I chose this dream to explain a bit about how names and colors influence dream content, given their vibrational explanation/s. I draw on alot of Gram Twylah’s Wisdom Wheel psychology this month, even though I have done  a bit of that in past dream blog deciphering. I feel this dream is rich with how these meanings enhance the decoding of what the dreamer is trying to ‘tell’ herself. 

There are many interpretations to the Wisdom Wheels. On the simplest level, her teachings contained the Cycles of Truth (that we all must navigate as we live our Earthwalk), and the Pathway of Peace (that become our individual way of finding balance on that ‘walk’). 

The Dream:

I am in a familiar place and I am with Thomas, Ben, and Mary. I am preparing for something that begins with A but cant remember right now. I am very good at this and I need to show someone else what to do. People are milling around and I overhear that Mary and Thomas are going to the ashram for the week-end. I ask if there is room for me and they say Ben is going to maybe you can go with him. I ask Ben and he says fine. I ask if they had called accommodations to see if there was room. They asked if I could do that. I said I need to pack and it wont take long. I call accommodations and am waiting a while. I pass the phone to Mary and she waits for them to answer. I go to pack and I find my suitcase is full. I unpack and I open a door and I see that Gurumayi is sitting in a chair with her back to me giving darshan. She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. I close the door as not to disturb her. She says are you coming?

I am in a familiar place and I am with Thomas, Ben, and Mary. I am preparing for something that begins with A but cant remember right now.

Each of these people represent what they mean in waking life to the dreamer, but also an aspect about herself. She is in a familiar place, which with each of the names she list, could me she has come to an understanding of parts of herself.

Let’s take them one at a time and use some word play. Thomas: this is a part of her that doubts something, as in Doubting Thomas. Thomas also means ‘twin’. This suggests to me that there is a secondary part of the dreamer that may well know she is doubting something about herself, and trying to work past those feelings/thoughts to find a more secure base.

Ben is short for Benjamin or Benedict. It means ‘the son of’, and usually refers to ‘son of my right hand’ and courage. Here the dreamer is calling attention to the right hand/left brain. She needs to take charge of something in her personal life and logically, courageously figure out the part of herself that she is doubting denying or leaving hidden. 

Mary has many connotations. It has been a well used name biblically and historically. If we take the name from the Egyptian mry, it means loved or beloved. What aspect of herself does the dreamer need to work at loving? She is preparing to assimilate all of these clues to accomplish something that starts with an A, though upon waking she still hasn’t formulated what that is, or she would have awakened with an understanding of what she is preparing for. 

‘A’ is the first letter of the alphabet, as well as the first vowel (often labeled a capstone). And she has capitalized it in her dream description. In numerology it refers to courage, ambition, and being in charge. These are the significant adverbs she needs to utilize to uncover what she is trying to learn about herself.

I am very good at this and I need to show someone else what to do. People are milling around and I overhear that Mary and Thomas are going to the ashram for the week-end. I ask if there is room for me and they say Ben is going to maybe you can go with him. I ask Ben and he says fine.

The dreamer knows she has a talent she ‘hasn’t worn on her sleeve’ for others to see. In fact she probably still denies this part of her own talents and skills. The ‘red letter A’ was used to shame a literary character in the Scarlet Letter, perhaps, if we are still using word play, the dreamer feels ashamed to let others see this side strong part of herself?

There are other aspects of herself ‘milling around.’ These are the parts of herself that still judge her and possibly deny her courage and ambitions to be all she is. She overhears the struggle within between her ‘beloved self’ and her ‘doubting self’, who wish to go into the silence (the ashram) to find the balance of truth she holds within.

She petitions those parts of herself if there is ‘room’ for her in this realization, this place of self actualization, and the dream directs her to (Ben) logically think through where she denies herself, her love of self, or her sovereignty of purpose in this lifetime. Ben wants to help her, as he agrees he can direct her.

I ask if they had called accommodations to see if there was room. They asked if I could do that. I said I need to pack and it wont take long. I call accommodations and am waiting a while. I pass the phone to Mary and she waits for them to answer.

Ironically she is still looking to see if she can be accommodated in this inner search, through her outer world communication. They all encourage her to do this for herself. She needs to pack, although I would suggest she needs to ‘unpack’ some of the ways she looks at herself and/or feels about herself. She’s waiting on others to answer her call, when really she needs to allow the ‘beloved’ (Mary) in herself to communicate that.

I go to pack and I find my suitcase is full. I unpack and I open a door and I see that Gurumayi is sitting in a chair with her back to me giving darshan. She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. I close the door as not to disturb her. She says are you coming?

She goes to pack and finds her suitcase full. She needs to unpack her perceptions and beliefs, but has started the process. She has begun the ‘unpacking’ via the dream. She opens a door, signifying another way of going within or another way of letting something in.  A new awareness.

She sees Gurumayi sitting in a chair with her back to the dreamer giving darshan. This is very significant. Although Gurumayi is a spiritual teacher, she represents the spiritual teacher within this dreamer. At the level of One we are all spiritual teachers. We simply need to claim that knowingness within the context of our own life. So in her outer life, the dreamer still is seeking another person, leader, higher power to lead her to the  qualities of herself, when actually only the Self can tap that understanding and lay claim to all we are. This does not imply that we do not need mentors, guides, spiritual teachers, etc. along the way, but at some point we need to make the teachings our own.

Darshan is about receiving a blessing, which Gurumayi, the Higher Self is offering, but her back is to the dreamer. This implies that the dreamer doesn’t fully see who she is and all she is capable of. The higher Self 9Gurumayi) is not ignoring her, but the opportunity of seeing the ‘holy person’ or the image of our own divinity needs to come from within.

She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. White represent purity, boundaries’, and magnetizing to our self what we need to know our truth or releasing from our life that which is nolonger true for us. That it is a hat, signifies that the crown chakra is covered, and we need to bring our awareness to the highest level of personal understanding for our growth. Purple represents the dreamtime, healing, the wisdom that comes from gratitude and awareness. It is a shawl that surrounds her body, bringing that awareness as a cloak of knowing to her full terrestrial self. 

The last two sentences are a great response between the unrecognized self and the Higher Self. The dreamer doesn’t want to disturb this holy part that is confident in her own knowing, and yet that is exactly what she needs to do. The Higher Self knowing that, asks “Aren’t you coming in?” Aren’t you ready to converse? Aren’t you ready to let go of all your doubts about who you are, and love yourself enough to have the courage to be You. 

Do you dreamer?