Choose a Different View

Hello Dreamers:

I don’t know about the rest of you, but that last Mercury retrograde from March 22nd-April 15th in the fire sign of Aries was a doozy. In the fire sign of Aries the retrograde motion brought up issues of independence, rethinking relationships (with self and others), speaking up/or not speaking before thinking through, and may have provoked childish responses from those who didn’t get their way the way they wanted. 

All things being equal, one of the ways I chose to exercise my independence and rethink my relationship with my blog, was to not offer a March excerpt. Now that might be perceived as a childish response on my part, but I’d rather like to think of it as redefining, or revisiting, my needs given the sheer overwhelm in my life last month. I decided I need not berate myself for not following “my self imposed monthly procedure to get my blog done and out.” 

What Mercury retrograde in its course offers each of us, is the opportunity to try out a different view. Maybe come back to an issue with a fresh set of eyes. Maybe renew, repeat, redirect, refurbish, restructure, reject or re-ignite something. It’s a good time to reorganize ourselves around what we need to tweak in our life to gain more satisfaction moving forward. Hence this dream. 

The Dream:

I’m in the hospital for knee replacement surgery. I haven’t been given my packet of information. A male doctor offers to help, he’s tall, can see over the heads of all the people clustered around to find what I need. I climb up on his shoulders. He sees the packet with a white label I need, it’s sitting open on an empty chair, incomplete. I find the head nurse, the Administrator, to complain that my packet was in full view of everyone, violating my HIPAA privacy rights. I’m angry. She’s doing exercises, showing other women how to open their hips to help with the recovery from surgery. I want to know why she didn’t include me in her lesson. She said I had to ask. I wonder why I have to ask when I’m here for help in the first place and don’t know anything about this whole thing. I’m confused, angry and alone. Then I suddenly get this sense of a solid concrete feminine pillar rooted in the base of the central channel. Beside it is a watery New Mary surging up from the depths to loosen and release the concrete form of the Old Mary. I wake up.

I’m in the hospital for knee replacement surgery. I haven’t been given my packet of information.

Hospitals are places of healing. Structures that can possibly help restore something that has gone array physically, emotionally, or mentally. We go to hospitals when we need to feel better; they are often places we go to seek ‘an educated opinion about something’ and hopefully to gain insight so we can feel better or heal something. 

In this case the dreamer needs knee replacement surgery. Knees are crucial to the ability of the body to be flexible and walk forward in life. Knees also indicate the ability to bend; to surrender; to supplicate. They are joints so they symbolize changing circumstances. Knees are often seen as the part of the body that represents karma, and in many studies represents sexual desires and passion.

This dreamer needs to be more flexible with the way she needs to replace what she has ignored about her own sexual desires. She is seeking a place to heal and educate herself on what she needs to welcome the next phase into her life. This will help her to karmically adjust and educate herself, so she is able to change her circumstances, and heal that which no longer serves, engaging and exploring relationship in the new ways she may desire.

The dreamer hasn’t been given her packet of information. She doesn’t know how to do this quite yet. She wants to do it, but she’s in need of help.

A male doctor offers to help, he’s tall, can see over the heads of all the people clustered around to find what I need. I climb up on his shoulders. He sees the packet with a white label I need, it’s sitting open on an empty chair, incomplete.

The male doctor in this case represents her inner masculine. We all  are made up of both divine feminine attributes and divine masculine attributes, our souls contain all potentialities. We often make the mistake choosing an outer representation of what we wish to experience within ourselves when choosing a partners; and then get hurt in the process because they too are trying to find what they are seeking in themselves. Knowing the Self is an inner experience, not an outer one, can bring us different relationships with self or other.

The masculine offers focus, discipline and a way to logically but compassionately balance her view. He can help fix this situation, why? Because he is able to look above all the parts of herself (the people), that represent her past wounds, and/or simply get in the way of herself. That can include both her self directed isolation, and those elements she has experienced in this life that have made her pull back full feminine expression.

She needs to climb on his shoulders. She is willing to ask him to help her get above this issue. She relies on his strength, (shoulders represent being able to handle the burden for someone else) and warmth (because climbing on someone’s shoulders suggests trust, but not being yet able to have intimacy).

White, on the Wisdom Wheels as I have been taught, represents boundaries, sharing, magnetizing to ourselves what we want, and releasing what no longer serves. It also represents purity. A packet represents all the information the dreamer already knows, but hasn’t fully discovered,  but it is fully contained within her already. The purity represents coming to this inner knowing without debasing herself.

The packet is sitting on an empty chair, incomplete. Again, the packet represents the fact that she has everything within her to look at this situation with new eyes. The empty chair represents that she is not confronting something, and that makes her ability to deal with these feelings and desires, incomplete. She needs to sit with herself.

I find the head nurse, the Administrator, to complain that my packet was in full view of everyone, violating my HIPAA privacy rights. I’m angry.

She is looking for the higher authority within herself to heal this situation. And, she is upset that although she thinks this personal aspect of herself has been well hidden, that now others see this incomplete part of herself too. Her sexual desires have been exposed and brought to the forefront of her waking life, and this is still uncomfortable on one or more levels. She still holds anger around her desires and her past history with men, which needs to be addressed. Her higher authority, higher self, is exposing her to normal human physical needs, and that feels a bit like a violation.

She’s doing exercises, showing other women how to open their hips to help with the recovery from surgery. I want to know why she didn’t include me in her lesson. She said I had to ask. I wonder why I have to ask when I’m here for help in the first place and don’t know anything about this whole thing. I’m confused, angry and alone.

The higher authority (administrative nurse) is doing exercises with other women to open their hips….open their sexuality as part of their recovery. The dreamer is angry she wasn’t included in the lessons that would help her open herself again to sexual exploration or partnership. She may need to find a ‘teacher’ or counselor to help her explore this.

The nurse tells her she has to ask. We all need to ask for help when we are confused and uncertain; we often need to find new means to explore what still feels unknown to us. Yes, she has to go within and ask herself why? and how? and what? to all the ways she has , or still limits the expression of her desires and passions. It is suggested that she look at her fear, and anger, and whatever else comes up in her ‘inner discussion’ with the part of her being that wishes to be liberated. She clearly doesn’t know how to approach that discussion and that leaves her confused, angry and still alone.

Then I suddenly get this sense of a solid concrete feminine pillar rooted in the base of the central channel. Beside it is a watery New Mary surging up from the depths to loosen and release the concrete form of the Old Mary. I wake up.

If I understand this part of the dream, her Divine Feminine is still within her central core, her knowingness, her supreme being, but it has become atrophied, a concrete pillar, instead of flesh and blood, movement and action, desire and aliveness….she is awakening. A statue simulates life, it is not life.

A watery new Mary shows her that emotionally she is capable of rising from the depths of herself, her subconscious self wants and needs to be brought to a new measure of life, releasing the old ways she has confined herself. 

Some say Mary means ‘star of the sea’, others that the word comes from the Hebrew, and means ‘bitter’. We juggle both those factors within us as women. There are many Mary’s: Virgin Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Mary of Bethany (Martha & Lazarus’s sister), Mary Salome (Salome means peace).

These are all the Mary’s within us as women that we need to uncover and give voice to. Each of the Mary’s teaches us something about ourselves: the way we forget to mother and nurture ourselves; the way we have allowed others to malign our worth or worse, done that to ourselves; the way we can help ourselves rise again; the way we can find peace–what ever that means for us, for it is different for, and equally special in each of us.  All these aspects are part of the personal healing process when we choose a higher view of who we are, and allow that to manifest outwardly.

Thank you dreamer for sharing. 

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The Power Not to Share

This is the shortest month of the year, and in lieu of that, this will be the shortest dream blog decoding for this year. Why? Because I need more dreams people!!! LOL

The most important piece about this dreamer’s dream, is that she did not relay the choice she ended up making; there is no ability to give her a different perspective of her choice. In this case I applaud that missed piece of information.

This somewhat mirrors the awareness that can arise during this astrological period in which we now find ourselves; which I will explain in a minute. Even if this dream occurred in the past, because dreams come from the unconscious, they are not bound by time or space. That is why you can decode a dream from childhood, and it will still hold significance in the explanation of it, for some aspect of where you currently find yourself.

Astrologically we are under the influence of a stellium of planets in Pisces. A stellium is a number of planets (or important asteroids), in the same zodiacal sign. The Sun, Venus, Mercury, Chiron and Neptune will be in the sign of Pisces between February 18th and March 5th, 2018. With Jupiter currently in Scorpio, it expands and impacts, what lies deep within, either for release or expanded self-understanding.

All signs have their positive and less positive aspects. Pisces is a water sign. It can cleanse, overwhelm, is intuitive, compassionate, self-less—to the point of one’ own detriment sometimes—escapist, and creative. Scorpio is likewise a water sign—powerful, magnetic, emotional, intuitive, secretive, compulsive, inflexible and resentful.

Why am I sharing astrological information for a dream blog? Well, like this dreamer’s dream, this time period offers all of us a deep healing and a time for strong ‘knowing’. In this time period, it is possible to release old karmic ties and patterns—especially those in which we may still wear rose-colored glasses—if we are able to assess the karmic cycles and contracts we have been trying to move beyond for so long.

How does this apply to the dream? I know this dreamer well. We have worked in session through her dreams for many years. She is an intuitive, giving person, but she often has denied what she knows giving her power away to others, under the illusion that they might now better or more. She has been learning to stand in her own power, and the fact that she clearly states that “I choose correctly” shows me she is moving past old karmic patterns of seeking out others opinions, and trusting her own.

The Dream:
It is dark in the dream and I have to choose from some hollowed out rubber tubes. They are red yellow and green. I had to choose the ones that were flexible and could unfold. I choose correctly. Then I remembered I dreamed this dream before and I chose the same tubes before. I told myself I had to remember the dream if I had it before. It must be important, something I need to know.

It is dark in the dream and I have to choose from some hollowed out rubber tubes.

This implies that she feels ‘in the dark’ about something. Something has as yet come into your conscious awareness. Tubes by their definition are hollow, which means they can be filled with something. But to hollow something out, also means to clean something out of an item, to its core level. Rubber indicates that something is flexible, resilient and can be shaped in a new way.

They are red yellow and green. I had to choose the ones that were flexible and could unfold.

On the wisdom wheel, red stands for life force energy, speaking your truth and trusting yourself. Yellow stands for overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of you loving yourself, releasing past injustices, and the persistence to conquer your fears. Green stands for analyzing where you need to deconstruct your world to reconstruct it, self-determination to respect one’s truth, and coming to one’s own self-authority.

She has to be flexible with these choices, and unfold the old story she has told herself; the one’s that have held her back from each of these aspects of herself. The story of the past (its questions, mistakes, alliances), nolonger are important. What is of utmost importance is the story she creates for herself as she moves towards her future choices.

I choose correctly.

She has taken a stand for herself. She knows her truth. She has defined that she made the right choice for herself. No one else needs to know what that is, she has determined it for herself, and only herself. Brava!!!

Anyone of those colored tubes could have brought her to a place of self-actualization, so it almost doesn’t matter which one she chose. That she chose, and sees it as the correct choice, is empowering enough. It implies she has done the self-work she has needed to stand in her own sovereignty.

Then I remembered I dreamed this dream before and I chose the same tubes before. I told myself I had to remember the dream if I had it before. It must be important, something I need to know.

Her dreaming self, the 95% subconscious self, (where so much of our personal ‘iceberg’ dwells), brings her to a memory that she has not only dreamt this same dream before, but that she has chosen correctly before. It is a reminder to take that knowing into her waking state. For not only having made this choice, but other choices she makes for herself moving forward. 

Yes, it is important to know that the choices we make, can untie the karmic cycles we often find ourselves in. That when we trust ourselves, love ourselves, and stand in our self-authority, that we ARE being compassionate, intuitive, and flexible with our own needs….and that is self-realization.
Thank you dreamer.

Salute!!!

My apologies for not getting a dream out at the end of 2017. Like so many things, life simply took over and I didn’t have the time to write. But I did enjoy the holidays with my daughter, and for me to step away from my therapy work for that long during the holidays from others who find this time of year difficult, provided both a blessing and renewal. And that is what Solstice, Christmas, Hanukkah, New Year’s etc. represents—an opportunity to change how we’ve done things and go within, choosing something that nurtures us.

Due to not providing a dream blog in December, I am doing an extra-long interpretation this month. I chose this dream because in a small way, it mirrored my own emotional juggling to take a different path over these holidays, in ways I hadn’t fully allowed myself in the past.

I woke this morning to this dream and it was so strong that I recorded on my voice recorder so I could remember details to write to you.

So:

I am walking across a street at night — not quite running away from something, but definitely staying to the shadows and trying to avoid something. I get across and go to the side/back of a building to have a cigarette (even though, awake, I don’t smoke 🙂 When I finish and go to the front, I run into my parents and one of my brothers. They are going inside the restaurant/bar and I say I will join them and ‘buy a round’ of drinks.

I don’t remember what happens in there but as I’m leaving the building the “government or police” arrest me for smoking. I’m put with a bunch of people waiting to be executed/hung for their crimes. I say to one that I can’t believe this is really going to happen and she says that they don’t go ‘all the way through with it’ (meaning executing people).

My phone is there and I put it down. Next thing I know we (criminals) are being taken out and I see others outside waiting with black veils on their heads and faces. I realize they are the family members of others and are ready to be in mourning because we are going to die. I’m mad that I didn’t make a call to my roommate to feed and take care of my cat (I haven’t had a roommate in over a year in waking life)

We go down a dirt path to where I see 3 stumps with a large ax and some hanging rope near them. Each stump has a circle of dried blood in the center. Right before we reached the location a woman (prisoner) says to me “You don’t want to be in the front with the smokers’ – which of course I am (ugh)

I am able to wake myself at this point with heart racing. In waking, I realize I kept thinking all along that I would be hanged, but actually would have had my head chopped off. I fell back asleep and was back in this place in some hazy way, but it’s not clear. Finally woke exhausted (and late, of course)

 

I am walking across a street at night — not quite running away from something, but definitely staying to the shadows and trying to avoid something. I get across and go to the side/back of a building to have a cigarette (even though, awake, I don’t smoke 🙂 When I finish and go to the front, I run into my parents and one of my brothers. They are going inside the restaurant/bar and I say I will join them and ‘buy a round’ of drinks.

A street represents a life path, walking across it signifies that one is changing the way they have done their life path up to this point. You are not quite running, but you are definitely staying to the shadows, and it is night. Not quit running suggests you may be fearing something about this life change.

To me it is curious that you are staying to the shadows, because shadows show themselves mainly during daylight, and they are an illusion of form. But these shadows (assuming from streetlights or the like) give you comfort from not being seen. My question/s would be how do you see yourself now that you have created this change in your life? And what are you avoiding perhaps, due to this change in your life? Staying to the shadows implies that there is a sense of needing to be either prudent about the change or perhaps you need to revisit some of the options you made for this change.

You go to the back of the building and have a cigarette, even though you don’t smoke. Smoking in a dream often implies feeling stressed, and going to the back of the building implies trying to hide something (either from yourself or another). It also carries implications to watch for high blood pressure.

Seeing family members can mean many things. They can represent themselves or something about you. I know that your parents have passed, so when we dream of parents who have crossed over (like you have done on the street, and in your new life) it is asking us to let go of a way we see ourselves and learn to ‘parent’ ourselves in a new way. They are with your brother. What was your relationship with your brother? What is one word you would use to describe your brother? That’s a clue for you. Is the interaction a pleasant one, are you glad to see him, is there a dispute you have had with him….what is your connection in one word.

They are going inside a restaurant. Restaurants, like families can suggest nurturing. But if the restaurant is not good, or the family wasn’t supportive, or possibly even distant, it says something about a conflict within yourself that you might need to change, address, and/or nurture within yourself moving forward. You offer to buy them a drink. This appears like you wish to celebrate something or toast something. Maybe about what it has taken you to change your course and release stress from your world? To drink something in a dream (and you didn’t say what, which also carries a symbology) represents the ability to take in a new idea or implement a new concept.

I don’t remember what happens in there but as I’m leaving the building the “government or police” arrest me for smoking. I’m put with a bunch of people waiting to be executed/hung for their crimes. I say to one that I can’t believe this is really going to happen and she says that they don’t go ‘all the way through with it’ (meaning executing people).

You don’t remember, which could suggest that you don’t know the new way to fully implement this new life. Also I have suggested in other blog posts, that other people in the dream represent themselves as well as aspects of our self. The police and government imply monitoring agents; they suggest there are new rules and regulations that you need to implement in your life now. They also suggest that some aspect within you is putting stress in the form of ‘rules’ about something in regards to this change. It would be good to take some time and think on what that might be.

The ‘bunch of people’ waiting to be executed are perhaps aspects of yourself that that are ‘dying’ to an old way of doing things, i.e. your life as you once did it. There is a part of you though (the woman), who knows that we really don’t need to let go of all aspects of our self if we do not wish to, it is merely a metaphor of how we speak of our self and are heard in the world now….especially if your past job was one where you spoke, lectured, taught, or counseled because hanging implies the throat chakra and voice.

My phone is there and I put it down. Next thing I know we (criminals) are being taken out and I see others outside waiting with black veils on their heads and faces. I realize they are the family members of others and are ready to be in mourning because we are going to die. I’m mad that I didn’t make a call to my roommate to feed and take care of my cat (I haven’t had a roommate in over a year in waking life)

You put your phone down. Phones are access of communication to the outer world. You have put aside how you communicate with the outer world, and decide how to do that perhaps differently in your life now. Criminal from the Latin root means “to decide.” Deciding how, when, and what you wish to do, is all yours.

The others are wearing black veils on their heads and faces. Black on the Wisdom Wheel is about going within, listening to one’s inner guidance, and finding one’s own source of truth moving forward. These are the most important symbols in this dream as I see it, because it gives you the direction you need to go, within “to decide” how you wish to proceed. The family they represent, is the new ‘inner family’ you are formulating now that you are “parenting” yourself to take a new direction.

The old is dying away, but you know that death is simply transformation to another awareness. Some part of you, subconsciously, is mourning the old you, or old position, as you redefine your new life. This could be as simple as the day-to-day time/structure of your life having changed, to the location you lived and worked that you once knew so well.

Your roommate is you, the one that lives within your psyche and the cat (in dreams) represents intuition and mystery….which we get to fully tap when we are in the ‘black position’ on the Wheel, because we now have the time to explore another part of our selves that needs voice.

We go down a dirt path to where I see 3 stumps with a large ax and some hanging rope near them. Each stump has a circle of dried blood in the center. Right before we reached the location a woman (prisoner) says to me “You don’t want to be in the front with the smokers’ – which of course I am (ugh)

I could interpret a dirt path in two ways, and would need to ask you more questions to assess which interpretation might be right for you. Dirt is needed to seed something, and it is already laid out in path which means the direction is there for you, to release the old and grow something new. But again there is a need for prudence, because not all seeds planted take in dirt. The other way it can be interpreted is that a dirt road can portend a possible struggle, and you may be encountering that internally by the way you are fearing punishment ahead.

A stump represents the ‘tree’ is no longer what it once was. The Tree Of Life, symbolizes our life’s path in many forms, and this stump appears to signify that you do not feel the lushness of the growth of the tree anymore.

Three (3) on the Wheel symbolizes “regulating and refining.” It has to do with new ideas and impressions; reorganization of our behavior; discipline, growth, precision and commitment. To what? Your new life. How will you enhance your life source energy? What will you choose to do? 

Dried blood may signify that you feel a lack of life force energy, but it is in a circle, and circles represent eternity. You are in the front of the line. This new path and the seeds you plant are entirely up to you; this is a new beginning.

I am able to wake myself at this point with heart racing. In waking, I realize I kept thinking all along that I would be hanged, but actually would have had my head chopped off. I fell back asleep and was back in this place in some hazy way, but it’s not clear. Finally woke exhausted (and late, of course)

When we wake up sharply like that, with a start, or our heart racing, or a jolt, it is our Higher Self, the most conscious part of our being, trying to make sure “we got the memo.”

Believe it or not, beheading in dreams represents personal freedom. Why? Because the head and mental body that defines often how and what we should do, is severed from the body and the pleasure centers that desire. Thus you are not relegated to any one else’s systems, time-lines, or rules, other than creating your own script.

Death becomes your liberation here, not as a reality, but as a new beginning from the old way you did your life for so many years; it offers you new freedoms and explorations. The dream does ask you to review where you may still feel connected to a past definition of yourself that no longer serves the new life you can embrace, as it has ‘your heart racing’. Although, the liberation to plant new seeds and discover whatever brings you to a celebration of your new life, is right there too. Salute!!!
Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Nothing is only Black or White

Today is Thanksgiving in the US, a day set aside for gratitude, family, friends, and the bounty of what the Earth offers us, and the generosity of what those First Nations People, the Wampanoag, offered those first refugees of religious freedom. Our country from the very first landing of those ships, was based on refugees looking for a better way of life, for themselves, and their children. We are at our best when we keep that in mind, as our global situation–where all colors and creeds are forced into situations where they become refugees–to be cognizant of what those Pilgrims really were, and remember the assistance to their survival that those they did not know, the Wampanoag, offered them.

Why state all that in a dream blog? Because the Pilgrims dreamed big to find a place to celebrate their religious beliefs. And the Native People dreamed big to step outside of fear of strangers and instead encourage, teach, and welcome these refugees. And our dreams are big opportunities that show us, life and choices is neither black nor white; and between the two often lies sacrifice, trust, and new beginnings to change old ways. This dreamer’s, dream brings this to mind.

The Dream: This was a long dream, and I don’t remember anything else but this fragment. I don’t know if it is enough for you to decode, but I thought to send it along.

I am looking in lots, and lots of rooms for something, or someone. I go into one room that is very sunny and I see a tiny black puppy all alone. I don’t want to leave it there alone, but I also know I can’t take it with me because I travel so much. I go into another room and see a small white puppy, exactly the same size and breed as the black one, only this one is with its mother, so it is easier to leave it there. 

The scene changes and becomes almost cartoon-like. There is a big game going on, and Tom Brady is yelling at everyone to be aware of something. I wake up.


Aside: even one sentence, or perhaps if you title your dream…even if you just have a feeling about the dream. These can all be decoded, because they are simply your dream-self giving you clues to something that needs to be addressed, uncovered, discovered or released.

I am looking in lots, and lots of rooms for something, or someone.

The dreamer is on a search for something, possibly someone (their inner knowing) that can inform them of a turn they need to explore on their path. Searching enables one to transform, or to awaken to something they have been denying or ignoring. Lots and lots of rooms signifies that they need to search all levels of themselves: physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, whatever domain they can explore, that may trigger awareness for a growth process.

I go into one room that is very sunny and I see a tiny black puppy all alone. I don’t want to leave it there alone, but I also know I can’t take it with me because I travel so much.

There is a place within the dreamer that is trying to light her way forward. The lit room represents a clear situation she must look at, or that might prove brighter or clearer for her growth should she explore it further. There is a tiny black puppy. Puppies signify a dog that still needs to mature. Black on the Wisdom Wheel (as Gram Twylah taught me), signifies listening to yourself, sound, harmony, the balance of one’s truth (which is never simply black or white). It’s adversary is anxiety, because anxiety triggers us into a vibration where we often can’t hear the truth, or listen to our Higher self’s caution/s. 

Dogs are about loyalty, pursuit, and how to play while holding a profession. I would assess that because the dreamer travels so much, that she doesn’t have enough time to play. No down time. Something is trying to light-up that fact within her (all the rooms represent all the places within her). She feels she cannot take the time to play, and be loyal to her own needs, and leaves that truth (the black puppy) behind. She is not listening to herself.

I go into another room and see a small white puppy, exactly the same size and breed as the black one, only this one is with its mother, so it is easier to leave it there. 

She is given another perspective. Same size, same breed, different color. This one is white, and it seems it may be easier for her to nurture this aspect of herself in the immediate, because “the mother is there.”

A couple of observations. First, on the Wisdom Wheels, black falls opposite white. White represents magnetism, boundaries, sharing, and release. In order to work one side of the wheel (in this case, her inner ‘black’ desires) , one must approach from the opposite side. So she needs to nurture herself to create better boundaries in her work, while also magnetizing that which she needs to grow and that which she needs to release (‘white puppy’).  Sharing with others is not fulfilling if we cannot share with our self, our own self needs. She needs to create a strategy to bridge the two ‘puppies’ to be loyal to herself.

The scene changes and becomes almost cartoon-like. There is a big game going on, and Tom Brady is yelling at everyone to be aware of something. I wake up.

A scene shift in the dream-time often is our dreaming selves way of trying to impart the message again. In this case it is cartoon-like, making the dreamer curious because for her to note that, suggests it caught her attention. 

There is a big game going on…yes the ‘game’ of her life. Tom Brady (for those of you who are not sports fans or from New England), is the quarter-back of the Patriot’s. The quarter-back is the central figure on the field, he controls the plays. This represents the part of her Self that not only wants her to play more, but who needs to gain control with how she has been addressing her life to create more balance.

And, the ‘patriot’s’ represent having the courage to do something different, possibly something that others won’t back. Maybe travel less, maybe have more spontaneous fun, maybe take time to meditate to listen to herself needs, maybe creating boundaries with others usurping her time….it could be many things, and that is for the dreamer to decide. BUT, Tom (her inner personal quarter-back) is yelling “to be aware.” Aware of her needs so she has the ability to control them, instead of them controlling her.

Thank you dreamer for sharing…….and Happy Thanks that life is not simply black and white.

 

llama Memories

What if dreams and your waking state are both reality, merely from an alternative observation point, or perhaps from a different time line? In the waking state, your focus moves from your outer world as you interpret what is happening in your daily actions, through your inner world’s understanding and comparisons, adding to what you know, or perhaps how you wish to react.  The dreamstate on the other hand, contains messages from your inner world, and once awake, need to be processed through your outer world, your conscious state, to get the most benefit from what your Soul is trying to share with you. 

Our dream worlds are actually a higher level of our existence and value, and yet we often treat them as a distraction at best, or worse as something to be ignored and forgotten. In so doing we miss a huge part of who we are, and the information we hold within ourselves to move forward with less stress. 

When our subconscious and higher conscious aspects want us to stop ignoring cues imparted in our dreamstate, then we are often triggered by something in our awake state to remind us of  something we have yet uncovered.

I wasn’t able to find an entry in my dream journal about the white llama, but I can recall a specific scene of a dream which was triggered by the white llama we encountered on the path at the end of the trail at Machu Picchu.

THE DREAM:
In the dream, I was hiking along steep and rocky trails much like the ones we were on in Peru. I remember I was with a small group and initially I was hesitant about our route. As we kept walking, we came upon a white llama and its companions. Now the others in the group were more hesitant. They did not want to go further out of fear, despite the herd appearing very docile and doing nothing but feeding upon the grass. I felt that it was important for us to go on and so I stepped forward towards the llama and she and I exchanged gazes. After a few moments, we compromise and share the road. It was as if we came to an understanding, acknowledging one another’s presence and honoring that presence. The llama walks past my right closer to the rocky ledge as I am given the safer passage on the left. Both our groups have now passed one another on the road and I look back at the llama and her group one last time with deep-felt gratitude beyond a simple “thank you.”

In the dream, I was hiking along steep and rocky trails much like the ones we were on in Peru. I remember I was with a small group and initially I was hesitant about our route.

This implies the dreamer feels that she has some tough or rocky challenges ahead, as she moves towards something in her life she wants for herself. She is with others, but she is hesitant about the route. The others could be parts of herself that wish to take a different path, or perhaps people in her life that she is currently friends with, that don’t understand the path she is taking.

As we kept walking, we came upon a white llama and its companions. Now the others in the group were more hesitant.

She keeps forging ahead, when they come upon a white llama and its herd. White animals in waking or sleeping life indicate a message from Spirit. Llamas often imply the strength that comes through awareness, or the endurance it takes to get to that awareness. This would parallel the steep and rocky path, also indicating there needs to be a level of awareness and caution to traverse the direction being taken, without mishap.

Llamas are burden carriers, so I would ask the dreamer in lieu of the group she hangs out with, or perhaps the job she has, if she carries alot of the burden and responsibility, of doing her own thing, without support. There needs to be balance both on the path and in regards to the endurance she uses with others to succeed in getting where she wants. Llamas have the ability to adapt to many situations, as does she. 

This could also signify that there are those in her crowd of friends that are taking advantage of her. Why: Llamas in the South American tradition are somewhat akin to the buffalo in Native American tradition; they represent Mother Earth, offer their love by giving everything of themselves so the people may live, and they care for the ‘herd’ at large. So there also needs to boundaries established, as evidenced by the color white.  In this regard, her biggest focus needs to be on herself.

Now the others in the group were more hesitant. They did not want to go further out of fear, despite the herd appearing very docile and doing nothing but feeding upon the grass. I felt that it was important for us to go on and so I stepped forward towards the llama and she and I exchanged gazes.

Others in her group are hesitant to face the challenges that she is willing to face. They are fearful of the changes and the challenges it will take to move forward, both of which are needed in life to grow.

The llamas here are docile and feeding on grass. What an animal is doing in a dream is very important to the context. Grazing docile animals signify that peace and calm can come, but it also could imply that we are not stretching toward our goal, which inevitably could bring greater peace and calm to our life. Green is about growing in the direction of change that you wish to experience.

In general an animal’s state in the dreamtime can tell us something about our  own attitude. I would ask the dreamer what she is being docile about in attaining something she wishes to change on her own path, either because it goes against the ‘herd’, or perhaps because it is easier to go along with the crowd at points. Here is also where she makes a decision to claim herself, as she decides it is important to move forward, despite their fear, or her own. 

She and the llama gaze at each other. Gazing implies they look into each others eyes. Eyes indicate the gateway to the soul. At a soul level the dreamer knows her instincts and desires are to keep moving, growing, exploring and changing, even if that risks not being fully understood.

After a few moments, we compromise and share the road. It was as if we came to an understanding, acknowledging one another’s presence and honoring that presence. The llama walks past my right closer to the rocky ledge as I am given the safer passage on the left.

There is part of the dreamer that knows she can find an inner compromise to follow her route forward in life. Not everything has to be hard and challenging to be sincere and validating. The llama walks on the right, closer to the rocky edge, giving her safe passage on the left. The part of her that wants peace and awareness is willing to logically (right-side) risk the edge; allowing the part of her that still needs to feel nurtured (the left-side), to trust her intuition on what is the best route for her to take to accomplish her goal/s. The compromise is a good one because it serves two purposes–forward movement, in a safe and calm direction.

Both our groups have now passed one another on the road and I look back at the llama and her group one last time with deep-felt gratitude beyond a simple “thank you.”

The dreamer has gotten her soul’s message; she can be full of gratitude that the path ahead may sometimes appear rocky or steep, but that there are ways for her to move toward her ultimate goal without it feeling like a burden. To feel comfortable that sometimes her desires will take her ‘away’ from her herd temporarily, but that there will also be other groups that she will find kinship with along the path.

Thank you dreamer

 

Let Me In

Ernest Hoffman, director of the Sleep Disorders Center at Newton-Wellesley Hospital in Massachusetts, suggested in ​a 2006 Scientific American article that “…a possible (though certainly not proven) function of a dream is to be weaving new material into the memory system in a way that both reduces emotional arousal and is adaptive in helping us cope with further trauma or past stressful events.”

When learning how to “listen” to the dreamers cadence and dream imagery, Gram Twylah suggested that the dream becomes an important therapeutic emotional security mechanism of the dreamer because they are stimulated to make connections between different thoughts and emotions in a safe environment (the dream).

Robert Moss, a well known dream author, postulates that “dreams are an experience into our alternate lives.” This concept is talked about at great length by a theoretical physicist named Michio Kaku in his book called, Parallel Universes. If this theory is true, then it stands to reason that we can be shown alternate images of our self, when we are ready to explore parts of our Greater Self , that might have been left behind, or not recognized/realized at all due to our childhood situation/s.

The dream offers a way for those parts of our Self to become known to us, when we are ready to explore them more actively, or embrace their potency more freely. I believe this is what this dreamer is wrestling with in the following dream.

THE DREAM:

I am in a house and the glass doors are open and there is a breeze. There is a young child with blond hair, may 4 years old. I am coloring my hair and I am about to rinse it out when I realize I have maybe 25 min before rinsing it out. The little girl wants to come into the house, but I am not ready and I want more time to be alone. The little girl goes and gets a woman and they try to get inside the house, but I am ahead of them and I close the door and lock it with a black wrought iron beautiful lock. I run to the different windows and doors so they won’t get in. It feels like they are taunting me to get in. I locked or closed everything I could. Only one door remained unlocked because I knew they were gone and I was safe.

I am in a house and the glass doors are open and there is a breeze.

Again dream symbology is both metaphoric and individual. I cannot stress this enough in my blogs. That said, houses often represent the physical body. Glass doors signify a need for a sense of openness, clarity, and a way to see past old obstructions.

Doors can be seen as a passage ways into a new phase, or level of consciousness. In a way they represent an ‘invitation.’ It is open and there is a breeze, which means that the dreamer wants to be open to something new, and the breeze is an indication of movement. It is not a howling wind, or a still-point. The breeze suggests this can be an inviting, easy, gentle opportunity.

There is a young child with blond hair, may 4 years old. I am coloring my hair and I am about to rinse it out when I realize I have maybe 25 min before rinsing it out.

Here I would ask the dreamer what happened around 4 years old in her life?  Little girls in dreams can mean happier times. They can also suggest there were fewer burdens at that time, or alternatively express a need to release burdens felt at that time. The blonde hair signifies a need to enjoy life or lighten up. Four (4) on the Wisdom Wheel is significant in terms of observing where you might be holding your self back from these experiences and learning to look at the past in a new , fresher way.

The dreamer is coloring her hair. The color and style or condition of the hair in a dream represents one’s thought process. Hair length in many traditions: Native, Samurai, Hawaiian, can signify your power. Coloring one’s hair means you wish to experience a change in how you are thinking about something, or the ideals you are currently living that may be holding you from a more empowered state of being. The dreamer does not state the color she is dying her hair, but I would ask her that in follow up questions as we decoded, as each color signifies what she is thinking or feeling.

She is also rinsing the dye (the change needed) out, which suggests that the changes or awareness she is awakening to is ready to take place, but she is not quite there yet. She has 25 minutes. So if I were to look at that numerologically, or even using the significator of the major arcane of the tarot, I would suggest two things. On the Wisdom Wheel, 2+5=7. The placement of 7 is about overcoming past injustices, and discovering where we place obstacles in the way of loving our self. The Chariot in the tarot signifies self generation, movement, moving toward a higher goal, but often that forward direction comes in fits and starts. Cheiro, a famous seer, as well as a palmist of the late 1800’s early 1900’s, gave an explanation of the vibration of the number 25, as a “frequency denoting strength gained through experience.”

The little girl wants to come into the house, but I am not ready and I want more time to be alone. The little girl goes and gets a woman and they try to get inside the house, but I am ahead of them and I close the door and lock it with a black wrought iron beautiful lock.

This aspect of the dreamer (the little blonde haired girl), is someone who is lighter, fun, possibly more trusting, and definitely more willing to help the dreamer empower her self moving forward. She is ready to return, but the dreamer still doesn’t trust this part of her inner pantheon. The dreamer still feels she is not ready; she still needs time. So the little girl gets an older woman. I see this alternate older woman, as the part of this adult woman dreamer; a part who wants to encourage the dreamer to let this little girl access for fresh experiences. She can add measure to the dreamer’s life. The little girl, knows she needs a higher authority for the adult dreamer to trust. They both try to get in, they wish to support the growth and experiences the dreamer has worked through.

Look what the dreamer does. She runs around locking all the doors and windows. There is a new direction in life that the dreamer is blocking, and further she locks the passageways towards a new path (door) and the awareness of her soul (windows), hence exposing her confusion and uncertainty to accept all the changes she has worked towards.

It’s a big black wrought iron “beautiful” lock. The block is a big one for the dreamer to overcome. It’s wrought iron, which says it’s a strong block, or a huge lack of self trust. It is black, which on the Wheel signifies she is not listening to herself (the aspects of the little girl and the woman). Although the choice is always our own, we can miss our soul’s opportunity for change, change we’ve spent years working towards under the illusion that it “beautiful and safe” to stay the way we are.

It feels like they are taunting me to get in. I locked or closed everything I could. Only one door remained unlocked because I knew they were gone and I was safe.

And here we have the illusion that the dream is trying to expose to herself through this dream. Yes, they are taunting her, because it is time to explore this part of her self. Even if she doesn’t know how to do that fully, intentionally dialoguing with them, or meditating with them, or being conscious of how they crop up in different scenarios in her waking life, will give her more information about herself. 

Gratefully she has left one door open, showing she is coming to a place where she will feel safe to be able to accept and trust these new ‘feelings’ and emotions that the little girl and the woman represent. They are not gone, that is an illusion. They simply receded to a place (her unconscious or subconscious), where they wouldn’t frighten her. They will be back, in other forms, through other symbols, in other dreams. And she will not experience ‘safe’ through how her past may still wish to control her emotions, until she allows them to enter her reality. It is what she has been working towards. It’s all in the timing.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Time for Transmutation

There is a difference between transformation and transmutation.  Transformation is essential to transmutation, but transmutation is deeper. Transformation is to change something, to shape shift or alter its essence, but the core remains. Transmutation is to become totally different, to shed what once was, on the deepest most known/unknown  levels of oneself. Like the snake shedding its skin, it changes the state of your very nature; you are renewed. The alchemy of turning lead into gold, explains the depth of the change and the ability for others to witness something uniquely different from what was.

This dreamer speak of anacondas, a large type of snake. I want to spend some time on this mythological symbol because of its many representations throughout many civilizations.

In many cultures, snakes are one of the oldest image representations used in ritual or as totems. They signify fertility, creation, healing, rebirth, and life force energy. In the Andean tradition, the anaconda is used to represent the Ukhu Pacha, the lower world; it is also the great snake of the jungles of the Amazon. When an anaconda strikes it crushes its victim, loosing one’s breath and its life force, it is then swallowed. Loosely, like the kundalini energy, the amaru or anaconda is metaphorically used in one part of the teachings as a force raised from the Earth, up our backbone and over the top of our heads, to signify our ability to cleanse and heighten our personal power.  For this to happen, we need to transmute the densest parts of ourselves to raise that energy in accountable, light encoded, and meaningful ways.

The Hopi have an annual snake dance that is used to unite the sky spirits and the underworld spirits, for renewal and fertility. The Crete statues of the Snake Goddess were representatives of the guardians of renewal and rebirth. Snake goddesses would tolerate many snake bites so they could learn to transmute the poison of the bite and go into trance. In Hinduism, snake is the coiled kundalini energy of desire, that sits at the base of the spine, and which one uses to transcend past base desires. The Ouroboros, the symbol of eternity, is represented by two snakes holding each others tail. Moses used the snake staff against pharaoh’s priests to show God’s power.  In the Egyptian pantheon it was the staff of Thoth which held with two serpents coiled around its length, that later became the symbol for medical personnel, or a place of healing.  Snakes sat above the head of Buddha when he became realized. The Aztec and Maya saw snake as representing wisdom, power, and life force energy.

Gram Twylah described snake as the totem of transmutation. Snake knew everything happening on Mother Earth because its belly ran across her skin, and hence snake could feel all her vibrations. Snake also renews itself by shedding its old skin and replacing it with something new. She explained that snake medicine is hard to balance. Snakes can release poison that bring demise, signifying that unbalanced psychic and sexual powers can affect us mentally, spiritually or emotionally, as well as signifying that they have the ability to bring us to ascension. Hence the snake in the Garden of Eden was not evil, as much as it symbolized offering personal power and wisdom, that needed to be modulated and not abused.      

On to the dream: 

My Dream:

I was in the living room of my great aunt (Audrey) and uncle’s (Donald) home sitting on my knees on a square ottoman that was covered in yellow cloth.  There were other square ottomans all over the room covered in yellow cloth.  I was facing a single window on the left and a single door on the right.  The walls were white and it was bright in the room.
I knew there was something on the wood floor.  At first I thought it was a bone.  Then I leaned over and saw this small black looking wiggling worm.  When I straightened up on the ottoman, the room had changed.

The room had changed to a jungle and was dark and humid.  The walls had disappeared but the outline of the room, window, and door was still visible and the jungle extended past the outline of the room.  I was still sitting on the ottoman and there were 7 anacondas around me.  To get a feel for the size, wrap your arms around yourself and take the circumference.  They were in front of me and spaced out around me like the spines of an open handheld fan a lady would use to cool herself in the summer heat.  Their heads were up close and personal to me and their bodies stretched out passed the outline of the room.  I wasn’t afraid.

The 3 on my left were mostly in the dark. I could barely see them.  The one directly in front of me and the one that was larger than the others appeared to be shedding its skin and was directly in the doorway.  The 3 on the right of me were in full light.  I looked intently at the one closest to me just to my right and said “ha ha you can’t get me” and it opened its eye.  I woke up.

I laughed nervously to myself and thought “that snake could have had you for lunch”.

Please remember, all dreams are open to decoding, but the one who knows best what the dream is trying to bring up for consideration from the unconscious, is the dreamer. What is helpful about sharing one’s dream, is getting another perspective that you might not have considered, or because you have limited yourself from looking deeper at the issue because the change is uncomfortable.

I was in the living room of my great aunt (Audrey) and uncle’s (Donald) home sitting on my knees on a square ottoman that was covered in yellow cloth.  There were other square ottomans all over the room covered in yellow cloth.  I was facing a single window on the left and a single door on the right.  The walls were white and it was bright in the room.

Every room in the house represents something. in the dreamer’s mind. A living room represents literally “where you live” inside yourself.  Here the dreamer is at Audrey & Donald’s, her aunt and uncle, representing that she is removed from something within herself, because it is not her living room.  Loosely Audrey means strong and Donald means mighty or chief. I interpret this as the parts of her that are strong and mighty are trying to get her attention.

She however, is sitting on an ottoman, which signifies avoidance, preoccupation or resting and not doing anything about a situation which she hasn’t addressed. There are ottomans all over the room, signifying she has filled her space with ways to procrastinate and not to look at what needs to be addressed, and it has brought her to her knees. You look to the color of the cloth that is covering the ottomans, and it is yellow. Yellow on the Wisdom Wheels (the way Gram Twy taught) represents overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of us loving ourselves, and learning the injustices others impose on us that pull on our energy and support.

She is facing a window on the left. Windows are for viewing. Windows are doorways to the soul and the left side is the heart side, the deep feminine creative, intuitive, magical side.  There is a door on the right. Doors are for leaving or coming in; they can represent renewal or freedom. On the right, they signify the logic, discipline, and focus this dreamer might need to apply to find renewal or freedom. The room is white and bright. I would suggest something is trying to en-“lighten” her and that white on the Wisdom Wheel is about boundaries that need to be established. Magnetizing the people, places and things to one’s life to live more fully and feel freed from some burden; as well as removing in more boundaried ways the people, places and things that are drawing her away from herself and her own needs.

I knew there was something on the wood floor.  At first I thought it was a bone.  Then I leaned over and saw this small black looking wiggling worm.  When I straightened up on the ottoman, the room had changed.

Wood floors suggests something at her foundation has atrophied; that one feels down to their very foundation, emotionless and dead inside.  Bones have many meanings in dreams–getting back to the ‘bear bones’, or basics of something; uncovering family secrets or manipulations; something weak or broken; something ingrained deeply in you; and issues that affect you down to the marrow or the essence of your life.

Worms are wonderful creature, they aerate the soil so that things grow. People often find them yucky when the rains wash them up from the depths of the ground. But that’s an important symbol in this dream of buried or invalidated needs, that for this individual’s optimal growth are required to be brought to the surface (named) through rains, deep emotions, to find personal growth. Black on the Wheels is about listening to yourself and being sensitive to your own rhythms, choosing things in life that apply to your own needs and not everyone else’s. And, when the dreamer does that, the room (the situation or impact of how she has been living her life), changes.

The room had changed to a jungle and was dark and humid.  The walls had disappeared but the outline of the room, window, and door was still visible and the jungle extended past the outline of the room.  I was still sitting on the ottoman and there were 7 anacondas around me.  To get a feel for the size, wrap your arms around yourself and take the circumference.  They were in front of me and spaced out around me like the spines of an open handheld fan a lady would use to cool herself in the summer heat.  Their heads were up close and personal to me and their bodies stretched out passed the outline of the room.  I wasn’t afraid.

Jungles in dreams show the state of where this dreamer goes in her mind. Her emotions can get jangled and go both dark and hot. The walls, door, and window, although visible do not give her the benefit of either form or protection, there is no solidity as both visions overlap.  Jungles are full of lushness, life, healing herbs, and suggest the wild, passionate nature of ourselves. My sense is that the dreamer feels jangled at this time in her life, and is desperate to open her mind to finding what will heal her entanglements and make her passionate about life again. She is still sitting on the ottoman, procrastinating about making the choices that will help her embody the life she wants.

However now there are 7 anacondas around her. Seven (7) on the Wheel again is represented by the frequency of yellow, so her inner dream self is choosing a different approach to get the message across again that she is not defining her space by letting others take advantage of her, which equates to not loving herself.  Seven (7) in the tarot is the Chariot card, the direction the High Priestess needs to walk towards to balance herself. It is about self-generation, and often suggests fits and starts, but ultimately requires movement for change. Seven (7) in numerology is the vibration of “the seeker in search of the truth;” the truth we have hidden from our self with the illusions we use to justify not living our truth.

In other words, once she acknowledges the issue that is squeezing her life, and pressing on her (anaconda), and the excuses she has used not to speak to how it is affecting her life force, regeneration and healing (the ottoman), she will then need to do something about it, despite how others may accuse her of being unjust. Anaconda, as I said earlier is about stepping back into her personal power and away from those who live off it.

I love her image of the 7 of them appearing like the spines of a lady’s hand-held fan. Their ‘spines’ represent her needing the backbone to speak her truth. A hand held fan, suggests she has the power in her own hands to do something about this. A fan is something one uses to ‘move the air’….movement and air; a new direction and breath; changing what is needed for renewal of her life and personal power. Their heads are up “in her face.” It is past time for transmuting something deep that she as agreed to, and their tails take her outside the room/box she finds herself in. By her own admission she is not afraid, a deep part of her knows this must be done.

The 3 on my left were mostly in the dark. I could barely see them.  The one directly in front of me and the one that was larger than the others appeared to be shedding its skin and was directly in the doorway.  The 3 on the right of me were in full light.  I looked intently at the one closest to me just to my right and said “ha ha you can’t get me” and it opened its eye.  I woke up.

There are three anacondas on the left, diffused in the dark, or possibly something that is hard for the dreamer to see and acknowledge, as it might be better left hidden or unacknowledged (but not in her best interest). Three not only represents the vibration of change, it signifies regulating and refining your life to better live your truth (Wisdom Wheel). It takes discipline to change what you know is affecting you, but change’s promise growth and illumination. In the tarot it represents the Empress. This begs the questions, How do you nurture yourself?  How were you mothered? How do you mother yourself? The upside of the Empress is she is creative and flows with the needs of others; the down side of the Empress (as show on her card in the Thoth deck), is she pulls out the blood (life source energy) from her own heart to feed everyone else. There’s a message in that.

The one in the doorway, (the way out to personal freedom), is literally the largest, directly infront of her (fully getting her attention) and shedding it’s skin. It is so ready to transmute these pressures and be in the full light and its empowered self. The three in the light suggest this will take some discipline for her to organize, but logically she already knows it is her only way out to a more fulfilled, and happier life, one that is fully her own to live.

She still seems to be in denial of what she needs to do, as she says to the one in the light (something obvious and not hidden) on her right (it will take discipline, but it is a logical move), that is close to her (ready to help her change), “ha ha, you can’t get me.” It opens its eye. Again, like windows, eyes are doorways’ to the soul. This majestic, symbol of healing, life force, renewed personal power, looks her right in the eye and she wakes up. You can’t deny the direct challenge of that look.

When we wake up from a dream that has such deep imagery, it’s our Higher Self wanting us to really ‘get’ that if we don’t do something about our situation, then changes will be done for us, because that is not the way our path wants us to move forward. Her path clearly wants her to actively stop denying or procrastinating what needs to be done. To be able to create boundaries with the obstacles people have unjustly thrust upon her, and which she has held as an illusion that it is her job to support. For that transformation to take place she must be willing to love herself enough to put herself first, by having the strength to stop others that prey on her personal power.

I laughed nervously to myself and thought “that snake could have had you for lunch”. 

Those parts of yourself encouraging you to take a stand, will have you for lunch, if you prolong what you know needs to change. Said in light and love.

Thank you dreamer for sharing.