Free Fall

As we start to move away from the darkness of winter and the light begins to increase (tomorrow is Imbolg in the Celtic tradition and Candlemas in the Christian tradition-a time for lighting new fires and preparing seeds), it reminds me how much one’s dreams can bring ‘enlightened seeds’ that can foster new levels of awareness for the dreamer to cultivate.

We have likewise moved into a time period where all the planets in our solar system have turned direct, offering us a meditative time to ‘seed our purpose’ moving forward. As we move towards the light, and the spring equinox, it is time to think about the new seeds we will plant for our conscious growth and a new season in our life. For those who have studied with me in the South-Central Andean Tradition, the cultivation of our ‘Inca Seed’, like the rituals surrounding Imbolg, and the energy of the forward moving planets, provides a time to ‘irrigate’ what we wish to grow.

Dreams enhance our perceptions. Our truths are formulated by our perceptions. To advance our truths we need to understand that our perceptions cannot stay static, like the seasons, and the planets life in general needs to move forward. I chose this dream because it teaches something about allowing oneself to go with the flow, even when things feel out of control and yet those times of feeling out of control can also lead to new kernels of truth.

THE DREAM

I was looking out at a lake from the shore, and it was so beautiful, and it looked Ike glass.  Nothing moving Not a thing. 2 people came over I think they were from work, and I was talking to them about how beautiful it looked, and I started walking on it and fell in! I couldn’t believe it wasn’t frozen and more so that I did that. I started sliding down into some logs with the rapids and the teachers couldn’t hear me yelling for them. 

I died but not sure if I died after I woke up or right before I did. Nobody saved me. I was stuck I couldn’t lift my body up and I couldn’t get loose from the log. Oddly I felt great when I woke up for the day today. 

THE DECODING

I was looking out at a lake from the shore, and it was so beautiful, and it looked Ike glass.  Nothing moving Not a thing.

Lakes have to do with water, and water often symbolizes emotions. The dreamer is looking at the water from the shore, indicating the need to stabilize or ground before moving forward.

It looks like glass, is beautiful, but nothing is moving. This suggests to me that the dreamer has a desire or an idea that feels like it might be rewarding, but has put the actions to attain it on pause. There’s no movement, just the potential for beauty in the concept, but action is always needed to concretize the vision.

2 people came over I think they were from work, and I was talking to them about how beautiful it looked, and I started walking on it and fell in!

I have spoken many times in these dream blogs about the teachings of my primary mentor Grandmother Twylah Nitsch. On the Wisdom Wheels of Truth, the number two placement stands for how we need to assess and appraise our truth. It also asks us to consider if we are honoring ourselves in the process.

Here the dreamer is seeking a response from those she works with. This could indicate that she needs some sort of outside validation to find what she is seeking. The symbolism of the lake-is her desire to have things be emotionally calm and rewarding. She wants clarity around some aspect of her life’s purpose. Work is where we are paid for our energetic exchange, and sometimes dreaming of a lake can symbolize something you have to consider carefully for further financial success or stability.

She leaves the perceived stability of the shore to walk forward and assess the beauty of her new idea, but falls in. There is fear in moving forward, possibly with taking a risk for a new desire, a new job, or a new way to birth herself more fully into this Earthwalk.

I couldn’t believe it wasn’t frozen and more so that I did that. I started sliding down into some logs with the rapids and the teachers couldn’t hear me yelling for them. 

Logs are not trees, they represent deadwood, so old patterns, concerns, or limiting opinions that she is trying to cling to, to stabilize what she needs to change. She states that she cannot believe she did that….she cannot believe she trusted that she could move forward into the beauty she perceives could be hers. But how could she when she thought it was ice-ice is rigid and signifies a mental block of an emotional belief.

The water now has turned to rapids, meaning there is a sense of feeling out of control. She has renamed the co-workers as teachers-an entirely different energy. She is looking for instruction and this may suggest that she doesn’t have faith in her ‘inner guidance’, her inner teachers. My sense is that she may have tried to change before, but felt swept away by a different outcome than she had expected or desired.

The lake is not beautiful now, it is frightening. The water is not like glass now (contained and clear); it has become a moving river, rapids (out of control). She is yelling for help but no one hears her which suggest that she feels unsupported, I would suspect she feels no clarity or support in both her inner and outer world.

I died but not sure if I died after I woke up or right before I did. Nobody saved me. I was stuck I couldn’t lift my body up and I couldn’t get loose from the log. 

Oddly I felt great when I woke up for the day today. 

This is the most important section of the whole dream, and something her inner guides, teachers, spirit helpers want her to assess. It’s often the last part of a dream that shocks us, amuses us, or confuses us into carrying the memory of the dream into our waking awareness to review.

It is true, to follow our dreams, our purpose, our individual desires for a richer life experience, we sometimes have to die to what was. Death is about transformation and renewal, it is not the end of something, infact some spiritual teachers would suggest it is the beginning of something much greater.

I find her wording interesting: “I was not sure if I died after I woke up or right before I did.” I think she wants to ‘wake up’ to some part of her life that is simply not working for her. That is not a death wish, it is an awakening wish. And like she said: “No one came to help me,” because this is the  inner work we all must do on our own.

Here’s the crux though, she couldn’t get loose from the log. She hasn’t been able to let go of old patterns or self-judgments that limit and define. The clarity she truly seeks is to have her emotions (the lake), be supported, clear, and safe to be able to fully honor what she needs from her waking life. Though that would be ideal, the trials we encounter to grow, become the strength we can use to keep going, if we look at them not as failures but as stepping stones. Even the seeds I spoke about at the beginning need to weather the hot sun, the torrential downpours, and high winds to stabilize and bloom.

Thank you, dreamer for your dream, it is a good reminder that we only limit ourselves out of fear, but there is a risk that comes with not trying. And dying to the old ways of doing things can bring new life, just as winter passes into spring, and night moves into the light of day.

I am reminded of Marianne Williamson’s quote, “Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.”

Light Always Emerges from Darkness

We are coming into the season of Winter Solstice here in the Northern Hemisphere (Southern Hemisphere is starting Summer Solstice), as well as a wealth of holiday celebrations. Winter Solstice marks the shortest day and the longest night. It is a time to go within, to review the year’s passing, and find renewal and peace.

Solstice literally means, “stand still of the sun.” There is usually a 3-day period where the sun seems to set into the same place on the horizon. These 3-days mark a period of time where many cultural and religious traditions, past and current, celebrate the Light. The number of traditions and their celebrations are too plentiful to discuss at length, but fires or candles are lit, lanterns made, trees decorated with food for animals and birds, stories shared, dances initiated, and new intentions made.

The dark is also part of the dreamtime. In some cultures, both Solstice and the dreamtime are referred to as “time out of time.” It is in the dark night of Solstice, in the dreamtime, and in the void that things are brought into existence. The old to review and release, the new to intend and manifest.

I chose this dream because to me, it speaks of going into one’s dark places for renewal and remembering the Light of who one really is.

THE DREAM:

I am driving in the dark. It is pitch black. I cannot see where I am going. I try to put the lights on full beam, but it doesn’t seem to work. I am grateful when I see the orange glow of streetlights up ahead that enable me to see the road.

I arrive at a house the place to park is precarious and rocky, the ground is broken with holes and ruts. It is difficult to park without damaging my car or going over the edge.

I go into the house I think I am visiting these people. There is a man and a woman, their child is playing with something. I can’t remember but think one of them is depressed and that’s why I am visiting.

Other people come? Kids party?

Offered something to eat by the man. 

Told at the end the dinner I was given it had fish in it. I say it is lucky that I do not have the same reaction to fish that I do to meat.

Next morning when I am getting ready to leave, I am taking half an orange from the fridge that I didn’t eat, for my journey. 

The Decoding:

I am driving in the dark. It is pitch black. I cannot see where I am going. I try to put the lights on full beam, but it doesn’t seem to work.

When you are driving, it suggests that you are in control of your life, and you know which direction to go in next. Cars sometimes also represent the physical body. In this case the dreamer cannot see where they are going. It is pitch black, even when they turn on their “inner light”, they don’t seem to have access to clarity. The black of night also evokes sadness and sometimes fear or anger. The blackness (like its reflection on the color spectrum), is the absences of light. Delving into it also offers power, magic, and wisdom but it can be scary to get there.

I am grateful when I see the orange glow of streetlights up ahead that enable me to see the road.

This sentence shows that there is light she can count on. And that her gratitude for life has been a saving grace.  It is outside of her but guiding her forward. She has gratitude because she has learned something in navigating the darkness. The street ahead of her is lit, there is a clear direction now that she can follow.

Lanterns in dreams suggests we will be shown the way. Sometimes they shine light on things we must work with, so they can bring up emotions as they highlight where there may be danger.  Orange on the Wisdom Wheels, taught by my Seneca mentor, Gram Twylah, represent learning, perseverance, memory-recall, and lessons that come through the sense of touch (keeping in mind touch is not always welcome).

I arrive at a house the place to park is precarious and rocky, the ground is broken with holes and ruts. It is difficult to park without damaging my car or going over the edge.

I go into the house I think I am visiting these people. There is a man and a woman, their child is playing with something. I can’t remember but think one of them is depressed and that’s why I am visiting.

A house can represent different components of ourselves. Each room saying something about our mind set or offering a way to examine a part of our life. For example, a kitchen can represent how we nurture ourselves, or weren’t nurtured. A bathroom, how we have to cleanse something or release something we’ve been holding on to. A living room, as a place where we might find comfort and safety, perhaps.

In this case, to bring herself to this place feels precarious, she is on rocky ground visiting these parts of herself, this inner dreamscape. Possibly her memory has “holes” or ‘ruts’ where she gets stuck in the past, not because she hasn’t done her work, but what’s back isn’t fully remembered or is better left in the past. This is because dwelling there too long, could put her “over the edge.”

A man and woman and child speak to me of a family. I would ask the dreamer here, what was her early family life like. Was one of her parents depressed when she was young? Or was she? A big piece (because this is the most important paragraph in the dream), is what was the child playing with. It tells me she needed a distraction. If the little girl represents the dreamer, then I would suggest that what ever she was playing with, was important for her to remember, as a release, an emotional addition, or an important representation of something she took away from her childhood or left behind in that childhood. I feel this little girl aspect of the dreamer has called her back through the dreamtime to show her something important for her to remember at her current age/stage.

Because everything in the dream is what it is and an aspect of us as well, the man and woman could represent her inner parents, not necessarily her outer parents. The man within, her divine masculine protector, and the woman within, her divine feminine nurturer-what she has had to learn on her own in some fashion.

Other people come? Kids party?

Offered something to eat by the man. 

Told at the end the dinner I was given it had fish in it. I say it is lucky that I do not have the same reaction to fish that I do to meat.

This is interesting as on the one hand she is drawn to this house and into this dream because someone is depressed and on the other, she is questioning if it is a ‘kid’s party.’ Perhaps a new way of playing with something in the past that can bring a surprise. The two don’t go together, and lots of people again represent a distraction.

She is offered something to eat at dinner. Eating dinner in a dream symbolizes that she is hungry for something. And although a need is being met through food, it is merely a basic need. She is told it is fish at the end. Another question I would ask is how she didn’t know what it was while eating. Was she fed a belief as a child that wasn’t her own or isn’t hers as an adult?

Fish in dreams often symbolize self-value, feelings of needing more emotional abundance. In work related matters it can mean you are deserving of a change, whose time has come. In personal matters it can suggest you need more passion, and yet fish are cold-blooded creatures, so the dreamer might be lacking that passionate energy in her private world.

In Christian belief, the fish represents Christ (and we all know the story of the fish and the loafs-creating abundance from nothing). In astrology the fish represents the sign of Pisces-highly sensitive, attuned to others, empathetic, but needing to build boundaries so they have some safety from others neediness or requests.

Next morning when I am getting ready to leave, I am taking half an orange from the fridge that I didn’t eat, for my journey. 

It is now a new day. She is reminded again of the color orange-this is important symbolically because it is mentioned twice. This time she is taking it from the fridge, where it again is shut in the dark (that’s what fridges do), and when we open them, the light turns on. Just like Solstice, just like the info coming to us from our dreamtime, just like uncovering something from the past so we can digest it and move further into our personal journey with more autonomy or empowerment. This is a brilliant ending her dreaming self has giving her as a memory upon waking.

Thank you, dreamer for sharing so deeply of yourself. Blessings in the light of renewal during this Solstice season.

Transforming the Self

The dreamer titled this dream Shape Shifting. What is shape shifting? In some cultures, stories, and folklore, shape shifters were those who could take on the shape and qualities of of another person or animal, living or dead. They would be able to mimic everything about the person or creature to either fool, confound, redirect, discover information, or frighten an individual, a village, a tribe, etc. Not always supernatural, it is a term used to imply someone who has learned to fit in or camouflage themselves to be accepted, no matter the circumstances.

In mythology, Homer’s Iliad, Proteus was a sea-god, considered an oracle who was prophetic in his abilities. He protected seas and rivers. Seas and rivers-water- constitute emotions and dreams are a sea of symbols that try and impart emotions and teachings through the dreamscapes we are offered when we go into the void-sleep-nightly. He was considered mercurial, like our emotions and held untold knowledge, like our dreams. The word protean is derived from the Greek Proteus and one of its meanings is changeable in shape and form.

I thought this was the perfect title that this dreamer gave the dream, for it speaks of the desire for inner transformation and change, of which we are all capable if we choose. To make that change requires us to dream something new into existence.

Shape Shifting

I am in a darkened hallway with an older wise woman and a young girl. There is something odd about the girl, almost feral like. She is short, dark native skin, and has an odd look to her eyes. I am supposed to take the girl to this place-it is like a foundation with no house on it. This seems to be a silent directive to me from the wise woman. Suddenly the girl jumps down, and I can’t figure out how I am going to get her back up. I let myself down gently to help her, but she shifts into a huge brown hummingbird and flies out right past me. I go back to the house, open the door so she can fly in, but she won’t. I go back into the darkened hallway where the older wise woman is waiting, when suddenly the girl bursts through the door as this black cat-like thing. The old women turns to me and says, “She does that.”

The Decoding

I am in a darkened hallway with an older wise woman and a young girl. There is something odd about the girl, almost feral like.

A hallway indicates that you are deciding which direction to go in, but you haven’t committed yet as to which “room” you will enter. It is dark which suggests you are unclear or unsure about how to proceed. There are two aspects (possibly of yourself) someone who is wise and knows what to do, and a young girl who you say is feral-like. She might be unsure of herself, or in need of teaching/taming/training, or a wild or unknown aspect of yourself that you have not unleashed.

It is interesting that they show up together because both have something to teach you in the dream. The part of you that is patient and needs to make a wise choice, and the part that hasn’t been developed fully yet.

She is short, dark native skin, and has an odd look to her eyes. I am supposed to take the girl to this place-it is like a foundation with no house on it. This seems to be a silent directive to me from the wise woman.

In describing the girl further, you state she is ‘native’— I am assuming you mean indigenous, and as such something you have not necessarily been schooled/trained in but may be curious about or she would potentially have showed herself differently. The way images show themselves in a dream are always trying to tell us something. The eyes are the windows to the soul, so in stating she had an odd look in her eyes, again implies this is something you, as yet, do not know or understand, either externally or internally. And yet the wise woman part of you is the one directing this next step.

You are directed to take her to a place where there is a foundation, but no house atop the foundation. Again, there is something foundational you are needing to discover or learn about. Once you do that, you can build the ‘house.’ It is about building something for the future that you can feel safe with using or sharing. She, that part of you that she represents, (I’ve often said in these blogs, everything in the dream is what it is, and also something about the ‘self’), will help you to build that change or knowledge for your future.

Suddenly the girl jumps down, and I can’t figure out how I am going to get her back up. I let myself down gently to help her, but she shifts into a huge brown hummingbird and flies out right past me.

Jumping into the foundation shows she is not afraid to get started; you thinking you need to find a way to get her out, suggests you are still in need of defining the foundation on which you wish to build something new or different moving forward. You ease into the foundation though, showing you are ready,

You say the hummingbird she shifted into was huge, where most hummers are small. The size is trying to get your attention. It is brown, which on the Wisdom Wheels is literally about building a foundation to share your truth. Brown also signifies the color of soil/the earth, which is what fertile things grow from. It is a stabilizing color.

Hummingbirds signify the ability to move in any direction, this implies to me that the new direction you are being guided to consider can take any direction you want. Hummingbirds relate to joy, exuberance, messages from the Spirit world and in some shamanic traditions their feathers are used in love potions. These are all good qualities to build your foundation on.

I go back to the house, open the door so she can fly in, but she won’t. I go back into the darkened hallway where the older wise woman is waiting, when suddenly the girl bursts through the door as this black cat-like thing. The old women turns to me and says, “She does that.”

You take that ‘desire’ back to the current ‘house’ representing the foundation you are currently working within (not the one yet to be built). In other words you go back to where you started to assess and ‘open the door’ so she will fly in. Opening a door means you are open to new opportunities and explorations.

She won’t fly in, which suggests that you still need to work on organizing and solidifying what your Higher Self or Spirit self is trying to guide you towards to feel more joy and love. You go back into the darkened hall where the wise woman is waiting for you. Our wisdom lies within the ‘not knowing’, for it is there that we are led to self-discovery,

Suddenly this as yet unknown part of you bursts through the opening you have created as “this black cat-like thing”. This is the most important sentence in the dream for a number of reasons. First, she is shape shifting again to get your attention. Secondly it is not clear she is a cat, but something cat-like, again your need to discover what it is that is still unclear. Third she comes through the door—you’ve left an opening for her teachings. And fourth, cats represent intuition, independence, and curiosity— all the things you will need to tap within yourself for self-discovery and new construction moving forward.

Black on the Wisdom Wheel is about listening to our inner truth. It also represents the Void from which things are created. Black signifies reflection, introspection, and mystery. As an outfit on a person, it can connote authority, elegance, and sophistication. It is also worn by those in morning. I see this as indicating that something has to die, for something new and empowered within you to be born. You are the creator of the future creation.

Through going into the void of yourself and reflecting on what needs to change, it will guide you to develop something elegant where you will have the personal authority to move out of the dark hallway towards living more of your own wise women self, feeling more joy and self-love. She (the wise woman part of yourself) was, after all, waiting for you. And her final words, “She does that” indicates you can shape shift in your waking life too.

Thank you, dreamer, for sharing.  

Four for Two

Well life during this past Mercury retrograde, (with 6 other planets is retrograde motion), certainly put a few road blocks in the way of getting my September blog post out. During part of that time I was also involved in a plant immersion with the Artemisia family and dear friend conducting the plant teachings-Davyd Farrell. I have never done more than 1 dream per blog, but 4 of the immersion participants because of a dream/plant podcast done by Davyd and I, sent in their dreams to be decoded. Hence the title four dreams for two months (September/October).

I want to always stress, the dreamer knows best as too whether anything I share in the decoding’s resonates, or not. The dreamer is the one to decide if anything I share helps them to go deeper into their own understanding of what their dream self is trying to impart.

I usually give a brief teaching before decoding, but given the amount of dreams I won’t do that this time. I am struck however, that if we are all dreaming in a collective soup, for those reading the dream interpretations to note a common thread within the 4 dreams. And further if the 4 people who were involved in the Artemisia immersion and summitted these dreams, can see how the dream lines might be speaking to each of them individually, but also reveals a theme for the group, given what the artemisia’s taught.

The dreams and their decoding:

Dream #1

I dreamt that I was travelling in space and selected our next-door neighbour for some healing. During the dream I felt strong heart energy and unconditional love and the feelings were directed at this person. Despite others bobbing up and trying to jump in front of me I remained focused on this person.

Dreaming of traveling in space suggests that you are expanding information or knowledge. Selecting your neighbor for healing is a compassionate act, but my question would be, “What is one word you would use to describe this person?” Folks in the dream represent who they are in your life, but they also represent an aspect of your self. Whatever word you would use to describe the neighbor, is something that you may need to address in yourself. This dream suggests you need to direct more unconditional love and heart centered energy to YOU, and not get distracted by all the other situations or people around you that pull on your attention.

I was able to ask this dreamer to tell me a bit more about her neighbor and any colors or feelings this short dream elicited. This was her response. In reviewing the dream she was able to link the trauma of her neighbor with the trauma of her father. Ironically the name Roger means warrior, so she was turning her love and compassion to not only her ‘warrior’ neighbor, but across time to her ‘warrior’ father. The color gray means assessing where one is not honoring themselves. That would possibly apply to Roger (the neighbor), her father, and ultimately to herself.

My neigbour one word ‘ traumatised’ . A few weeks ago I did some spiritual healing with a shamanic healer. In that session I apparently healed a whole lineage of connected people, including my father, who had experienced lifetimes of war and violence. I just remembered Roger, my next door neighbour, is a retired army nurse and psychologist. Not sure if that is the connection.

No colours apart from grey. Feelings I felt outpourings of heart energy and enormous love coming from my heart being directed at that person like an intense beacon.

Dream #2

I was harvesting leaves / stems from a plant and Davyd was guiding me (not there in person but his voice came through) and he told me that I have to remove specific parts of the plant when I had finished otherwise someone could come along and take these parts and do ‘dark magic’ on whoever had harvested from it. He actually used the word “voodoo”.

The fact that you are harvesting leaves and stems indicates that you still have some learning to do to expand your skill set. Davyd is your teacher, so in the dream this represents a part of yourself that would eventually like to strive to teach some of this information you are learning now with the plants.

When you are told that you have to “remove specific parts of the plants” because someone could do ‘dark magic’ on you (as the harvester), it is instructing you that everything is just energy, but it can be used for good or in more salacious ways. To me it suggests that you need to take care with the energy you use around plants, how you offer the knowledge of the plants the others, and what you actually do with the plants as energetic beings.

Voodoo is the word you say your teacher used. Voodoo in its most refined form is actually an ancient healing practice used for curing things like anxiety, depression, or loneliness. It is only in the use of the abhorrent energy that it becomes misused. I would ask you if there is any anxiety or depression in your world, as the plants can be a cure or at the very least a balm to your spirit. I have also included the next paragraph that you offered as an aside to your dream space, because I feel it offers more on the inner planes for you to consider for yourself.

I’m not sure of the type of plant (likely an Artemisia, who knows) but it was a shrub like plant around 5ft tall against a grey brick wall. I feel Davyd was talking about removing the growing parts of the plant to stop the dark magic although there were no flowers on it. I didn’t feel alarmed at all, but more supported in being taught something about this plant, magic and being mentored.

You were in the artemisia immersion, so this would be likely. Plants in general are about healthy, healing energies, but literally dreaming of shrubs symbolizes that there are hidden or buried emotions you are wanting to release. The #5 tells me two things, first you need to listen to yourself and trust yourself more. Secondly, that you need to stretch and bring what you know, into outer consciousness/discussions/sharing. A gray brick wall is indicative that you are not honoring yourself when you hide what you know or stop yourself from sharing what you know with others.

Davyd represents your inner teaching self. Removing parts of the plant are where you may repress your gifts, or possibly where you allow things in your world to get in your way from your personal expression/knowledge when sharing with others. Without removing the inner obstacles, you may place upon yourself, you cannot fully feel the joy & the light you truly are and/or wish to experience externally, as the plants had no flowers, which signifies no blossoming or joy. Feeling no anxiety and realizing you had mentoring and magic with this group, tells me that being supported (heard & seen) in groups such as this plant immersion, will open you to the wisdom, magic and gifts that are truly Yours to share.

Dream #3

I have been “Coasting” recently waiting for my encore career to unfold.  I have a background in holistic medicine/TCM and have grown tired of the perception people hold of being broken and needing to be fixed. I feel something will open up for me that is new in some way but I’m clueless as to what that will be.

As an aside dreamer, I am so with you on this one. I just gave up my integrative therapy practice because although it is true people need help and direction, it is also true that many people simply aren’t willing to do the self-work to perceive themselves in different ways. We are in new timelines and have the power to make choices and changes that can help redefine ourselves. As my website says, ‘If you wish to change your story, you must be willing to change your script’. And that goes for me too, LOL.

I dreamed that I had opened an office in a building that wasn’t currently leased to anyone. It was on land adjacent to where I was living, and I suddenly knew in my heart I needed to move into the space. I did not seek out the owner or agent, I just moved in.

This suggests that you already know what is and isn’t working moving forward in your work. The fact that the building wasn’t currently leased, suggests you can put a new and possibly unusual spin on your current skill set. And because the land, (which signifies support) is adjacent to where you are living, it could indicate that you need only make small tweaks to what you wish to offer/teach and ‘not throw the baby our with the bath water.

I moved in and had a group of people there for the first day. We were sitting at a round wooden table when I saw thru a side window (so specific in the dream-a long skinny window next to the front door. I excused myself and went out to greet her and tell her who I was and what I was doing.  Somehow, I knew she would be happy to have such a business in her space and accepted my presence.

I have no idea what the business was!

From day one, your reconfigured practice will be noticed and attract clients. A round wooden table suggests you would like more community as a foundational piece that expands camaraderie in your practice…like a healing arts center where there are other therapists who bring their skills into the space too.

Windows are doorways to the soul, so this is something your soul is longing to create/manifest, but you only have a slice of information as to how to create what you wish for at this time. But the window is long and skinny, this tells me you need to remove something from your practice and add something new that inspires you to revive things an go the distance now. That said you are opening the front door, which says you will welcome the new experience or addition. The owner represents one of your inner pantheon of guides, she knows how to take ownership so you can redirect how you wish to be perceived and how to change up your work a bit-I would call her in as an advisor and meditate with her, she may well surprise you with the direction she offers.  

She has blonde hair. On the Wisdom Wheels my First Nations teachers instructed me to learn for dream decoding, this is an aspect of yourself that needs to overcome the obstacles that stand in the way of loving yourself and believing in yourself. I would look to injustices you may have experienced in younger years that denied or waived aside the wealth of info you carry. In greeting her you took the first step to learning what you need to do to be happier and accept you have the potential to create something exciting and different, while still using your skills. And you can, and you will, and it will be a reality you will experience with more joy because you have everything within you to manifest the changes you wish for, given what actions you allow yourself to take.
It is true you do not know as yet what the business you will recreate will be, but you will if you continue to dream it into form. 😊

Dream #4

I was at a gas station at night, waiting. My brother and mother were there. Fluorescent lights flickered.

As I suggested to another dreamer further up, what is one word you would use to describe both your brother and your mother? They will tell you something about yourself. The lights flickered, because the dream guides were trying to get your attention. This could well be a trust issue you have with your family. The gas station suggests you need to find a way to have more energy or feel more fulfilled, and it being night could suggest you don’t feel everything around you is as clear as you would like it to be.

Then I was at a table, and my mother-in-law had to leave early so it was just my brother and I at the table. It was a white house and a white table. Conversation came up that I was adopted. My mom had given me up after birth and I was mad about it. 

My question would be are you adopted in your waking life? The table is about needing a firmer foundation in your family, And your mother-in-law leaving suggests there is a way she sees you or possibly you misunderstand her, that needs to be reconciled. If you were actually adopted, are you still needing to look at what that brings up in you? And if you are actually not adopted, what is it about your family situation where you may need to establish stronger boundaries?

White indicates boundaries on the Wisdom Wheels, not unmovable walls, but magnetizing to yourself the people, places or things you need to grow and releasing the people, places and things that no longer add to your growth. This can feel either liberating or painful depending on how clear you are of what you need to establish to feel “at home” within either yourself or your family, as symbolized by both the white house and the white table.

Then my mother appeared and announced that she had adopted two black teenagers and sent them to school on the bus in a small white town. I was worried for their experience. 

Then my ex-girlfriend, who is also black, was there and I had a vivid image of buttering sliced toast and putting four slices into a small white oven. 

There is a lot of white in your dream. Clearly there are boundaries that you have not or cannot establish for your own self autonomy given some family situation. Also white is no color and black contains all colors, what does that bring up for you? On the Wisdom Wheels, black and white fall opposite each other, this means you must listen to your inner self to know your truth and then be willing to extend that knowing to others without fear of rejection.

Now mom is back and has adopted two black teenagers. Adopted means not feeling part of something organically, two represents not assessing how to honor yourself, black means you are not listening to what it will take to claim your needs, and teenagers means you still need to grow into learning how to do what needs to be done. The school signifies needing to learn and the bus signifies the forward movement to establish that learning. And again, white, this time a white town, so this could be something you learn about yourself through community.

Your ex-girlfriend (what one word would you use for her and apply that to yourself). She was black-again the need to listen to what your inner self wants to consciously bring forward. Buttering toast is trying to soften something that has gotten hardened, to make it more palatable. Four slices suggest there are four ways available to build a stronger foundation and the need to self motivate the changes you wish to experience. And a small white oven suggests needing to feel loved. So, boundaries are imperative to ‘cook up’ how you wish to enlighten yourself (going back to the flickering lights that were trying to get your attention at the onset of the dream) while needing to be part of something to feel love authentically in your world.

Thank you to all the dreamers for their contributions.

Helter, Shelter

As always, the feelings that the dream’s images evoke in the dreamer become the most important information for the dreamer to assess. Short dreams have nothing to do with impactful or important dreams. Sometimes the dream’s brevity is way to inform a dreamer using clear symbolic associations to awaken them to information they’ve compartmentalized or simply forgotten.

I have chosen this dream to use it more as a lesson of the import of what brevity can impart, and  what childhood suggestions bubbling up, can illicit.

Dreams can be influenced by many things. Did you eat before you went to bed? Did you have a fight with someone? Are you stressed out? Did you watch something on television that is influence the dreams symbols? Is there unfinished business at work, with family, with partners? Have you been sleeping or not sleeping well lately? Are you ill? Did you take something to help you sleep? Etc.

In this dream it appears that there is a childhood memory trying to come to the surface that may be repeating in some fashion or another for the dreamer to associate in their current life experience. It doesn’t have to be bad, good, or indifferent. It can merely be information from the unconscious or super conscious to help resolve an issue one is re-experiencing.

Because this is a short dream, I am always curious about scent, colors, numbers, and expressions, as signposts to decode.

It’s interesting this dream was noted by the dreamer as happening on August 1, 2022. That was a huge astrological mashup between Mars (action/fiery/determined to move energy), Uranus (out of the blue/spontaneous/not planned realizations)) and the north node (a karmic push to grow/evolve/empower). Let’s see how this unfolds.

Dream: August 1, 2022

This is a very short dream without a lot of details, so I don’t know what you can make out of it. I remember two feelings. First, I knew I was little in the dream, but I was also watching it as the adult me. Second my dad has been dead for 33 years.

I am sitting on a couch, or maybe sitting up on my bed. I sense it is me, but when I was very young. I can’t see me in the dream, but I can just feel it’s me. There is a cupboard across the room, and as I look up, a rat and a mouse come out from under it. They are both brownish gray in color. The rat is eating something, maybe bread or cheese, but the mouse isn’t. The rat isn’t as big as a city rat, and in my mind, I know ‘they’ bred it or cloned it with the mouse to be that size. I don’t know who ‘they’ are. I am screaming for my dad to come help, that there is a rat and a mouse in the house.

The Decoding:

I am sitting on a couch, or maybe sitting up on my bed. I sense it is me, but when I was very young. I can’t see me in the dream, but I can just feel it’s me.

Sitting on a couch or bed is reminiscent of family, comfort and sometimes trust. Not all family situations obviously illicit trust, but normally a couch or bed symbolize the ability to relax.

The dreamer already recognizes this is something from childhood. She senses she is both the observer and the observed. The most important thing here is that the dreamer is aware of her younger self, meaning the younger self is trying to show her something. She can feel it.

This becomes some symbolic memory from her past that is trying to bring to the surface, possibly to help her in a current life situation or possibly to release an emotion that she has suppressed and now needs to deal with due to a current life situation.

There is a cupboard across the room, and as I look up, a rat and a mouse come out from under it.

A cupboard is a place of storage. It could be a place the dreamer has stored her good memories or things she never wanted to address. Cupboards are also places where many things are placed-plates, napkins, utensils, a buried family problem, things stored away until you can better deal with them or, or skill sets you can’t embrace until later in life. But essentially cupboards are old, not something used today, so signifying things from the past.

A rat and a mouse come out from underneath. Underneath suggests the unconscious. Rats are a loaded symbol. They can mean dirty, scary, jealousy, greedy, a warning, intrusive, debris, caution, unworthiness, deception, inner fears, etc.

According to Gram Twylah (who I often quote because she was such a strong mentor for me for so many years), mice also represent many things-scrutiny, inventiveness, family, security, instincts, curiosity, bravery, and adaptability.

They are both brownish gray in color. The rat is eating something, maybe bread or cheese, but the mouse isn’t.

Both symbols however point to two concepts or truths, one needs to assess or consider. On the Cycles of Truth, again something I often speak about, brown stands for organizing one’s truth and gray stands for assessing where one isn’t honoring oneself. Taken from another perspective, brown symbolizes the earth, something that is solid, dependable, and secure, Gray can be neutral, undefined, even under nourished in need of life force energy.

The rat is eating but the mouse is not. One is being sustained, the other is not. Did something in the family make this dreamer unsure of herself and her worth? Were there jealousies or deceptions in the family that were hidden to their outer appearance in the community? Did that make her feel secure, or undernourished; a need to be brave in the family situation or perhaps adapt to survive? These are questions I cannot ask the dreamer in the decoding process; I can only pose them for the dreamer to consider.

Ironically cheese symbolizes something that can make us sleep better (tryptophan) or can indicate happiness, and bread symbolizes something that is nurturing and satiates hunger. The mouse isn’t getting nourished, nurtured, and thus needs to adapt to survive.

The rat isn’t as big as a city rat, and in my mind, I know ‘they’ bred it or cloned it with the mouse to be that size. I don’t know who ‘they’ are.

This is an interesting part of the dream. The dreamer (both the child and the adult observer), know that in the family they are expected (bred) to be part of the family even though they don’t understand the circumstances of why things are like they are, nor in all likelihood the expectations imposed upon them.

This could indicate that they are going through a current situation where they do not know why things are happening the way they are, but feel compelled to be part of the family, group, job, friend group to feel safe. But are they? Are they being nurtured, or are they following a familiar role to be safe and not scrutinized?

They are unclear of this knowing about they action/reactions, like they are unclear of the ‘they’, but should they follow the known model or rebel against it? What do they gain and what do they lose?

I am screaming for my dad to come help, that there is a rat and a mouse in the house.

Dads are often seen as protectors. She is in distress and looking for a protector to take the rat and mouse away, but we never see the dad come to her rescue, or atleast she wakes up before he might have entered the scene. As an adult she is her own protector now. Whatever is happening in her outer world where she feels she needs protection, that is not coming externally, it must be cultivated internally.

What is happening in her current set of circumstances where she may need to assess a deception or perhaps learn to nurture herself by adapting something she is experiencing in her life to feel more self-respect (gray) and more grounded ness (brown)? Brave sometimes means jumping into the void with no net, until we land and realize it was a false childhood belief that kept us from leaping.

Security cannot arise if we do not acknowledge our childhood vulnerabilities or continue to store them in a ‘cupboard.’ Opportunities arise when we scrutinize where we deceive ourselves and develop a healthier way to ground and honor our needs, then that becomes our internal protection and not an external cry for help.

Thank you, dreamer for sharing,

No Choice is Still a Choice

I try to offer various explanations in my dream blog posts that reflect the archetypes, arcane symbols, and alternative cultural and/or indigenous representations within the dreamer’s dreamscape. I definitely try to avoid political statements as there is no use alienating people in an already very polarized society.

All that said, I am breaking my rule this time. I chose the following dream in part because of the strong visuals and what I consider is prophetic implications in light of the draconian dictates recently established by the Supreme Court that came into the news weeks after this dream. This third branch of our government is supposed to be a bi-partisan equalizer that separates church and state from the standards of an outspoken, monied minority. The failure of this court is that they have not maintained a bi-partisan or thoughtful stance to the overall needs of the people, namely women and more deeply women of poverty, color and/or abuse.

As a woman, (who makes up over half of the population), my autonomous rights do not get to be eliminated by a religious right, nor white/black men of the court who themselves were accused of sexual over-step, nor have my freedoms as a self-governing human-being stripped from me. This is not a red/blue statement, it is a Personal and Constitutional right.  

Where a dream is not tied to time and space, it can often be predictive. I do believe this dreamer tapped into the greater field of consciousness and touched a potential in the matrix, that was to develop in what we perceive as a future timeline, resulting in a decision on this timeline. That being now.

As a side note: I look at everything the dreamer shares. Often, they do not share the date of the dream. This dreamer did and it is interesting from both the symbols of tarot and the numerology of the Wisdom Wheels. Immediately obvious to me:

  • 2-11-2022. In the Thoth Tarot, these numbers would be assigned to the major arcana High Priestess, The Lust card, and the Lovers card. In a reading, I would assess that the High Priestess (for all of us as an archetype, men & women) represents one’s inner consciousness and the potential conflict to merge, as a single stream of energy, intuition, eros and passion with logic, focus and right will. The Lust card is about courage, passion, sexuality while cautioning not to be distracted by one’s base nature or others’ rules. The Lovers card is the strongest card in the deck about choice and balance. At best, it is about heart felt action and the unification of inner opposites.
  • If I were to speak to these numbers using Grandmother Twylah’s Cycles of Truth chart, it would read #2-honor your truth by assessing what isn’t true for you. #11-create the boundaries that allow you to magnetize to yourself the people, places, and ideas that ‘help you grow corn’ and release those that don’t. # 6-speak your truth and have faith in your stance.

So, either way, the date of the dream gives us more to think about. That said, and not as a contradiction, material from dreams is often abstract and there are a multitude of ways to interpret one—mystical, psychological, tribal, etc. The reader might have their own takeaway given their experiences and where they currently are in life. Gram Twylah used to tell me dreams are universal, and in some capacity because we are One at Source level, we are all having the same dream, with symbols and explanations as different as our personalities.

The Dream:

2-11-22

I walked around outside a flat building, a community home. Outside the house were two corpses of women on sticks, high at the top if the sticks and propped against a wall. The were wise women leasers, elder herbalists like (XXX) and (XXX). I moved them to see if they were dry enough to bring inside, but their bodies were still soaked, so I leaned them back against the wall. I didn’t want to bring them inside to grow mold. One I leaned in a patch of sun. I wondered if the sun was good for her body. Beside this building was rubble. I climbed across the rubble, past the excavator.

In an open space like a tent there was a row of three white or whitish things hanging down. I think two were fabric panels with symbols on them, like a circle with radiating spokes coming out of the center, and one was a sheepskin drum. The panel that was starkly white looked out of place with the two cream-colored ones. I gave the drum to a woman as a gift. I was uncertain whether she would cherish it/value it/perceive its resonance.

The Decoding:

I walked around outside a flat building, a community home.

Buildings often represent how one is moving toward the future—is it palatial, is it rickety, is it welcoming, is it foreboding—there are many ways to interpret what the future might look like, but in decoding one needs to pay attention to the frequency of the emotions and/or symbols expressed. We always have a choice, our future is malleable.

To dream of a flat building suggests that the space has no depth, and yet it is a community house, so will it support or impede that community. If it is flat, it is not building a dynamic future. A community represents those who share a common interest, they can put their united efforts toward helping to uplift or trying to control. This building sets the tone for the dream, although it is not as visual or as visceral as the images that follows.

Outside the house were two corpses of women on sticks, high at the top of the sticks and propped against the wall. They were wise women leaders, elder herbalists like (XXXX) or (XXXX).

I purposefully chose not to name the two women the dreamer named as they are either living or well known. Both women’s names ironically imply ‘memory’ in completely different ways. My sense is this dream is coming deep from within the dreamer’s psyche.

It also is striking in how this image is reminiscent of a scene in Margaret Atwood’s the Hand Maid’s Tale; images of the Scottish Inquisition against women accused of being witches; herbalists and midwives killed for their skills in the Middle Ages; or the brutal community Cathar murders during the Albigensian War—each set into action by religious zealots either superstitious or looking for control and power. His-tory repeats itself in constant cycles when not in balance.

Dead bodies in dreams represent something that is transforming, often a regret, broken relationship with something or someone, but always implies a change that will impact life. Again, one has to ask the dreamer on a personal basis what is impacting her currently, or from her past, that feels like a little death.

Two corpses of women on sticks, propped against the wall. On the one hand, I have often said in these blogs that everything in the dream is symbolic, but also a representation of something in the dreamer’s inner/outer world. I would ask this dreamer if she feels that she has been disempowered by a situation in her life. Did she need to speak up publicly about something during the time period of this dream? Is she feeling she is lacking life force energy to accomplish a goal, or that her back is ‘up-against-the-wall’?

Taking it both personally to the dreamer and more broadly, to the current politics (as I do believe she was seeing into some future event in her dreamstate), the #2 on the Wisdom Wheel again represents an assessment of what is not being honored, a lack of justice. In the outer world concerning this decision to eliminate federal protection of R vs W has she perhaps tapped into the greater field of consciousness, for surely this decision has the potential for some women who cannot rely on personal autonomy and choice, to face death. How often in history have women become targetsthat is not a question, it is a statement.

To be on wooden sticks suggests something is susceptible to the environment. To be propped against a wall suggests it needs support. To dream of wise women who are dead implies a deep ancient part of our knowledge, understanding or a higher wisdom is being nullified or removed.

I moved them to see if they were dry enough to bring inside, but their bodies were still soaked, so I leaned them back against the wall. I didn’t want to bring them inside to grow mold. One I leaned in a patch of sun. I wondered if the sun was good for her body.

This is a curious section. “Are they dry enough”, in other words is wisdom, either internal to the dreamer or external in our world, withering. “They are still soaked”, suggests they still have a life substance—wet equals water or blood and water implies emotions while blood, is life force energy.

The dreamer leans one into the sun. The sun also indicates life force energy. Without the sun in our solar system, there would be no life on Earth. Without women there would be no human life on Earth. It also indicates warmth and can be interpreted as enlightenment, peace, and divine power. This suggests to me that the dreamer is finding things in her world that will bring renewal, although she hasn’t “fully brought them inside” herself yet. The broader implications of the symbology here, is that humanity will need to be able to do the same; from the ashes (death) comes resurrection or rebirth.

Beside this building was rubble. I climbed across the rubble, past the excavator. In an open space like a tent there was a row of three white or whitish things hanging down. I think two were fabric panels with symbols on them, like a circle with radiating spokes coming out of the center, and one was a sheepskin drum.

The rubble is the past, everything that must pass to renew. The dreamer is moving beyond her own past, as humanity hopefully can accomplish that in the New Earth. If we are both individually and globally willing to face the rubble, the ‘Great Awakening’ cannot be stopped.

Three tents-three is a sacred number, it is a catalyst to new energy and manifestation. Tents represent a free spirit while conveying a temporary feeling of needing more protection. They are in an open space-room for growth. They are white, which goes towards shared community, purity of thought, and magnetism—again from the Wisdom Wheels explained by Grandmother Twylah in her teachings.

Two are fabric, indicating they can be formed into something new, once the dreamer or the populace assesses what is needed. The symbols on them are ancient. The circle with the radiating spokes can be the sun, the Medicine Wheel of Truth, a symbol of the One and the many. The drum represents the heartbeat of the Mother Earth, our own heartbeat while living, the pulsation of all living being’s life force energy.  Sheepskin is about safety, warmth and sheep as a positive explanation are about community and peace.

Can the community—the dreamer’s inner pantheon of voices/guides, as well as life outside the dreamer, we the people—make this ‘flat building’ and the surrounding rubble have more depth of purpose for renewal? Choice.

The panel that was starkly white looked out of place with the two cream-colored ones. I gave the drum to a woman as a gift. I was uncertain whether she would cherish it/value it/perceive its resonance.

I love the way the dreamer ended her dream. There is a choice, always. Do we construct boundaries, not walls with each other. Boundaries are moveable, walls generally are not. Do we homogenize our inherent truths and human rights (cream) to belong for safety? Do we gift others with the precious gift of our open hearts? Will that be respected and cherished in the receivership exchange? Will all of us be able to perceive a new resonance as an opportunity for all? Those are still unanswered questions for the dreamer and for humanity.

As Gram used to caution, “Don’t hope; hOpe has a big hole in it. Have faith and trust in the Mystery. No one can give you faith and trust, you either have it, or you don’t.”

Thank you to this dreamer for sharing this very powerful dream.

Is it worth speaking up?

We are in a quickening timeline where what we are thinking or speaking (positive, negative, or indifferent) has the potential to influence or manifest in our lives. We are the creators of our own destiny; that is not a new age notion, it is a reality. Watching how we speak about our self and others, what we act on or not, is paramount during these times. Our actions, conscious or unconscious, creates the energy that will bring opportunities or challenges to our reality. Taking charge of how we wish to invest in our life, experience our life, and/or design our life therefore is both a gift and a responsibility.

Our dreams become narratives that can enlighten our waking state to what needs change, where we need to pay attention to find more joy, or correct something out of balance to live more fully. Awareness brings choices, choices bring change, and commitment to that change can bring freedom. Thus where we put our attention/intentions, is exactly what we will bring to life and create in our 3D world. This is where individual responsibility to the Self resides. This dream, I feel, challenges the dreamer to a choice to be made.

The Dream:

I was outside in the parking area of a nice hotel.  There was a red Lamborghini parked nearby and there were 3 kids climbing all over it.  The parents had allowed them to do it because it made them happy, but it wasn’t their car.

The owner of the car came out after the family had left.  He was very irate that there were finger and footprints all over the car.  He complained to the manager but since they didn’t have a valet or parking attendant there was no expectation of them watching over the car.  The owner wrote a note and asked the manager to give it to the family when they returned.

The family returned after the car was gone and received the note.  The mom was near me and mentioned she didn’t know who this was asking them to call or why.  I explained that it was the car’s owner and he had been upset, also that if I were her, I wouldn’t call as he was going to be rather cranky. 

I saw the mom later and she said that she had not called and appreciated me telling her what it was about.

The Decoding:

I was outside in the parking area of a nice hotel. 

Usually, to dream of a hotel means that something is changing in your life, or you are wanting something in life to change. Hotels are places where people are always arriving or departing; you can feel pampered at some or disappointed at others given that energy. This can suggest that you are looking for something to renovate or re-invent for yourself, particularly at work.

You are in the parking lot however, which suggests you need to pause and assess how, if, or where you wish to do this. You are in transition, possibly relying on others to help you to make this decision. The fact that it is a nice hotel, portends it will be a good change in your life that could bring you more satisfaction. This therefore can be a career change dream and/or centers around you making a choice about something at work.

There was a red Lamborghini parked nearby and there were 3 kids climbing all over it.  The parents had allowed them to do it because it made them happy, but it wasn’t their car.

Cars represent you, the individual who either has control over their life, or in some situation you are experiencing feels you do not have control. Red on the Wisdom Wheels (which I have spoken frequently about in dream blogs), suggests you need to not only have faith in the process, but to communicate what it is you want/need with the wisdom to know you deserve that expression. Lamborghini’s may represent that it feels a bit out of your reach; or perhaps that a raise you are looking for, or acknowledgement at work around an area you are questioning, seems unattainable.

Three kids are climbing all over the car, without any parental intervention. This suggests to me that there may be those where you work now that haven’t worked as hard as you, or been there as long as you, who may be getting more recognition or accolades (or even money) than you are. And your bosses are either turning a blind eye to this fact, or perhaps are happily letting things take their course without being more responsive or supportive in their role.

You are the observer of all this, and there is a need is to organize what you need to say or perhaps bring it to the right people. To wisely state your opinion, knowing the innate gifts you have support your request or reporting. You need to be decisive to show them what a valuable asset you are.

The owner of the car came out after the family had left.  He was very irate that there were finger and footprints all over the car.  He complained to the manager but since they didn’t have a valet or parking attendant there was no expectation of them watching over the car.  The owner wrote a note and asked the manager to give it to the family when they returned.

Again, keep in mind everything in the dream is what it is, but also an aspect of yourself. You are the owner of your own life’s experience/s. Are you irate that you are not being recognized for what you bring to the table? Are you being proactive? Are you allowing others to undermine you without addressing what is upsetting you? The fingerprints and footprints tell me there is some sort of a “paper trail” or recognition that others aren’t being accountable for. It is there for all to see.

You may/may not have gone to a “higher-up”, (the manger) who perhaps has only made excuses (they have no valet, so they can’t assess your complaint). Or you as manager have not taken this to the right person, division, or high ups to make a change. Or potentially even worse, you have, but they are not supporting your observations. I am going out on a limb here and suggesting that maybe writing a note is about you putting something in your human resource file as a protective/proactive measure stating your observations, to no avail.

The family returned after the car was gone and received the note.  The mom was near me and mentioned she didn’t know who this was asking them to call or why.  I explained that it was the car’s owner and he had been upset, also that if I were her, I wouldn’t call as he was going to be rather cranky. 

The ‘family’ returns could be the group reconvening in a meeting or the topic coming up again. The car is gone, which could mean it is without your presence. They receive the note-potentially your observations, report, request—but, they still do not understand the situation, or have chosen not to, so nothing is done.

The mom represents the nurturer in you. This is a twist in the dream. Maybe there is a part of you that simply knows if you bring anything up it will go nowhere given those you are working with. Here your dreaming self might be cautioning you not to say anything for fear of reprisals. You know if you bring it to the powers that be or write anything for your file, that people (your boss?) will be upset. This circles us back to the beginning of the dream.  Knowing this could be what is making you question staying or moving into something new—be that another division, another organization, or another career all together (the nice hotel).

I saw the mom later and she said that she had not called and appreciated me telling her what it was about.

This suggests there is an aspect of yourself trying to guide you through whatever situation this is bringing up for you. It is the part of your dream where you are in the parking lot assessing that nice hotel. Keep in mind this is after all your dream and you may see these symbols as expressing something else in your life entirely. Because dreams come from a place of no space/time, it might also be a prewarning of something that will be coming up shortly where you work.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Fruits Toward Self-Discovery

“You’ve got to go out on a limb sometimes, because that’s where the fruit is.” -Will Rogers

For someone who loves dream interpretation this dream is ripe with symbols (no pun intended, well maybe a little). Dreams about fruit suggest something of both one’s personality and possible relationships that you have formed (with self or with other).

Fruit at its ripest represents vitality, youth, abundance, sensuality, and fertility. When the fruit is in decay, it is a symbol that something is either dying to us (as an idea, belief, or relationship), or perhaps needs to be reformulated, replanted, or nurtured for a more fulfilling cycle towards personal growth. In dreams they can symbolize stages of health, wealth, and well-being depending on the fruit and state they are in.

With the fruits shown to this dreamer, I sense they represent directives for her to consider or explore within herself. These fruits have many different connotations, so it will be up to the dreamer to choose what makes the most sense in her personal quest. She is obviously well versed in symbolism given her own assessment at the end of the dream. But a broader interpretation of these fruits, may assist with her ability to dig deeper.

Fruit also takes on significance in art and in the myths and allegories we have heard or studied. Different fruits are aligned with different gods and goddesses; different cultures and cultural beliefs or rituals; used as emblems that hold arcane meaning. Similar to the deeper meaning of specific flowers gifted among individuals, lovers, or friends in Victorian times, fruit has significant and purposeful meaning throughout Egyptian, Roman, Greek, and Chinese cultures, even the Bible, to name just a few.

The DREAM:

I was in an outdoor setting with a couple of other nameless, faceless folks, eating fruit off the surrounding trees. This is noteworthy only because I almost never eat fruit (I know I know), so I’m not entirely sure how it crept into my dreamscape to begin with as it’s not a staple of my diet. At any rate, here I was picking and eating grapes off of a tree. I know grapes don’t technically grow on trees, but these ones apparently did. There were purple grapes and green grapes, and both varieties were ripe and delicious. 

The next fruit I picked was an apple, but it was kind of mealy and after one bite, I intuitively jammed it into the dirt at the base of its tree. I knew I was trying to plant the seeds still in the apple and fertilize the soil at the same time. 

The last tree I came to was a pomegranate tree, and I could tell just from a cursory glance that the pomegranates weren’t ripe yet, so I didn’t even bother. 

I woke up feeling a deep calm (then I went back to sleep and the next anxiety dream cropped up). The pomegranate obviously has some esoteric significance, and I suppose the grapes could relate to Pan (an energy I work with almost exclusively, but as the “all” or “trickster”, not in the sense of bacchanalian debauchery). Apple I’m not too sure about. (The apple was some regular red apple, a small variety, nothing like Eris’ apple of discord). This was very clearly a love dream, but I’m not a dream interpreter. I found it worth a share, being laid out in stages with specific symbolism to ponder over. 

The DECODING:

I was in an outdoor setting with a couple of other nameless, faceless folks, eating fruit off the surrounding trees. This is noteworthy only because I almost never eat fruit (I know I know), so I’m not entirely sure how it crept into my dreamscape to begin with as it’s not a staple of my diet.

Here the dreamer makes a couple of statements that need to be kept in the forefront as you continue through the dream. She is outdoors, which represents a larger palette, she is not confined; she is open. The people are nameless and faceless, not because they are meant to be ignored, but because this dream sequence is a teaching specifically for her waking self. Therefore, she does not get distracted by them in the dream. Another way to look at this though, is that if everything in the dream represents a part of oneself, then some of these “parts” of herself as perceptions or awareness have yet to be identified within herself.

Trees, in and of themselves, are about community, suggesting this dreamer may feel isolated from community. They are rooted into Mother Earth and their branches reach for the Heavens, suggesting that this dreamer looks to bridge her 3D self while reaching for higher levels of consciousness. For any of us, this can often feel isolating or at the very least a singular quest even when in a broader community practicing the same.

She states “it is noteworthy” that she doesn’t eat fruit and doesn’t realize why fruits became a symbolic reference in her dreamstate. On an unconscious level I might suggest it was her inner self’s way of directing her to find the means to open to a more abundant, vital life, and one to be shared with others. That longing then becomes a self-teaching with the overall meaning of the fruits that show up in her dream as paths.

At any rate, here I was picking and eating grapes off of a tree. I know grapes don’t technically grow on trees, but these ones apparently did. There were purple grapes and green grapes, and both varieties were ripe and delicious. 

Grapes have a history that goes back at least 6500 years. Grapes grow in clusters, community if you will. In the dream, they don’t grow on trees, but these did, signifying her way to community might be found in an alternative means from other things she has tried. In other words, the trees are there, community is there, now how to find it is her quest.

Throughout history grapes also have signified, abundance, sweetness, fecundity, fertility, wealth, and in some culture’s holiness. Grapes are closely linked to wine-pleasure on the one hand, debauchery on the other. She stated at the end that she works with the energy of Pan as ‘all’ and ‘trickster’, but not as Bacchus. Trickster energy shows us where we are separated from the oneness of our self, similar to our shadow side which merely is the part of our self where we have not brought our light.

Although grapes and wine are often associated with male deities—the Greek Dionysus, the Roman Bacchus, the Celtic Green Man and the Aztec Tezcatzontecatl, there are female goddesses to be considered. Hathor in ancient Egyptian paintings and hieroglyphs and the most ancient, a Sumerian goddess named Nin-Kasi, were both associated with vineyards, grapes, and wine as symbols of joy, fertility, magic, and pleasure.

The color of the grapes in this dreamscape is a further teaching for the dreamer. The grapes were purple and green. On the Wisdom Wheels taught by Grandmother Twylah Nitsch, that I often reference, these colors have specific meaning in finding our path towards personal truth. Green stands for using right will to deconstruct what are mainly childhood beliefs that limit the life we wish to embrace moving forward.

The color is merely a frequency that encourages us to uncover the new beliefs we have garnered or discovered as we move towards adulthood. Question: What falsities linger for the dreamer, possibly at an unconscious level, about abundance, heartfelt joy, and community based on what she may have experienced in younger years?

The other grapes are purple. On the Wheel, these represent wisdom, gratitude, awareness, elder vision, and dreams. In a dream they represent that pleasant and unexpected happiness will occur shortly in your life. Is the dreamer ready to accept these unexpected opportunities for community, self-awareness, and/or new relationships in a way that can leave the “story” of the past so as to have gratitude for the new “story” she is creating? It is not that any of our past stories haven’t affected us, but we do not need to carry them forward with us.

The next fruit I picked was an apple, but it was kind of mealy and after one bite, I intuitively jammed it into the dirt at the base of its tree. I knew I was trying to plant the seeds still in the apple and fertilize the soil at the same time. 

This is the next stage her inner Self wants her to consider in her process. The apple is considered one of the most sacred trees for happiness, love, fertility, and good health. The apple has a rich symbolism through out history. In China it represents peace. In various other mythologies, apples are used as a symbol of love, beauty, and wisdom.

Eve was punished for taking a bite of the apple—recognizing sexuality, knowledge, and immortality. But, when Christ held the apple, it was representative of the second ‘Adam’ who brings life. In 3D physical bodies, life is born of sexuality and wisdom brings immortality to the soul. The apple represents not duality but oneness, although counterintuitively the path to that awareness might feel dualistic.

The apple was associated with Aphrodite as the ‘tree of love’. In Greek mythology it is said that three goddesses claimed the apple as their symbol and took the argument to Zeus. They were Hera, Athena, and Aphrodite, but are these not three aspects of a women-wisdom, protector, lover. To me, they represent three stages of one’s life, and apply to this dreamer’s need to find these aspects (if she hasn’t already) within herself, not as separate identities but evolving her oneness.

In Medieval art, apples were representative of breasts and in the pagan harvest ritual of Mabon (Autumn equinox) apples when observed cut in half represented the female gentilic anatomy, for seeds to birth, fertile or harvest celebration, and tilling the land for replanting. And yes, Eris the goddess of discord who wasn’t invited to the wedding and Pomona who watched over orchards are associated with the apple as well. Is there discord within this dreamer as one who is watchful and knowledgeable but has yet to feel ‘invited in?’ Like the nameless, faceless aspects at the beginning of the dream.

Where the first fruit in this dream was the intended goal the dreaming self, wished to expose for the waking self’s consideration, to me, this part of the dream is the dreaming self pointing out where the dreamer might have inner conflict or unresolved belief systems to examine in her desire for partnership, community, or even a more aligned sense of Self. Why? Because the apple is mealy, not sweet, not edible or to her liking; this has been her experience.

She jams it into the dirt at the base of the tree. The seeds need to grow with a renewed understanding of what can bring more joy to the dreamer, and a fertile sense of what is needed to produce a juicy direction in her life. In this case, dirt represents either blockages or progressing toward a more solid foundation to grow in happiness, love (be that with self or another), and to reap inner peace.

The last tree I came to was a pomegranate tree, and I could tell just from a cursory glance that the pomegranates weren’t ripe yet, so I didn’t even bother. 

This fruit is the dreaming-self’s way of directing the dreamer toward what needs addressing for her to accomplish her quest.

Pomegranates signal a time of initiation. The deep red color is associated with fertility, blood, the mysteries of the womb, and on the Wisdom Wheel with having faith. These aspects need ripening, but it is clearly a time to pause in her process for self-examination. Part of any initiation is pausing to embody what we are shown.

The fruit also represents connecting with our intuition as we search deep within our beliefs and desires for life, love, death, and rebirth; a path that allows for expansion and personal awareness in areas we have yet to fully explore. The pomegranate was contained in the myth of Persephone and Demeter—the obligation to continually go into our own underworld to learn where we potentially fail ourselves, only to find renewal and emerge back to the surface with newfound awareness.

This is a test for each of us. It was depicted on Solomon’s Temple as two pillars, each engraved with two-hundred pomegranates, symbolizing our duality and our oneness. Not as either or, but as both. The number two likewise represents the High Priestess in the major arcana of the Crowley tarot—the inner consciousness one needs to garner in its quest to balance eros, intuition, and creativity with logos, focus and right will.

The number two in the Kabbalah is about self-reflection, Chokmah. It is the divine wisdom that represents duality: the within and without; the above and below; the conscious and the unconscious. It is divine wisdom that illuminates the path we must take on earth to accomplish the tasks our individual souls came here to experience.

The dreamer says she woke in a deep calm. I believe she is aware of her end goal, is being directed to see where beliefs that no longer serve that goal may be influencing her actions/reactions to dispose or reformat the story she wishes to live, and possibly to undertake some deeper inner work, to expand fulfillment toward that end goal.

Thank you, dreamer, for sharing your dream.

Ask to Receive

There is no doubt we are in stressful times on so many levels Add to this conflicting timelines that seem to be propelling us in so many directions for new thoughts, release, accountability and changes in our lives that are not always timely or sought out.

On top of that the astrology, the photon belt, and the solar flares are all impacting our dream states. I have heard from more and more people that their dreams are becoming more vivid and full of symbolism, even when they are short. I feel this is also a time when those that have crossed are making themselves more available, and coming into our awareness, especially through dreams, to help us through these times. This dream seems to be one of those.

The Dream:

In the dream, I was in some sort of distress, hiding in some brush at night.  It was cold, 35 degree-ish cold.  I was near a small rounded bridge with a light.  The light illuminated a misty fog.   I felt a presence walking over the bridge which then became a ball of yellow and white glistening energy moving in a circular motion.  It brought me a great level of peace and comfort.  I could not discern if it was the energy of a person that passed.  Seemed it may have been my father or brother, however, not a definitive feeling.  The dream then ended.  It has remained vivid to me which is unusual as I normally do not remember dreams. 

The decoding:

In the dream, I was in some sort of distress, hiding in some brush at night.  

We have many stressors in life, and it is not unusual for them to penetrate our sleeping/dream state. Sometimes prior to a big event, or a loss, changing career roles, relationship issues—anything that might activates an emotional, mental, or physical discomfort from outside our self, can trigger a stressful sleep.

It’s dark out, meaning that this information is coming from the dreamer’s unconscious or subconscious state for review. Hiding behind a bush could symbolize the fear of letting go of something, but it can also be playful. Think of hide and seek as a child. In this case it might suggest the dreamer does not feel as carefree as they may have been as a child. It might also imply they are looking to experience a new goal in life that is not quite clear to them how to access as yet.

It was cold, 35 degree-ish cold.  I was near a small, rounded bridge with a light.  The light illuminated a misty fog.  

To feel a cold pass through you in the dreamstate can have a multitude of connotations. It could be sensing another entity or disincarnate spirit, which often leaves one with an odd, sometimes frightening feeling. Sometimes it means there is a disappointment coming, or there is a feeling of loneliness. It can also point to a deal that is not the best for one to invest in. Still at other times, it may indicate that you have to warm up to a new idea or person.

Bridges symbolize important transitions in one’s life. Just as likely it can mean there is an important decision to make and because the light is illuminating a misty fog, it can imply that the dreamer does not have all the information yet. Fog can also mean deception, uncertainty, or that things in one’s life are not what they seem. There is light shining though, so there is guidance or illumination of the issue to be had. But it comes from inner guidance by understanding outer things that will be illuminated for you.

As a side note, 3+5 equals 8. The number 8 in the tarot indicates a time to have patience, be cautious, not jump to conclusions, or make hasty decisions. Turned on its side it is the infinity symbol; life everlasting. I would look to other decisions you have made when you did not feel at ease or perhaps were too hasty with a conclusion. How did that work out for you?

As a major arcana card, it is the Adjustment card, a card of personal karma, justice, finding balance and viewing something objectively. On the Wisdom Wheels it is the place of trusting your intuition and discerning if you are in service or servitude to something—be that a person, a belief, a past story you repeatedly tell yourself, or anything that holds you back from what the situational ‘teaching’ was/is meant to show you greater understanding and direction.  

I felt a presence walking over the bridge which then became a ball of yellow and white glistening energy moving in a circular motion.  

I am going to go out on a limb here and say that this could definitely be the spirit of someone, possibly a loved one, that is trying to get your attention around something. Or a higher being of light that wishes to help guide or inform you. The presence is walking over the bridge, bidding you to do the same;; have the courage to make the transition. The energy is palpable and moving in a circular manner indicating as well as being a ‘ball of light’, representing a direction moving you toward wholeness.

It is both yellow and white. Yellow on the Wisdom Wheels is overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of loving ourselves, and possibly the injustices inflicted on you personally around issues of love. White is about boundaries, and magnetizing to one’s self the people, places, and things that help us to blossom, while releasing from life the people places, and beliefs that do not allow for personal growth and joy.

The energy is not static, it is moving. Energy is always moving, but in this case, you can see and feel it. It is moving forward, crossing whatever that bridge might symbolize to you that holds you back from what you desire.

It brought me a great level of peace and comfort.  I could not discern if it was the energy of a person that passed.  Seemed it may have been my father or brother, however, not a definitive feeling.  

If the essence of the energy is the spirit of your father or brother, it could very well be one of them showing you they are present to help guide you with whatever this stressful situation is that you are feeling or that may arrive. They may be their to help you consider old beliefs or agreements that you are meant to now leave behind.  Counter intuitively a new opportunity might be presenting itself shortly and their objective is to bring you peace and comfort around the decision you make.

The Laws of the Universe are such that those who have crossed over cannot necessarily assist us unless we give them permission. We are in a free will 3D state. The veils are the thinnest at sunrise and sunset, and then at Hallowmas and All Soul’s Day (October 31st/November 1st), but you do not need to wait until the fall. Pick one of those times during your day to ask your loved ones to help with whatever is occurring in your life that doesn’t feel complete or that needs reconstruction for greater alignment or happiness. Then watch for the signs. They can come in many ways.

Interestingly certain colors are also associated with different angels that are always their in the ethers/dimensions to assist. Yellow represents Archangel Jophiel, the angel that helps us come to a place where we can actualize happy joyous thoughts. White is Archangel Gabriel who reveals to us (think revelations) something new and is considered “the strength of God.” You seem to have lots of assistance at this time, so be clear about what it is you wish to experience or release and then ask for help. Asking is actually a sign of trust, inner strength, and being able to receive.

The dream then ended.  It has remained vivid to me which is unusual as I normally do not remember dreams. 

Thank you, dreamer, for sharing.

Manifest

As we end the year 2021 and look forward to a better 2022, I am struck by how quickly what we put our attention to (good, bad or indifferent), we are capable of manifesting. What we manifest follows our awareness (or lack there of) and our intentionality.

The timelines have sped up yet again, through the astrological, political, medical, and environmental positioning we accept as our reality or deny as a reality we do not wish to participate in. This is a double edged sword, because we all have emotional, physical, mental, spiritual, ancestral, cultural or karmic baggage that impacts the lens through which we see and believe. The self work we do to eliminate those illusionary sound bites, or to at least consider an alternative perspective on what no longer serves our self, humanity, or our planet, will determine how we interpret and/or how we challenge ourselves to rise above others interpretations. How we allow others to define our reality can either limit us, keep us locked into where we are, offer us an alternative understanding, a new decision, or liberate us.

In a rare dream blog, I am not going to decode the following dream. Does it speak of illusion or creation? It suggests to me that there is always a new day, a new dream, another opportunity to grow outside the boxes we often place ourselves in. We are our own master teachers. Our potential to be aware, manifest, heal, envision and create magic, is our birthright.

I leave this dream for you to ‘feel into’ and envision the year you wish to manifest, with all the capability you have to be astonished, to be aware, and to actualize the magic within you.

“Magic is believing in yourself, if you can do that, you can make anything happen.”- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe.

The dream:

I am in a small group of people. I am sitting on the righthand side of a master Tibetan teacher. The group is meditating with their eyes closed. I am aware of being required to watch him do his magic/healing/manifestations. He was working with a cauldron, and I knew intuitively that the last image or symbol he was to manifest and place in the cauldron would be the final healing symbol that a person of great importance would need.

I was surprised that saw the symbol briefly has he conjured it and placed it in the cauldron. In that brief moment of recognition, it disappeared into the base of the cauldron. I was shocked, and he was bemused at my reaction. I kept watching his hand movements knowing that the others still meditating (or now sleeping), were unaware. At the final moment the symbol shape shifted back for me to fully see. I knew he was showing me this because I had the potential within me to do this too. I was astounded. He smiled and I knew this was a huge lesson he was offering me, to be remembered.