even more impactful than marathon dreams.

I want to speak to one thing prior to decoding this dream sequence. One of the most important things I feel that I have seen in my work, both as a shamanic practitioner and as an integrative coach, is how much we all miss the opportunity to examine what could be the biggest love affair in our lives. By that I mean the messages, meanings and merging of one’s own Divine Masculine/Divine Feminine; Inner Goddess/Inner God; Yin/Yang; or whatever other combo name you wish to use.

These are not polar opposites, as we have often been taught to believe, for that separates who we intrinsically are at a soul level. Being attentive to both aspects offers an opportunity to enliven and balance the full essence of our Self. There is no exclusion really, other than our inner rejection or our outer projection onto someone else. It is our Inner Alchemy that allows us to seal the wounds between the two forces, so that we are rewarded by revealing ‘all we are.’ It is only then that we can offer more of who we are in an outer relationship, should one desire, and no matter the gender, age or circumstance we choose.

The Dream
I am driving through torrential rains. The road I am driving on has collected water that is almost 4” deep. I am heading to a gas station, but I think it is only an excuse to see someone that I have a pseudo crush on? I run inside and ask if I left my gray sweater there. ‘He’ is at this altar space he has created, cutting flowers and putting them in vases. He is obviously angry with me and says, “I love you. Everyone knows I love you, but you continue to ignore me.” I am hesitant, embarrassed and confused all at the same time. I leave.

Note: I am not involved with anyone, and haven’t been for a long time, but the feelings wake me up.

The Decoding:

I am driving through torrential rains. The road I am driving on has collected water that is almost 4” deep.

Torrential rains can indicate that one is going through alot of emotional turmoil or a deep cleansing period. Rain is water; water indicates emotions; and torrential implies that the emotions are coming at one so quickly that they haven’t as yet been labeled or interpreted fully. The person is driving, suggesting they are in control of how they are pacing themselves in navigating these emotions.

The road suggests the dreamer has a path she is following, but that path is “collecting water” meaning maintaining that direction is getting harder to traverse emotionally (either consciously or unconsciously). The water has collected to almost 4″ deep. Ironically 4 in the tarot is the Emperor, and in its higher elevation is someone who is a strong leader, dynamic and constructive. And, 4 in numerology is related to being strong willed, builders, and service. It is also associated with the planet Uranus, which has a distinct character of it’s own, being both unpredictable and liberating. And 4 on the Wisdom Wheel is about motivation and insights. Aside: As dream’s are want to do, I see a set up coming, LOL

I am heading to a gas station, but I think it is only an excuse to see someone that I have a pseudo crush on? I run inside and ask if I left my gray sweater there.

Heading to a gas station implies the dreamer needs to “refuel” to be able to keep going the way she has, in her outer world. The dreaming self is showing her that she has made excuses to explore deeper feelings, “a crush.”

She runs into the station and asks if she has left her gray sweater. Gray on the Wisdom Wheels implies she needs to assess if she is truly honoring herself, her life, and her desires, as she proceeds down the road of life. Gray as a color palette in psychology indicates ‘compromise’. It is neither black nor white; it’s unemotional and detached. This is completely opposite than the feelings she runs into the gas station with, a “crush.” Sweaters represent protection and a need for warmth. The dreamer is experiencing an inner conflict, that she may, may not be ready to address in her outer world. 

‘He’ is at this altar space he has created, cutting flowers and putting them in vases. He is obviously angry with me and says, “I love you. Everyone knows I love you, but you continue to ignore me.”

The ‘He” can represent her inner divine masculine (or potentially a man she has yet to met externally), I do not know the dreamer so I would leave this to her to assess. For the decoding, I am going with her inner male. He has created a sacred space, an altar. He is putting flowers in a vase to adorn the sacred space, suggesting he can offer beauty (flowers) and structure (the vase). Flowers can indicate happiness, good fortune, and in some representations they can also indicate the female organ.

He, this untapped (or as yet un-discovered person) aspect of herself, is indignant and upset that she doesn’t know how much she is loved. How much she is ready for love. Possibly where she excludes a concrete, pioneering, unexpected part of herself who is ready to incorporate a fuller sense of Self. And this can also be a precursor to an outer relationship on the horizon, even though she doesn’t seem to be looking for one.

I am hesitant, embarrassed and confused all at the same time. I leave.

She is in conflict, and her dreaming self has shown her very clearly where her waking work lies. This is a wonderful dream of introducing yourself to yourself.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Dreams and Drugs

I hope this dream decoding, in some fashion, helps families/parents/individuals out there who are dealing with drug abuse involving their children or a loved one. Not because the decoding offers any answers, but because I believe the dream offers this dreamer an opportunity to turn towards her own needs. When we forgo our own needs, we forgo the mirror we are hoping to teach those with an addiction-Self Care.  

I know the devastating effects rendered on a family, as I have experienced it in my own extended family, as well as seen the harsh results in my therapy practice. I have had friends and colleagues who have dealt with this in their families, some with good results and many unfortunately with devastating outcomes.  Throughout it all, I have seen people loose their own sense of self, while trying to assist those they love, at the detriment of their other children, their marriage, and/or themselves,

I am not making a statement on all recreational or ceremonial drugs. In the right context and with the right teachers/ceremonialist these have a place. Nor am I judging where people are led in the desire to reduce their pain, or subvert their painfully reality. Nor am I saying families don’t try their best with a difficult situation out of both love and fear of the end result where heroin and opioids are concerned. There is no criticism or judgment here. 

How/What does this topic of opioids/heroin have to do with a dream blog? Unless lucid dreaming (and even then), escape into the dream world can be as unpredictable as escape into a world suppressed or enhanced with opioids and heroin. Only you wake up from one, and sometimes you are not that lucky with the other.

In a world that deals with so many tragedies and temptations; a world that has so many conflicting agendas and definitions; and a world where the boundaries of the real and unreal have become so entangled, there are a couple of awkward similarities and any number of profound dissimilarities between dreams and the abuse of drugs. 

Qualifiers. Both take us outside our known ‘real’ day to day. Both set up emotional reactions or enhance emotional reactions. Both tempt us with alternative possibilities. Both can take us to ‘otherworldly’ dimensions. But that is where the similarities end, and that is where the detriment of the dissimilarities begins.

The dreamtime might appear scary or out of control—like we are being tempted or presented with a conflict to our reality—but it does not endanger us. As much as we might find pleasure in dreaming and assessing our dream state symbology, we are not addicted to dreams. We may awake with more awareness, not with less knowing of what “just happened.” 

In the dreamtime,…..“The dorsal lateral pre-frontal cortex becomes de-activated. This is the part of the brain responsible for decisions or volition; this provides alternatives from how we might maneuver the world in our waking state. This is also the rational part of the brain that gets de-activated, however there are other areas of the brain that deal with rationality, so we don’t lose all rational thinking when we dream.” In fact in the dream state, we fire the antennae of certain neurotransmitters, strengthening out connections with higher states of consciousness.

Opioids and heroin are the complete opposite. Although it is true people often experiment with drugs to achieve an alternative view of their reality; deal with their unexpressed pain; or use it in their need to escape, these drugs do affect one’s consciousness. Unlike dreams, drugs like heroin affect the neurotransmitters needing more and more of the drug to experience the same effect, and thus deteriorate our connections to higher states of consciousness.  This class of drugs affects the prefrontal cortex (executive function), temporal lobe, the cerebellum (coordination) and the pleasure centers of your brain, not to mention the physical side effects. So drugs ‘recode’ the brain, causing imbalances in neuronal and hormonal systems that are not easily reversed. This doesn’t occur within the dreamtime.

There is one more observation with this dream. This dreamer’s innate ‘knowing’ is trying to bring into her consciousness awareness something about her son, and her own conflicts around her own needs. Her need to nurture herself is a priority to her health. Let’s look at the dream.

The Dream:

I was walking down the street in an unfamiliar neighborhood and stopped in front of a house when I felt this was “the one.” It was fairly new construction with dirt for a yard – no grass or plantings yet.  I let myself in through the front door and went into the kitchen (the family that lived there was home … the mom and 3 kids were upstairs and the dad was in the garage). I wanted cinnamon rolls with white icing, so I opened a refrigerated can and they were magically ready to eat. I grabbed a plate and put a cinnamon roll on it and also helped myself to eggs and bacon that were already made and left out on the counter [in my waking life I don’t eat any of these things – I’m vegan and GF]. As I ate my plate of food, I walked around on the main floor and every time I walked past the front door there was a different group/flock of young children standing on the porch. I saw them through the sidelights. They stood like kids do at Halloween, but it wasn’t Halloween and they were not wearing costumes. There was something eerie about them … almost as if they weren’t of this world. They were very solemn and stood straight and still. I ignored them. Eventually the wife/mom came into the kitchen and saw me. She was startled and upset, though she remained polite. I was unperturbed and kept eating. She didn’t say anything to me, just followed me around as I roamed the main level eating my plate of food. Then the husband/dad showed up. He was angry that I was in their house uninvited. We made small talk but I could tell he was very angry, and I knew I had to leave. As I walked through the kitchen toward the garage, I asked them if this house was on San-Dell Way [in my waking life, my husband and I built a house on San-Dell Way and lived in it for 11 years; we sold it 14 years ago]. He said no, San-Dell Way was 2 blocks east. I looked east out the kitchen window and saw dirt hills and houses in various stages of completion and knew that San-Dell Way was east of where I stood.

I went out through the door that lead to the attached garage, and as I stood in the middle of the garage I turned back to find both the mom and dad standing in the door and all 3 young children gathered at their legs. I said, “Be careful with the drugs. When heroin comes into the picture, don’t mess around. Call me if you need help.” And I walked down the driveway and left.

[In my waking life I have 3 children, and my youngest child is a recovering heroin addict. It has been a very difficult journey for/with him….he used various drugs for 10 years, heroin the last 6 years. He’s had numerous relapses and been to rehab 5 times. Today, he is 11 months sober – the longest he’s ever made it. He is 27 years old.]

Dream decoding: as always if this doesn’t resonate with the dreamer please discard.

I was walking down the street in an unfamiliar neighborhood and stopped in front of a house when I felt this was “the one.” It was fairly new construction with dirt for a yard – no grass or plantings yet.

Houses are symbolic representations of a person’s sense of personal identity. In some dreams each room of the house could mean something different about the person or their state of affairs. There is a new sense of self developing (new construction), around emerging from a difficult period (dirt) and waiting for new growth to emerge (grass to grow in the yard). Dirt can also mean problems or issues that will still need to be dealt with prior to the growth occurring.

I let myself in through the front door and went into the kitchen (the family that lived there was home….the mom and 3 kids were upstairs and the dad was in the garage).

Doors and doorways can mean many things in a dream. Walking through the front door suggests that you feel ready to confront something, and possibly that the dream is trying to help you get “in front” of an upcoming issue. You walk into the kitchen, which is a place of nurturing and ‘feeding’ the self.

Your “inner family” (everyone in the dream represents an aspect your inner self), as well as what they represent in your outer world. You stated at the end of the dream that you have 3 children. I would ask you what each one of them represents within you?

Three is the number of change. They are upstairs, meaning these inner parts of yourself are trying to give you information from a ‘higher level of knowing’ or possibly some form of conscious recognition by bringing your awareness to another perspective. The dad in the garage represents the divine masculine part of you, the protector and disciplinarian within you who has had to ‘separate’ from nurturing yourself to address or develop a sense of your self as you deal with family issues. It could also imply that your husband has removed himself a bit from the issue at hand, as the garage can be a ‘hideout’ too.

I wanted cinnamon rolls with white icing, so I opened a refrigerated can and they were magically ready to eat. I grabbed a plate and put a cinnamon roll on it and also helped myself to eggs and bacon that were already made and left out on the counter [in my waking life I don’t eat any of these things – I’m vegan and GF].

Symbolically cinnamon is about stability and soothing or feelings of warmth. You wish this would magically appear in your life, as it does in the dream. It is also an aphrodisiac, a stimulus (albeit a safe one). Have you denied your own Aphrodite? Using this as a play on words, she brought love, passion, beauty and pleasure (not addiction), are you lacking these in your world? 

The white of the icing refers to ‘boundaries’ on the Wisdom Wheels, but icing can also imply covering something up because it is hard or too conflicting to look at. You put it on a plate, symbolizing you wish to stabilize or have a platform for these soothing feelings you wish to experience. You are vegan & GF in life, strict with yourself (again no judgment and a certainly a life choice) but spartan.

Eggs and bacon can be seen by many as comfort food, again your need to be comforted and fed in these times you find yourself. Possibly even a false assumption on your part that if you indulge in what you need, that somehow that is a self-fish act within the family picture or current dynamics surrounding your family. It is not.

As I ate my plate of food, I walked around on the main floor and every time I walked past the front door there was a different group/flock of young children standing on the porch. I saw them through the sidelights. They stood like kids do at Halloween, but it wasn’t Halloween and they were not wearing costumes. There was something eerie about them … almost as if they weren’t of this world. They were very solemn and stood straight and still. I ignored them.

As you try and find what nurtures you, ‘walking the main floor’, seeking common ground for yourself, you are drawn to the front door. What is in front of you are children who come and go in different groups or clusters, without costumes-raw in the fact of who they are, unmasked (unlike Halloween). I am going way out on a limb here and suggest that all those “eerie children” that you saw on the front porch not wearing costumes, are all the children in society, who are likewise impacted in the same or similar ways which you have experienced with your son. You are given a look into the “bigger picture” enhanced by the side lights and brought about by the dream state where we are outside time/space. In the light of awareness you know how deep and wide this addiction of our children runs in this world. And when drugged out, they certainly are not of this world. Said gently.

You ignore them, not because you do not care about their needs or worth, but because at some point we need to put attention to ourselves, otherwise the cycle is perpetuated (despite the love and pain we feel), with our inability to change their reality and as such likewise stay stuck in our own.

Eventually the wife/mom came into the kitchen and saw me. She was startled and upset, though she remained polite. I was unperturbed and kept eating. She didn’t say anything to me, just followed me around as I roamed the main level eating my plate of food. Then the husband/dad showed up. He was angry that I was in their house uninvited. We made small talk but I could tell he was very angry, and I knew I had to leave.

There is a conflict within you about this situation. On the one hand, the wife/mom (your divine feminine) startles you into realizing that although you have the capacity to want to love and nurture your son, you have ignored important self needs. On the other hand the divine masculine in you, the protector and disciplinarian (dad/husband) is angry with the situation; you didn’t invite this into your world.  Upset and angry, how have you dealt with these within yourself?

You decide to walk through the kitchen to go toward the garage. To nurture yourself by distancing temporarily from the emotions this continues to bring up for you. Not because you haven’t faced those emotions, or dealt with them as best you could, but because you need the distance to gain a new perspective. And you need to make your needs part of the equation.

As I walked through the kitchen toward the garage, I asked them if this house was on San-Dell Way [in my waking life, my husband and I built a house on San-Dell Way and lived in it for 11 years; we sold it 14 years ago]. He said no, San-Dell Way was 2 blocks east. I looked east out the kitchen window and saw dirt hills and houses in various stages of completion and knew that San-Dell Way was east of where I stood.

Interesting that you started in this dream in ‘new construction’ and you lived in that San Dell house for 11 years (exactly how long your son has had an addiction and you, and he, have lived with that pain). Again entering the new construction of this dream (hoping his new sobriety lasts) and “knowing this house was the one” you were to enter, shows further hope that he can move forward and by definition so can you.

In numerology the #11 can represent either a high vibration number, or its downside is represented by a ‘clenched hand’/difficulties. In the tarot it is the Lust card, strength, vital energy, creativity potential, something you may wish for yourself, and for renewal for him. And the #14 (move happening 14 years ago) represents the Art card, balance, inner change, alchemy, preparation for something new. Something you may desire for your family, especially your son as time moves forward.

He says, no that location/house is two blocks East.

East represents the new day, new hope, new beginnings. And 2 on the Wisdom Wheel represents how one reassesses how they need to honor themselves in any given situation as we walk forward in our truth. You still see dirt hills, not alot of growth “yet,” and other houses in various stages of construction, new beginnings. I would imagine everyone in your family is going through their own inner reconstruction process with the hopes that your son’s sobriety lasts.

I went out through the door that lead to the attached garage, and as I stood in the middle of the garage I turned back to find both the mom and dad standing in the door and all 3 young children gathered at their legs. I said, “Be careful with the drugs. When heroin comes into the picture, don’t mess around. Call me if you need help.” And I walked down the driveway and left.

Going out the backdoor shows you are still aware of the fragility of the issue at hand. The problems that you have been living with these past many years as your son struggles, are still palpable for you. You see the whole family standing there-representing your inner dream pantheon and your true current family. The children are clinging to the legs, they need stability and desire to move forward, though hesitant. But you offer a warning….that heroin is something everyone in the family needs help with to understand, cope and deal with, exactly like the influences that drug and your son’s addiction brought into your home. You tell them, and yourself, not to be afraid to call on help. Walking down the driveway represents an end to your journey and/or this dream segue. The information you imparted through its symbols is meant for yourself to act on as you awake.

Many prayers and blessings for your son and your family. Thank you for sharing this dream.

How Does One Define Union?

As many of you have noticed, I ghosted my dream blog for these past two months. That doesn’t mean I haven’t been dreaming, but I have been dreaming new starts and old finishes as we are about to enter a new year in just a few months.

That coupled with two big international journeys and some family issues suggested that I take a short hiatus in my dream decoding work. Understanding that much like the dreamtime, that daily time is not linear, it is in fact circular—I’ve circled back.

I chose this particular dream because it appears so uplifting. Given how stressful the last year has been for many people that I know, and many folks that I don’t, I thought uplifting would be a nice re-entry point.

Where everything in the dream is both the dreamer and what it resembles in one’s outer life, this could speak to the sacred marriage of the Self, that Christos-Shekinah energy of personal merging; or a literal marriage or deepening union between two souls. Knowing a bit about this dreamer’s history, I believe it speaks to a deeper outer relationship that needs more formalizing.

The Dream:

Last night I had this dream where I was likely in a church sitting and waiting for an event to start. There were also other people there. I was sitting in one corner with people I don’t know. Then I started to play a recording sent by [XXXX] through a stereo system on my side. He was talking about how I have changed his life since we met and his feelings about me, etc. I was touched. Then he showed up and told me that people around me could hear what he said to me. I turned around and saw a woman in tears because she was touched by it too. Then he showed me a beautiful gown that he prepared for me. I put in on and looked so beautiful. He wore a suit. Then we got married. The end.

Decoding:

Last night I had this dream where I was likely in a church sitting and waiting for an event to start.

Sitting in “a church” setting doesn’t necessarily mean a spiritual event. It can be symbolic of something you really believe or have faith in or deeply desire and haven’t even admitted it to yourself yet. Or perhaps, you have been questioning that belief and need to quiet your mind and contemplate or reflect on what it is you truly do desire.

You are ‘waiting’ for an event to occur. But, what action are you willing to take to make that desire or event become manifest?

There were also other people there. I was sitting in one corner with people I don’t know.

The people represent aspects of yourself. You are in a corner, separate from those parts of yourself that hold more ‘awareness and perspective.” They are present to offer you another perspective if you are willing to listen. It concerns something that you need to reflect on for greater understanding, personal knowledge.

Then I started to play a recording sent by [XXXX-name withheld but it means “God is gracious”] through a stereo system on my side. He was talking about how I have changed his life since we met and his feelings about me, etc. I was touched.

So here the dreamer sits in a contemplative place, and a recording from that person [whose name means “a message or gift from God” comes through to you in stereo. It’s on your side, so metaphorically it might mean this person wants to stand by your side.

Through this communication/the stereo, he tells you feelings he normally has difficulty expressing in his waking state. In the dreamstate it is often a fact that one person can communicate freely to another through their dream connection sequences, to make their feelings known.

You are touched by that this information because you know it is sincere. It could also indicate you have wanted to hear this for some time. That it is in stereo suggests that his feelings are all around you, and possibly you are not picking up on them or even responding in ways that discourage him from being more openly verbal about what he feels.

Then he showed up and told me that people around me could hear what he said to me. I turned around and saw a woman in tears because she was touched by it too.

Then he manifests in front of you further indicating that he is ready to have this discussion in the flesh. Are you? He comes to you, suggesting he is ready to be more committed. Or perhaps he is waiting for you to be open to him having this discussion with you. He wants to announce it to others, as he says “that other people can hear what he said.” Possibly in the waking world others can definitely ‘see how he feels’ about you.

The woman behind you in tears is an aspect of yourself that you keep out of reach, silent, or possibly you too are not fully comfortable expressing your deeper feelings, in the same way he can’t. That part of you is sad because it is likewise having a difficult time openly committing to being more seen in your outer worlds.

Then he showed me a beautiful gown that he prepared for me. I put in on and looked so beautiful. He wore a suit. Then we got married. The end.

When a man and woman come together in love they create a “garment of light” around themselves. He is preparing to share that love with you in ways that are more obvious.

When one dreams of putting on a beautiful gown, or dress, that makes them feel happy, it indicates they are walking down the right path in life. They are willing to cloth themselves in joy and risk loving and being loved.

He does the same by donning a suit. When someone puts on a suit they are defining a different role they wish to take in life. You need to pay attention to the color and structure of the garment. Is it a wedding suit, a business suit, a jumpsuit?

You indicate what it is by what comes next-you two get married. My sense is that you are in a relationship where it is time for the two of you take things to the next level. The hesitation is within both of you, as neither has fully committed in the waking state. What finally needs to be said aloud? And yet it would seem you are both ready as the dream sequence ends in marriage. Marriage takes many forms but a deeper union is ready to be experienced, and to be seen and acknowledged in your day-to-day worlds.

Thank you dreamer for sharing this uplifting dream.
I am in need of fresh dreams as we approach the end of 2019. Should any of you wish to share one you might have, please send them to me via email: sandy@starwalkervisions.com.

The Power of Transformation

Always there are various factors that you need to consider when offering a dream interpretation. As I have indicated in past posts, the most important interpreter is the dreamer him/her self. My goal for decoding someone’s dream is to pose alternative perspectives for the dreamer to consider, as dreams are always multi-layered. A dream might mean something very unique when reading it one day, and offer new signals, signs, awareness or direction when reading it another day. To me, dreams, like consciousness, cross the boundaries of time, space and breadth.

Because of the strong presence of snakes in this dream, I will concentrate on their symbology in my intro as they arise across many traditions and thus have many interpretations.

Snake in some religious contexts can be seen as having evil or devious energy (which I wholeheartedly disagree with), as portrayed in the Garden of Eden. But, as in that same myth, snake also signifies the exchange of wisdom. In Gram Twylah’s teachings (my long-time Seneca mentor for those of you who are new to this blog), snake’s contribution is transformation and as such its appearance announces change, shedding of the past, and rebirth, as well as the transmutation from within, that arises through guidance from without.

In Hindi, snake represents the kundalini energy, condensed primal force energy. Kundalini is a dormant energy in all of us that rests coiled three and half times around the first chakra at the base of the spine. Her name is Kundalini Shakti, and represents the unfolding of the divine energy potential in each of us, that when raised, can inform and enliven higher consciousness.

In the Egyptian neteru she is Wadjet, the protector deity of kings/queens and women in childbirth. She can be seen facing out on the diadem of the pharaohs, representing the power of sovereignty. The Snake Goddess in Minoan history protects the household and holds two snakes in her out stretched hands. I believe, like the snake symbol of the caduceus, that they represent the two strands of DNA and healing, as these goddesses were healers.

Snakes are guardians of the Underworld and act as messengers between the upper and lower worlds. Druids and bards in Celtic lore saw snakes as primal energy. They carried Adder eggs as magical charms for traveling to the ‘other worlds’ and to tap alchemical insights. In the Mayan traditions the power of snake symbolized the serpent Ixchel, whose energy can transform body, mind, and spirit similar to the rising of kundalini energy.

And in the Andean Cosmo-vision they guard the Ukhu Pacha, the lower world (our subconscious from a Jungian perspective) represented by the Amaru, the anaconda. However in the teachings of the left side of the Andean work, the goal is to raise the amaru energies or frequencies, as a representation of our personal power. Mimicking I believe, the same awareness that the rising of the kundalini life force offers. In the Chinese system, they are often linked as the little brothers/sisters of dragon energy, which I won’t go into here.

One other thing to consider. This dream came in-between the Capricorn/Cancer eclipses, during Mercury retrograde, while most of the outer planets are also in retrograde. These opposing signs share contrasting themes of ‘self parenting’ and ‘belief questioning.’ Emotional security and nurturing (Cancer) and the values of discipline and self-sufficiency (Capricorn). We need both to create balance. Retrograde planets are times to reassess and restructure. I see this dream as the perfect balance of these energies.

To the dream.

Thank you for looking into this quite puzzling dream. I have been on a small (4 persons) brother retreat in the Norwegian woods the last three days. Even then as I was doing nature meditation there, this dream would not let go of my attention. And had it not been for the unusually dark, nearly black snake, spotted the afternoon after that night’s dream I may not have given it much thought. The snakes in Norway can appear quite dark brown, but this one was by far the darkest color I had ever spotted, and it was probably just a couple of feet away from me when I spotted it. I saw the body quite clearly, but not the head.

I can unfortunately not recall much of the dream leading up to stair case although I feel something significant happened before that part as well.

The DREAM:
My recall starts at about 2-3 meters before the staircase began appearing in front of me and upon seeing it I remembered what had been said about it and the snakes appearing on it as the first step was set down on. I was walking towards the staircase having been warned that the whole stone staircase leading down to the beautiful park below was filled with snakes, but they were unseen until one took the first step down it and then they would manifest in front of your very eyes and you had to tread most carefully not to be bitten.

The staircase was a stony staircase and the snakes came from around the immediate surroundings. As I walked down the staircase there was a fairly high wall on the left (of the same stones as the stairs and equally well fitted), it supported the hill so it would not have rocks and earth fall onto the stairs. On the right side was a much lower wall. The rocks/stones were of cream/beige and grey colors, with fairly smooth surfaces, but not polished.

I think I can recall a great lake or the ocean in the distance. The staircase was linking two pathways, leading towards a beautiful garden I was heading towards. I think (not sure) that I had been told or asked or requested to go there by somebody.

I was not at all feeling scared as I was walking down the staircase. I was just very alert and trying not to upset these snakes as I was walking down. Also I did not know if they were venomous or not, I just did not want to risk finding out so I walked carefully and fairly slowly down.

I was in a way obliged to walk down the stairs, even after being told of these snakes and that they possibly could bite you. I did not have any other choice but to walk on and dare the snakes. Thankfully I am not scared of snakes as such, although being bitten by venomous snakes for sure was not something I would fancy at the best or worst of times. Hence I approached the staircase a bit apprehensively, even more so as I set foot on the very first step.

Immediately as my left foot touched it several dark snakes appeared in front of me making their way around the staircase slithering in and out between the crevices in the stone masonry of the stairs as well as crevices in the left wall supporting it. I walked gingerly down each step and was very careful not to step on any of them or give them cause for alarm.

Then as I was about halfway down they all suddenly slithered away, all but one at the second lowest step, a most handsome long black snake. It eyed me keenly and intelligently as I approached it, and then without warning it suddenly fled into the air heading straight for my neck. As it reached it at an unbelievable speed it twirled around my neck and dug deep into the back of my neck and bored its way into my spine, its head towards my crown and its tail down my spine.

I woke up with a jolt, wondering what it all meant. The next day I went outside to cut some tall grass on a hill below my house and less than a meter away I spotted a beautiful long black snake moving away from me in the grass. And in Norway there are no black snakes.

Decoding:

My recall starts at about 2-3 meters before the staircase began appearing in front of me and upon seeing it I remembered what had been said about it and the snakes appearing on it as the first step was set down on. I was walking towards the staircase having been warned that the whole stone staircase leading down to the beautiful park below was filled with snakes, but they were unseen until one took the first step down it and then they would manifest in front of your very eyes and you had to tread most carefully not to be bitten. 

The dreamer has been told how to approach these stairs. I am sensing the message came from his Higher Self, possible an outer guide, or spirit helper. From his explanation, I feel that the staircase represents a path or a transition for the dreamer. He has been warned. I do not take this as a negative, as much as an omen of change that will occur should he follow the stairs. Taking this descent into himself may activate new emotions or new inner knowing. It may bring up things from his past that he still needs to balance. The stairs descending could also indicate a challenge coming. It’s the unknown that he is being warned will come up as he explores by going deeper into himself. The stairs are going down, into the subconscious, the unexplored, the unknown, the as yet unmanifested. 

The stairs are made of stone suggesting there is solidity or a good foundation that will support his exploration. The beautiful park below suggests that the dreamer sees good things ahead by taking this path; a sense of a reward or beauty at the end of the process. But there is something ‘unseen’, something that could occur or impact his process, so he must tread lightly, cautiously, purposefully.

The staircase was a stony staircase and the snakes came from around the immediate surroundings. As I walked down the staircase there was a fairly high wall on the left (of the same stones as the stairs and equally well fitted), it supported the hill so it would not have rocks and earth fall onto the stairs. On the right side was a much lower wall. The rocks/stones were of cream/beige and grey colors, with fairly smooth surfaces, but not polished.

There could be deceit or there could be transformation under the foundation he relies on, he does not know at this point. But he is willing to suss out those possibilities as he takes that first step onto the staircase. Immediately the snakes appear. Is this a new earned wisdom as he descends or an old wound that needs to be met and healed? Is there an untamed part of himself that he needs to feel free to express or a deep emotion that will arise and transform how he sees himself?

There is a high wall on his left, and the stones are well fitted. It indicates this could be a block that has been there for a long time. Well fitted could mean he has accepted this as fitting some perception of himself, has it been there for ‘a long time.’ I would ask the dreamer what his relationship with his father was like that he might need to work through? Or perhaps, where may he have blocked his own feelings and emotions around his own Divine Feminine. The wall of stones supports the ‘hill’ so the earth won’t come tumbling down. To me this is a metaphor that it is not a ‘mountain’ of an issue, but there is still something in his past relationship with himself that he is protecting or is as yet flushed out.

The rocks are smooth, indicating emotions, like water over river stones, have soothed the trouble, confusion, pain or lack of support he might once have felt, but which still needs to be dealt with. They are gray and cream; gray indicating it is time to honor himself and his own chosen path/cream seeing something or self in its most unbiased form. These two ways of proceeding are needed in any authentic search within ourselves.

I think I can recall a great lake or the ocean in the distance. The staircase was linking two pathways, leading towards a beautiful garden I was heading towards. I think (not sure) that I had been told or asked or requested to go there by somebody. 

There is a lake or ocean in the distance, water is about emotions and how fluid, serene, calm or agitated the waters are, reflects our inner emotions. The passage he is challenging himself to take will link two paths, two ways of learning, possibly two ways of being. Again, the beautiful garden comes up, enticing him to keep moving, possibly promising something beautiful and nourishing at the end. His ‘Self’ is the one requesting he goes there.

I was not at all feeling scared as I was walking down the staircase. I was just very alert and trying not to upset these snakes as I was walking down. Also I did not know if they were venomous or not, I just did not want to risk finding out so I walked carefully and fairly slowly down.

In any shamanic experience, [and I see this as a shamanic dream], we are asked to be alert to the energies and to use caution, to not rush into anything without preparation. The dreamer is not scared, showing he has a strong sense of trust and intentionality to deal with whatever the situation may bring. He’s done his self work. Venomous snakes like cobras, rattlesnakes, asps and adders can kill, and a wise man would and should be cautious around them.

That said venomous snakes can be charmed, and their aggressions slowed with the right knowledge. The venom from certain venomous snakes, dosed in the right way is also being used now in medical circles for healing. The cobra in ancient Egyptian images showed the raised ‘uraeus’ on the Pharaohs crown symbolizing power and resurrection. Buddhist and Hindus see the cobra as power over the destruction of nature and Buddha in his enlightenment had 9 cobras above his head. Hopi Snake dancers use rattle snakes to bring their prayers for rain to the underworld. Celts used the adder to enter the ‘other worlds’ and a small amount of the asp bite sent people into an oracular trance. 

In other words when we are on a deep shamanic exploration into the Self, the outcome can be one of self destruction or self enlightenment. Taming the unbridled self to become the passionate aware Self. However when we do not release our personal poisonous thoughts about ourselves they can destroy us; and yet when we face them, the can transform us. That takes personal courage.

Immediately as my left foot touched it several dark snakes appeared in front of me making their way around the staircase slithering in and out between the crevices in the stone masonry of the stairs as well as crevices in the left wall supporting it. I walked gingerly down each step and was very careful not to step on any of them or give them cause for alarm.

This paragraph shows the work this dreamer has done on himself. The left foot forward touched the stairs. The left foot is on the heart side. Many statues of Egyptian pharaohs show them with the left foot forward, symbolizing leading their people from a heart centered place, but also demanding the respect their service requires. This dreamer proceeds in a heart centered way.

Still the snakes come from everywhere, slithering between the foundation, making themselves known from the depths of the masonry. The dreamer must deal with all these aspects of himself that have, or will, transform who he is becoming. There is no need to be alarmed, as he still has control of his pace. The gift in facing those parts of our self that are ready to give voice, are ready to give back to us the personal power we have worked hard to transform.

Then as I was about halfway down they all suddenly slithered away, all but one at the second lowest step, a most handsome long black snake. It eyed me keenly and intelligently as I approached it, and then without warning it suddenly fled into the air heading straight for my neck. As it reached it at an unbelievable speed it twirled around my neck and dug deep into the back of my neck and bored its way into my spine, its head towards my crown and its tail down my spine.

All the issues (the many snakes) he has learned to deal with, retreat. But one snake/issue remains to be faced. It’s on the 2nd step. Again, like the color gray, 2 on the Wisdom Wheels that Gram Twy taught me, represent assessing where we have to honor and give voice to something within our self. Black on the Wisdom Wheels is about listening to the Self to find our truth, ‘our personal truth’, and isn’t that one of the ways we honor our self.

This intelligent snake knows that wisdom and healing is about uniting love and will; head and heart; bringing the unconscious into consciousness. It wraps around the dreamer’s neck, digs deep into the back of his head and bores itself between spine and crown. is there any better explanation of the raising in the kundalini energy? Lord Shiva has a snake curled three times around His neck representing birth, death, rebirth. When the snake sheds its skin, it transmutes the old into something new. Shamanic deaths are always about rebirthing.

I woke up with a jolt, wondering what it all meant. The next day I went outside to cut some tall grass on a hill below my house and less than a meter away I spotted a beautiful long black snake moving away from me in the grass. And in Norway there are no black snakes.

There is a new awareness stalking this dreamer. The fact that he saw a black snake the following day on his walk, (in a country that doesn’t have black snakes), is confirmation from the spirit world, from Nature herself, that something is being birthed into his consciousness. He couldn’t see the head, maybe this indicates he must stay in his heart when this becomes clearer, because it won’t be supported by a logical explanation, rather it will be an experiential one. And we never know when or how those experiences will fully show themselves.

Thank you dreamer for sharing; I appreciate your wisdom.

 

Lucidity Doesn’t Always Provide Clarity

This dreamer has been a lucid dreamer since he was young. Basically, lucid dreaming is the ability to be conscious within the dream, that you are dreaming, and have the capacity to learn how to control, question or navigate the dream state you are experiencing. Some lucid dreamers have more control, lucidity varies, and many if not all of us at one time or another in our dream states have had a lucid dream, whether we remember or not.

String theorists have surmised that we have a ten dimensions in our Universe: the 4 we know are length, height, depth and time. Bosonic string theorists say there are 26. All these dimensions reside on a plane. The Bible suggests there are 3 x 3 dimensions in the matrix with the 10th being where we exist in its summary. And neuroscientists say our brains have 11 dimensions: https://www.sciencealert.com/science-discovers-human-brain-works-up-to-11-dimensions.

The different planes of existence in the consciousness realms for the human being are considered 7: the physical, the etheric, the astral, the Buddhic (mental), the Atmic (spiritual), and two more planes outside the nonphysical plane. The following is the best article I have read on an explanation of these planes should you wish to read it: http://www.delightfulknowledge.com/different-planes-existence-universe.

The one constant is that we really do not know. These are only what we have “discovered” and like every other aspect of our world there is still much we do not know.

Why am I referring to so many planes of existence? Because in the dreamtime we are more apt to visit these dimensions because our consciousness is not tethered to our bodies/waking self. So dreaming allows the exploration of these planes of existence that simultaneously occur within and outside of ourselves, due in part to conscious awareness. Thus in the dream state we are able to travel, encounter, change, perceive, design, and confront what we assume is our daily reality, and what lies beyond those constraints.

Dreaming in general, and lucid dreaming in particular, allows us the freedom of exploration of our multi-dimensional Universes’; it allows us to deeply question our reality; and it connects one to the power of our brains as we communicate and question the planes we encounter in our dream time, to become more aware of potentiality in our waking state.

So onto the dream. I did get to ask this dreamer one question about his dreamscape. This will be revealed as I decode.

The Dream:
I found myself on a strange plain/plane where I knew I didn’t belong, as I was not fully prepared to be there. I was vulnerable to the spirits/beings that lived there, but it was a desolate portion, so I knew if I stayed hidden I would be fine. I found myself drawn to a sector that was urban based, but more like the memory of urban. I found myself steeling my will for conflict, and entered a room. In the room was two metal crests. One, a woman with long dark hair, the other was either a crow or a magpie, I lean towards magpie because of the long tail feathers almost reminiscent of a peacock, in that they were not black, but a luminescent blue. I tried combining these crests because I knew they fit together somehow, but I wasn’t puzzling it together correctly. A female voice spoke to me, (or inferred to me or whatever, because dreams are fucking weird) and I combined the crests correctly. The guardian of the room rose up, and I found myself fighting for control of the dream. I knew I was not asleep completely, but I also knew it wasn’t entirely my dream. I literally FELT, every nerve ending from my toes to the top of my head light up not once, not twice, but three times, each more intense than the last, as I fought for control. In the end I was overwhelmed and my vision exploded with symbols that passed through my vision quicker than I could capture, starting not only in shape, and evolving in a logical sequence, but also in a color wave, evolving from infrared, to ultra violet in sequence. As I was forced from the dream (with no external cause, no sounds/influence from the waking world) I found myself gripping onto the imagery of this woman/bird and knowing I had to ask about it, (and I know this sounds dumb) but the specific wavelength of light being on the edge of blue before it turns to violet.

I asked the dreamer for clarity if the “female voice” that spoke to him, was a voice outside himself, or the dark haired woman? 

The voice/intention that gave me the intuitive leap was a separate thing than the crest. I couldn’t tell if it was an inner or outer voice though, it could’ve been a guide, or it may have been my perfect-self speaking, not sure.
The “guardian” was formless, but existed as an intention or will that existed somewhere on the electromagnetic spectrum. For whatever reason the weakness, or maybe the “key” to the lock was that specific dark blue. The same color as a magpies blue/black, and it was a battle of will power to move the light on the spectrum to that wavelength.

The decoding:

I found myself on a strange plain/plane where I knew I didn’t belong, as I was not fully prepared to be there. I was vulnerable to the spirits/beings that lived there, but it was a desolate portion, so I knew if I stayed hidden I would be fine. I found myself drawn to a sector that was urban based, but more like the memory of urban.

When we are in the dreamtime we are in nonphysical space/time where all possibilities exist. This dreamer is already aware that he is vulnerable about something on the planes he is experiencing. This is an alert to his lucid self that there is a vulnerability in his waking life. Something about his waking world feels ‘desolate’ or perhaps lonely. And, he continues to ‘hid’ that fact from himself to exist in the world in which he lives.

He thinks if he hides this vulnerability he will be o.k. But he is drawn deeper into the “spirits that life within” at least in the dream state. The environment in which the dream takes place defines the ‘environment’ that the dreamer is experiencing in the waking world. In this case urban means there may be lots of confusion, family or community issues, or the activity of chaos in his waking state that makes him vulnerable to needs other than his own.

I found myself steeling my will for conflict, and entered a room. In the room was two metal crests. One, a woman with long dark hair, the other was either a crow or a magpie, I lean towards magpie because of the long tail feathers almost reminiscent of a peacock, in that they were not black, but a luminescent blue. I tried combining these crests because I knew they fit together somehow, but I wasn’t puzzling it together correctly.

The dreamer is aware that there is conflict in his life. He enters a room, indicating he is feeling alone. In the room are two metal crests. Metal is tough, but malleable, indicating when these two parts are brought together, you can learn to be more flexible. Two on the Wisdom Wheels asks us, “How are we honoring our Self?” What do we need to assess to create a more positive change so things don’t feel so chaotic?

One of the things causing the chaos is a dark haired women. Often images/people in the dream reflect people in our outer world, suggesting this woman is secretive or manipulative. But people in the dream also mirror something in our self. So, a dark-haired women in the dream can suggest there is something being hidden from you; something that is not in your best interest. And secondly, what it suggests about the dreamer is that he is not listening to himself, that his higher self is trying to guide him to recognize or take care of an issue where he might be lying to himself about a reality he needs to change.

I will stick with the symbolism of magpie, because that is where the dreamer seems to have landed. Magpies are intelligent, risk-takers, and cunning; they are a symbol of sacred balance and in Chinese symbolism they are seen as a birds of happiness. They suggest that you can resolve something that has been making you unhappy or confused for a long time.

That blue/black color is a suggestion that once you learn not to be in servitude to something that makes you unhappy, and find the sacred path that you wish to be in service to within yourself, that then you will be listening to your Higher Self. No one can make us unhappy, we are unhappy because we are not centered in our authenticity. But if we deny, ignore or project that unhappiness onto to someone, or something else, then we are vulnerable to that ‘other.’ The fact that the color was luminous, was a suggestion that the dreamer might need to do more to develop and trust his intuition.

He is puzzling, because in his outer reality, he is trying to figure out how to bring together all the seemingly disparate pieces of his life to be more of his luminous self. No one can teach you that, though mentors might be able to guide you, you are your own best moderator of your balance, needs, and abilities. 

A female voice spoke to me, (or inferred to me or whatever, because dreams are fucking weird) and I combined the crests correctly. The guardian of the room rose up, and I found myself fighting for control of the dream. I knew I was not asleep completely, but I also knew it wasn’t entirely my dream. I literally FELT, every nerve ending from my toes to the top of my head light up not once, not twice, but three times, each more intense than the last, as I fought for control.

So the female voice (your Divine Feminine, which we all have and is not gender differentiated), is your intuitive, creative self. It is both your guide and your perfect-self, we are more than just these physical bodies.

When we combine our Divine Masculine (purpose, logic, discipline), with our Divine Feminine (intuition/instinct, passion, creativity), we are able to find balance. In the dream, the Guardian rose up. In bringing these two aspects of your awareness [at least into the dream play together], the “issue” rises up and you feel like you are fighting for control. And those parts of our self are formless until we give them form.

It doesn’t feel in part like your dream, because you do not fully know, trust or have communicated fully with this DF part of yourself. And it is a personal ‘battle of will’ to feel less vulnerable in combining all aspects of your true self, despite what the outer world tells you. ‘Right will’ only battles ‘willfulness.’

Maybe you have only sought to recognize that from without, with women in your life that either don’t allow, or don’t see your softer side. Soft doesn’t mean weak. Have they created chaos or balance for you, or within you? Can you find the balance in yourself, to experience more balance without with them? This feels like a outer conflict from the dream scenario.

I am going out on a limb here, and saying that the 3 passes of electricity is your kundalini energy. According to Buddhic dream practitioners, kundalini energy is the snake that rises through the body. It is the feminine energy that resides at the base of the spine and lies dormant until it is awakened. I see this as a great gift you gave yourself in the dreamtime, and to be aware enough to notice it through your lucidity. Three is also the number of the feminine and the number for magic.

I fought for control. In the end I was overwhelmed and my vision exploded with symbols that passed through my vision quicker than I could capture, starting not only in shape, and evolving in a logical sequence, but also in a color wave, evolving from infrared, to ultra violet in sequence. As I was forced from the dream (with no external cause, no sounds/influence from the waking world) I found myself gripping onto the imagery of this woman/bird and knowing I had to ask about it, (and I know this sounds dumb) but the specific wavelength of light being on the edge of blue before it turns to violet.

Maybe instead of fighting for control, if you surrender (which is not giving into or giving up, but rather giving over to a higher knowing), you will not be in such inner turmoil.

The exploding symbols could be what comes in a hypnogogic dream state as we are falling to sleep or awakening, yet they could have also been clues for you as to how to modulate your world with your needs? Starting in shapes (the most basic form of communication) and proceeding in a logical sequence, was merely your consciousness trying to download as much as it could, as fast as it could.

Infrared versus ultra violet light. A couple of things, red to violet is the spectrum of the chakras (which become awakened through experiences like the kundalini charge); our chakras our spiritual centers within our self, and each teach and represent something different. Infrared and ultra violet are frequencies or wavelengths that work within the spectrum of what is seen and not seen. One the Wisdom Wheels violet/purples signifies healing, the awareness that comes with gratitude, and the dreamtime.

Gripping onto the birdwoman, and knowing you have to ask about it, is your next level of self research and you bring your inner world, and by nature of that, your outer world into balance.

Thank you dreamer, this is an awesome dream, with lots more symbology to it than we have room for here. I am sure others will see some of themselves in this dreamscape too, as dreams are both personal, and within the hologram of the All That Is, there for all of us to learn from.