Consciousness, a gift

Yesterday was July 22nd and the celebration of Mary Magdalene, a woman who has been maligned, lied about, believed by many to be a whore redeemed by Christ, and many other things that she was not. Miriam of Magdala was a wise, learned, wealthy woman in her own rite, that came to be a supporter of The Way, Apostle to the apostles, and as some research shows, the wife of the Christ in the true act of the Hieros Gamos. 

I had intended to post this dream yesterday, but a family situation took precedence, as family over work should. I chose this dream, as you will see, because it is the first ‘holy’ dream I have been sent by a dreamer, and I thought the date and the dream coincided nicely.

Many people are having various signals, dreams, meditative or prayerful moments of alignment from the etheric realms with Jesus, the Mary’s, angels, and ascended masters these days. There has been an upsurge, possibly in answer to the times in which we find ourselves (so many being persecuted). Possibly  because enough people believe (not in a apocalyptic picture), but in one of a humanity finally awakened. And possibly even in a more refined, less dogmatic view of what Christ-consciousness is, aside from the more false rhetoric of those who push their uncompromising, false moralistic agendas. If I offend any readers in saying this, I do not apologize. 

I am a firm believer in the Christ energy, and in the life of Jesus who became the ‘Christ’ (profound conscious awareness), in the last three years of his life. I am also a believer that the supremacy of the ‘winners’ are the ones who get to write history. I think for those that research and have “eyes to see, and ears to hear” that there is a different story-line than the one that has been used to ‘guide and direct’ us, rather than to teach us the true nature of the light of Christ within ourselves, which is what I believe Jesus came to teach and sacrificed himself for, along with those that loved him.

I was sent an article by a friend in Wales, that I find very interesting to this premise. I am not sharing it to promote Rudolph Steiner, nor the Kabbalah, although I like the teachings of both. [See article at end of the dream.]

I was wondering if you could help me with a dream I had the other night?

The Dream:
In my dream I was driving with my friend who is also my hairdresser (and very spiritual). [Aside: I asked the dreamer the name of her hairdresser and one word to describe her. She said Monique, and the word ‘caring’ is what she would use.] When looking up at the sky it was cloudy and suddenly opened. As the sky opened Jesus came down on his cross, he had a lot of light around him and appeared to have a halo rainbow around him as well. I remember in my dream how beautiful we thought it was. He didn’t talk or say anything to me. Just dropped from sky. He didn’t fall on the ground.

The next day all I could think about was this dream. I was unsure if he was giving me a message or sign.

Another piece, I was calling to tell my sister about the dream, and in explaining it to her she mentioned her mother in law had same exact dream but in hers he played music that she had a hard time hearing.

I just find it very odd that both of us had similar dreams.

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In my dream I was driving with my friend who is also my hairdresser (and very spiritual). [Aside: I asked the dreamer the name of her hairdresser and one word to describe her. She said Monique, and the word ‘caring’ is what she would use.]

What I failed to ask the dreamer was who was driving. If the dreamer was driving, it would indicate that she is in control of her own life and the direction/s she wishes to take. If the friend was driving, it would indicate that the dreamer needs to be more ‘caring’ with herself, and/or the choices she makes moving forward. As I have suggested many times, the people in our dreams are who they represent, but also an aspect of our self.

I will assume (could be wrong), that her friend is driving, because she already suggests she is spiritual, and within the dream something significantly spiritual happens. I would read this as the dreamer’s  ‘Higher Self’ is driving this dream and is about to show her something very special. Even if the hairdresser were in the passenger seat, it is still an indication that some level of awareness from the spiritual realms is about to be offered.

Hairdressers are someone we all seem to speak freely to. Hair indicates vitality and a connection to psychic communication. In some cultures such as indigenous Native People and the Samurai of Japan, long hair was a sign of power and being in touch with the Earth energies. As such her hairdresser could be symbolic of the connection to communication of a higher nature, within herself.

Some say ‘hairdressers’ are someone who helps us change how we see ourselves (new do’s). Some teachings have said hairdresser symbolizes a healer or healing (occurring at the crown chakra). Others have suggested that hair is something that grows, and as such the dreamer may be about to ‘grow a new idea or perception.’ Monique means advisor or counselor, so this would fit.

When looking up at the sky it was cloudy and suddenly opened. As the sky opened Jesus came down on his cross, he had a lot of light around him and appeared to have a halo rainbow around him as well. I remember in my dream how beautiful we thought it was. He didn’t talk or say anything to me. Just dropped from sky. He didn’t fall on the ground.

The sky is initially cloudy. Something is either confusing the dreamer with a choice she has to make, or a new direction she wishes to go in. It suddenly opens up, a new perspective perhaps. There is an expansion of thought.

As the expansion of thought becomes available, Jesus comes down on a cross. This person suggested in her email that she was not religious per se, but a believer. Jesus not only symbolizes a light bearer to many around the world, but also a man full of the light of consciousness and unconditional love. My suggestion is with the expansion of light and self love comes consciousness, everything that the Christ wanted us to know is fully capable of experiencing within ourselves.

He is on the cross and surrounded by a halo and rainbow. This is a time period of not staying nailed to the cross of martyrdom and self flagellation; what purpose does that serve other than to keep us small and controlled by something/someone outside our self.  This is a time of ascension, and knowing that no person, no institution, no church can give us that. That was Christ’s message, “I do this so you know you can do it too.” When we embrace the thought that we are the light, that the light is us, and that we are all connected in that light As One, we understand his message.

Halo’s are symbols of enlightenment and divinity. Rainbows are seen as the many frequencies or vibrations (each color represents a different vibration) of connection between earth & sky; us and the divine within. Jesus is showing the dreamer what is within her, by his example. And, “That is beautiful.”

He doesn’t talk, he just let’s his light and presence be the teaching. There are no words for enlightenment and touching the divine within, it just is, it needs no explanation or justification. My belief is that he doesn’t drop to the ground, because he is no longer embodied in flesh and blood; he’s already completed that obligation. See article.

The next day all I could think about was this dream. I was unsure if he was giving me a message or sign.
Another piece, I was calling to tell my sister about the dream, and in explaining it to her she mentioned her mother in law had same exact dream but in hers he played music that she had a hard time hearing.
I just find it very odd that both of us had similar dreams.

Dreamer, I think it was the same. Whether you call it a message or a sign, Jesus wanted you to know you are capable, as are we all, of growing in consciousness and finding strength in faith. That you mother-in-law had the same dream, was a way for Him to show both you, and her, that the light is available to both of you, and the confirmation using a similar dream, was a message to both of you to pay attention. Interesting that Jesus spoke to her in the dream through music (sound-another frequency), and she has a hard time hearing.

Questions: What are you now capable of acknowledging that needs an enlightened change/choice in your life or that brings you into more alignment with who you are becoming? And, what does she (mother-in-law) need to acknowledge that she keeps out of reach for herself, by not ‘hearing’ a different perspective (from herself or other)?

Thank you dreamer for sharing. 

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Unpacking

Hello Dreamers,

Well June came and went with little time for me to blog. That didn’t mean I didn’t have time to literally and figuratively ‘unpack.’ Like all of you, I venture to still learn, discover, and witness myself in this crazy world we now occupy. And truth be told, even if it was a calm and peaceful world, I would still strive to explore my place in it.

I have been on two back-to-back journeys aimed at delving deeper and more persoanally into the Divine Feminine. Not for power over, but for equality of. One pilgrimage I co-lead with another teacher, working with astrology, psychology, and personal archetypes using the icons of Isis (Mother Mary), The Magdalene (Miriam of Magdala) and Lilith (the Black Madonna). The second was with a well known herstorian and writer exploring the Hieros Gamos, Cathar history, and the path of the Mary’s after the death of The Christ. Both were in the south of France. Both brought profound understanding and renewal.  My path/teaching content has wound full circle, as it was the path of the Feminine that started my feet through all the many cultures, stories, sacred sites, and awareness of humanity as One, that I have been blessed to explore these past 40 years. 

Why am I sharing that? Because whether you are a woman, or a man, we all need to unpack what holds us back from the profound knowledge, compassion, strength and creative spark that resides within us, once we learn to honor, transform and manifest our Divine Feminine, and co-create our own Hieros Gamos. 

I believe this dream is one person’s continued quest for that.

The dream:

I am in a big off-white room sitting in a room with lots of young women running around. I am sitting in a chair and a woman who I knew (can’t remember upon waking up) is standing behind me. She is sensing something. And I tell her the room just needs to be smudged or at least painted yellow. I asked her if she knew what smudging was and she said of course but she gave me a look and said but I am not sure about the young women. The room was to be a meeting place and everyone was there to fix/clean it up.

In the right corner there was an old dilapidated bureau. No one seemed to learn to fix it. I looked at it and said, it is only the veneer coming off, there will be another layer underneath. It will be fine. It just needs some paint and care. I can paint it blue. I look in the drawer as there are some tools. I pick up a wrapped screwdriver and I am really happy to find it. It has both kinds of tip. The woman I am with is looking at me and says, what are you going to do with that. I say it is a good screw driver, I can use it.

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I am in a big off-white room sitting with lots of young women running around. I am sitting in a chair and a woman who I knew (can’t remember upon waking up) is standing behind me. She is sensing something.

A big room signifies the dreamer is giving herself space to explore something. Big rooms suggest expanding consciousness around something-an understanding or knowing. [The rooms of a house or building are very important within a dream context-more on that another time.] There are lots of women running around. There are parts of herself that are looking for cohesiveness, but they are running around, not in alignment with each other and not focused.

Colors stimulate emotions; those emotions are based on our perceptions and ‘personal story.’ The room is off-white. White on the Wisdom Wheels stands for boundaries, sharing, magnetizing to ourselves the people, places and concepts that help us grow, and likewise removing from our life the people, places, and concepts that hold us back. White is a blank slate, a new start. Off-white however suggests something still needs to be cleaned up.

The dreamer is sitting in a chair, indicating she is ready to corral and listen to these parts of herself. There is a woman standing behind the dreamer who senses something. This is the unbridled, yet focused part of her self, the one not confined and limited to the past stories. She is sensing what needs to change, or come to light.

And I tell her the room just needs to be smudged or at least painted yellow. I asked her if she knew what smudging was and she said of course but she gave me a look and said but I am not sure about the young women. The room was to be a meeting place and everyone was there to fix/clean it up.

Intrinsically the Self (the dreamer) knows what needs to be done. She offers that the room needs to be smudged (which is a form of cleansing a space, as smudging collects the positive ions in an active area, and brings the space back to homeostasis); and “at least painted yellow.” Yellow on Wisdom Wheels (as I was taught by Grandmother Twylah Nitsch), signifies ‘overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of loving ourselves, as well as bringing justice, through forgiveness, to past hurts and injustices’. 

The dreamer knows she needs to clean up these feelings she still holds about herself from the past, and although the ‘sensing part of herself’ knows this to be true, neither are sure all the fragmented parts of herself (the other women all running around), will know how to integrate. This is her dilemma, integration of her sacred Divine Self. Every part of her has agreed to this ‘meeting within herself’ (as they are all in the room) and she has to fix this disconnect to feel solid.

In the right corner there was an old dilapidated bureau. No one seemed to learn to fix it. I looked at it and said, it is only the veneer coming off, there will be another layer underneath. It will be fine. It just needs some paint and care. I can paint it blue.

In the right corner there is an old dilapidated bureau. Corners ‘collect’ energy, in fact when smudging, it should be one of the first places in a room that you address. The right side of the body corresponds to the left brain. The right and left hemispheres of the brain each carry a function and specific traits. The left brain, (simply put) is about logical analysis, reasoning and attention to detail. These are the tools to look at our past, and put things in better perspective.

There is a dilapidated bureau, that no one seems to have learned how to fix. No one taught her what she needs to do to fix the feelings she is looking to either release or embody. A bureau ‘stores things’, and if we fail to clear our bureaus out once in a while, they collect old and out worn items that just take up space. metaphorically this symbol represents these thoughts about herself. However, she understands that the veneer is coming off-the old ways of thinking no longer serve her. She knows there is more under the surface of who she thought she was. This is the most important part of the dream, as she is acknowledging that she is more than meets the eye. 

Like the bureau , she needs a ‘change of color’ (perception), care (self-value) and self-love. There are things in the bureau that are worth keeping, and some that are not. This is what she needs to ‘unpack.’ This isn’t just a dream, it is a process.

She thinks to paint it blue. Blue on the wheels indicates understanding the difference between service and servitude, and trusting ones intuition as a growth factor.  This takes great care because not everything ‘we intuit’ is accurate, we must teach ourselves to know the difference between what we wish was, and what is.

I look in the drawer as there are some tools. I pick up a wrapped screwdriver and I am really happy to find it. It has both kinds of tip. The woman I am with is looking at me and says, what are you going to do with that. I say it is a good screw driver, I can use it.

Within the drawers she finds a screw driver and it has ‘both kinds of tips’. Two tips indicates the two sides of our self–the right & left brain; the divine feminine and masculine; the unloved and the loved; and the parts we need to assess or reassess to honor our truth.

A screw driver can unwind things, as well as secure things. This symbolically is a tool for her to use as she does her self-work and discovers new ways of looking at herself and her life. And will assist her to unwind or secure all old ways that need to be unpacked and released for her continued growth and happiness. She is on her way to another level; there are always other levels to explore.

Thank you dreamer.

Aside: I need more dreams for whomever is interested in sending me something. I will be doing another dream this month, but that will be the last one I have in my dream file. You can be anonymous if that is your preference, and just entitle the e-mail Dream. Thank you.

Vibrations Within Names & Colors

I chose this dream to explain a bit about how names and colors influence dream content, given their vibrational explanation/s. I draw on alot of Gram Twylah’s Wisdom Wheel psychology this month, even though I have done  a bit of that in past dream blog deciphering. I feel this dream is rich with how these meanings enhance the decoding of what the dreamer is trying to ‘tell’ herself. 

There are many interpretations to the Wisdom Wheels. On the simplest level, her teachings contained the Cycles of Truth (that we all must navigate as we live our Earthwalk), and the Pathway of Peace (that become our individual way of finding balance on that ‘walk’). 

The Dream:

I am in a familiar place and I am with Thomas, Ben, and Mary. I am preparing for something that begins with A but cant remember right now. I am very good at this and I need to show someone else what to do. People are milling around and I overhear that Mary and Thomas are going to the ashram for the week-end. I ask if there is room for me and they say Ben is going to maybe you can go with him. I ask Ben and he says fine. I ask if they had called accommodations to see if there was room. They asked if I could do that. I said I need to pack and it wont take long. I call accommodations and am waiting a while. I pass the phone to Mary and she waits for them to answer. I go to pack and I find my suitcase is full. I unpack and I open a door and I see that Gurumayi is sitting in a chair with her back to me giving darshan. She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. I close the door as not to disturb her. She says are you coming?

I am in a familiar place and I am with Thomas, Ben, and Mary. I am preparing for something that begins with A but cant remember right now.

Each of these people represent what they mean in waking life to the dreamer, but also an aspect about herself. She is in a familiar place, which with each of the names she list, could me she has come to an understanding of parts of herself.

Let’s take them one at a time and use some word play. Thomas: this is a part of her that doubts something, as in Doubting Thomas. Thomas also means ‘twin’. This suggests to me that there is a secondary part of the dreamer that may well know she is doubting something about herself, and trying to work past those feelings/thoughts to find a more secure base.

Ben is short for Benjamin or Benedict. It means ‘the son of’, and usually refers to ‘son of my right hand’ and courage. Here the dreamer is calling attention to the right hand/left brain. She needs to take charge of something in her personal life and logically, courageously figure out the part of herself that she is doubting denying or leaving hidden. 

Mary has many connotations. It has been a well used name biblically and historically. If we take the name from the Egyptian mry, it means loved or beloved. What aspect of herself does the dreamer need to work at loving? She is preparing to assimilate all of these clues to accomplish something that starts with an A, though upon waking she still hasn’t formulated what that is, or she would have awakened with an understanding of what she is preparing for. 

‘A’ is the first letter of the alphabet, as well as the first vowel (often labeled a capstone). And she has capitalized it in her dream description. In numerology it refers to courage, ambition, and being in charge. These are the significant adverbs she needs to utilize to uncover what she is trying to learn about herself.

I am very good at this and I need to show someone else what to do. People are milling around and I overhear that Mary and Thomas are going to the ashram for the week-end. I ask if there is room for me and they say Ben is going to maybe you can go with him. I ask Ben and he says fine.

The dreamer knows she has a talent she ‘hasn’t worn on her sleeve’ for others to see. In fact she probably still denies this part of her own talents and skills. The ‘red letter A’ was used to shame a literary character in the Scarlet Letter, perhaps, if we are still using word play, the dreamer feels ashamed to let others see this side strong part of herself?

There are other aspects of herself ‘milling around.’ These are the parts of herself that still judge her and possibly deny her courage and ambitions to be all she is. She overhears the struggle within between her ‘beloved self’ and her ‘doubting self’, who wish to go into the silence (the ashram) to find the balance of truth she holds within.

She petitions those parts of herself if there is ‘room’ for her in this realization, this place of self actualization, and the dream directs her to (Ben) logically think through where she denies herself, her love of self, or her sovereignty of purpose in this lifetime. Ben wants to help her, as he agrees he can direct her.

I ask if they had called accommodations to see if there was room. They asked if I could do that. I said I need to pack and it wont take long. I call accommodations and am waiting a while. I pass the phone to Mary and she waits for them to answer.

Ironically she is still looking to see if she can be accommodated in this inner search, through her outer world communication. They all encourage her to do this for herself. She needs to pack, although I would suggest she needs to ‘unpack’ some of the ways she looks at herself and/or feels about herself. She’s waiting on others to answer her call, when really she needs to allow the ‘beloved’ (Mary) in herself to communicate that.

I go to pack and I find my suitcase is full. I unpack and I open a door and I see that Gurumayi is sitting in a chair with her back to me giving darshan. She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. I close the door as not to disturb her. She says are you coming?

She goes to pack and finds her suitcase full. She needs to unpack her perceptions and beliefs, but has started the process. She has begun the ‘unpacking’ via the dream. She opens a door, signifying another way of going within or another way of letting something in.  A new awareness.

She sees Gurumayi sitting in a chair with her back to the dreamer giving darshan. This is very significant. Although Gurumayi is a spiritual teacher, she represents the spiritual teacher within this dreamer. At the level of One we are all spiritual teachers. We simply need to claim that knowingness within the context of our own life. So in her outer life, the dreamer still is seeking another person, leader, higher power to lead her to the  qualities of herself, when actually only the Self can tap that understanding and lay claim to all we are. This does not imply that we do not need mentors, guides, spiritual teachers, etc. along the way, but at some point we need to make the teachings our own.

Darshan is about receiving a blessing, which Gurumayi, the Higher Self is offering, but her back is to the dreamer. This implies that the dreamer doesn’t fully see who she is and all she is capable of. The higher Self 9Gurumayi) is not ignoring her, but the opportunity of seeing the ‘holy person’ or the image of our own divinity needs to come from within.

She is wearing a white hat and purple shawl. White represent purity, boundaries’, and magnetizing to our self what we need to know our truth or releasing from our life that which is nolonger true for us. That it is a hat, signifies that the crown chakra is covered, and we need to bring our awareness to the highest level of personal understanding for our growth. Purple represents the dreamtime, healing, the wisdom that comes from gratitude and awareness. It is a shawl that surrounds her body, bringing that awareness as a cloak of knowing to her full terrestrial self. 

The last two sentences are a great response between the unrecognized self and the Higher Self. The dreamer doesn’t want to disturb this holy part that is confident in her own knowing, and yet that is exactly what she needs to do. The Higher Self knowing that, asks “Aren’t you coming in?” Aren’t you ready to converse? Aren’t you ready to let go of all your doubts about who you are, and love yourself enough to have the courage to be You. 

Do you dreamer? 

Choose a Different View

Hello Dreamers:

I don’t know about the rest of you, but that last Mercury retrograde from March 22nd-April 15th in the fire sign of Aries was a doozy. In the fire sign of Aries the retrograde motion brought up issues of independence, rethinking relationships (with self and others), speaking up/or not speaking before thinking through, and may have provoked childish responses from those who didn’t get their way the way they wanted. 

All things being equal, one of the ways I chose to exercise my independence and rethink my relationship with my blog, was to not offer a March excerpt. Now that might be perceived as a childish response on my part, but I’d rather like to think of it as redefining, or revisiting, my needs given the sheer overwhelm in my life last month. I decided I need not berate myself for not following “my self imposed monthly procedure to get my blog done and out.” 

What Mercury retrograde in its course offers each of us, is the opportunity to try out a different view. Maybe come back to an issue with a fresh set of eyes. Maybe renew, repeat, redirect, refurbish, restructure, reject or re-ignite something. It’s a good time to reorganize ourselves around what we need to tweak in our life to gain more satisfaction moving forward. Hence this dream. 

The Dream:

I’m in the hospital for knee replacement surgery. I haven’t been given my packet of information. A male doctor offers to help, he’s tall, can see over the heads of all the people clustered around to find what I need. I climb up on his shoulders. He sees the packet with a white label I need, it’s sitting open on an empty chair, incomplete. I find the head nurse, the Administrator, to complain that my packet was in full view of everyone, violating my HIPAA privacy rights. I’m angry. She’s doing exercises, showing other women how to open their hips to help with the recovery from surgery. I want to know why she didn’t include me in her lesson. She said I had to ask. I wonder why I have to ask when I’m here for help in the first place and don’t know anything about this whole thing. I’m confused, angry and alone. Then I suddenly get this sense of a solid concrete feminine pillar rooted in the base of the central channel. Beside it is a watery New Mary surging up from the depths to loosen and release the concrete form of the Old Mary. I wake up.

I’m in the hospital for knee replacement surgery. I haven’t been given my packet of information.

Hospitals are places of healing. Structures that can possibly help restore something that has gone array physically, emotionally, or mentally. We go to hospitals when we need to feel better; they are often places we go to seek ‘an educated opinion about something’ and hopefully to gain insight so we can feel better or heal something. 

In this case the dreamer needs knee replacement surgery. Knees are crucial to the ability of the body to be flexible and walk forward in life. Knees also indicate the ability to bend; to surrender; to supplicate. They are joints so they symbolize changing circumstances. Knees are often seen as the part of the body that represents karma, and in many studies represents sexual desires and passion.

This dreamer needs to be more flexible with the way she needs to replace what she has ignored about her own sexual desires. She is seeking a place to heal and educate herself on what she needs to welcome the next phase into her life. This will help her to karmically adjust and educate herself, so she is able to change her circumstances, and heal that which no longer serves, engaging and exploring relationship in the new ways she may desire.

The dreamer hasn’t been given her packet of information. She doesn’t know how to do this quite yet. She wants to do it, but she’s in need of help.

A male doctor offers to help, he’s tall, can see over the heads of all the people clustered around to find what I need. I climb up on his shoulders. He sees the packet with a white label I need, it’s sitting open on an empty chair, incomplete.

The male doctor in this case represents her inner masculine. We all  are made up of both divine feminine attributes and divine masculine attributes, our souls contain all potentialities. We often make the mistake choosing an outer representation of what we wish to experience within ourselves when choosing a partners; and then get hurt in the process because they too are trying to find what they are seeking in themselves. Knowing the Self is an inner experience, not an outer one, can bring us different relationships with self or other.

The masculine offers focus, discipline and a way to logically but compassionately balance her view. He can help fix this situation, why? Because he is able to look above all the parts of herself (the people), that represent her past wounds, and/or simply get in the way of herself. That can include both her self directed isolation, and those elements she has experienced in this life that have made her pull back full feminine expression.

She needs to climb on his shoulders. She is willing to ask him to help her get above this issue. She relies on his strength, (shoulders represent being able to handle the burden for someone else) and warmth (because climbing on someone’s shoulders suggests trust, but not being yet able to have intimacy).

White, on the Wisdom Wheels as I have been taught, represents boundaries, sharing, magnetizing to ourselves what we want, and releasing what no longer serves. It also represents purity. A packet represents all the information the dreamer already knows, but hasn’t fully discovered,  but it is fully contained within her already. The purity represents coming to this inner knowing without debasing herself.

The packet is sitting on an empty chair, incomplete. Again, the packet represents the fact that she has everything within her to look at this situation with new eyes. The empty chair represents that she is not confronting something, and that makes her ability to deal with these feelings and desires, incomplete. She needs to sit with herself.

I find the head nurse, the Administrator, to complain that my packet was in full view of everyone, violating my HIPAA privacy rights. I’m angry.

She is looking for the higher authority within herself to heal this situation. And, she is upset that although she thinks this personal aspect of herself has been well hidden, that now others see this incomplete part of herself too. Her sexual desires have been exposed and brought to the forefront of her waking life, and this is still uncomfortable on one or more levels. She still holds anger around her desires and her past history with men, which needs to be addressed. Her higher authority, higher self, is exposing her to normal human physical needs, and that feels a bit like a violation.

She’s doing exercises, showing other women how to open their hips to help with the recovery from surgery. I want to know why she didn’t include me in her lesson. She said I had to ask. I wonder why I have to ask when I’m here for help in the first place and don’t know anything about this whole thing. I’m confused, angry and alone.

The higher authority (administrative nurse) is doing exercises with other women to open their hips….open their sexuality as part of their recovery. The dreamer is angry she wasn’t included in the lessons that would help her open herself again to sexual exploration or partnership. She may need to find a ‘teacher’ or counselor to help her explore this.

The nurse tells her she has to ask. We all need to ask for help when we are confused and uncertain; we often need to find new means to explore what still feels unknown to us. Yes, she has to go within and ask herself why? and how? and what? to all the ways she has , or still limits the expression of her desires and passions. It is suggested that she look at her fear, and anger, and whatever else comes up in her ‘inner discussion’ with the part of her being that wishes to be liberated. She clearly doesn’t know how to approach that discussion and that leaves her confused, angry and still alone.

Then I suddenly get this sense of a solid concrete feminine pillar rooted in the base of the central channel. Beside it is a watery New Mary surging up from the depths to loosen and release the concrete form of the Old Mary. I wake up.

If I understand this part of the dream, her Divine Feminine is still within her central core, her knowingness, her supreme being, but it has become atrophied, a concrete pillar, instead of flesh and blood, movement and action, desire and aliveness….she is awakening. A statue simulates life, it is not life.

A watery new Mary shows her that emotionally she is capable of rising from the depths of herself, her subconscious self wants and needs to be brought to a new measure of life, releasing the old ways she has confined herself. 

Some say Mary means ‘star of the sea’, others that the word comes from the Hebrew, and means ‘bitter’. We juggle both those factors within us as women. There are many Mary’s: Virgin Mother Mary, Mary Magdalene, Mary of Bethany (Martha & Lazarus’s sister), Mary Salome (Salome means peace).

These are all the Mary’s within us as women that we need to uncover and give voice to. Each of the Mary’s teaches us something about ourselves: the way we forget to mother and nurture ourselves; the way we have allowed others to malign our worth or worse, done that to ourselves; the way we can help ourselves rise again; the way we can find peace–what ever that means for us, for it is different for, and equally special in each of us.  All these aspects are part of the personal healing process when we choose a higher view of who we are, and allow that to manifest outwardly.

Thank you dreamer for sharing. 

The Power Not to Share

This is the shortest month of the year, and in lieu of that, this will be the shortest dream blog decoding for this year. Why? Because I need more dreams people!!! LOL

The most important piece about this dreamer’s dream, is that she did not relay the choice she ended up making; there is no ability to give her a different perspective of her choice. In this case I applaud that missed piece of information.

This somewhat mirrors the awareness that can arise during this astrological period in which we now find ourselves; which I will explain in a minute. Even if this dream occurred in the past, because dreams come from the unconscious, they are not bound by time or space. That is why you can decode a dream from childhood, and it will still hold significance in the explanation of it, for some aspect of where you currently find yourself.

Astrologically we are under the influence of a stellium of planets in Pisces. A stellium is a number of planets (or important asteroids), in the same zodiacal sign. The Sun, Venus, Mercury, Chiron and Neptune will be in the sign of Pisces between February 18th and March 5th, 2018. With Jupiter currently in Scorpio, it expands and impacts, what lies deep within, either for release or expanded self-understanding.

All signs have their positive and less positive aspects. Pisces is a water sign. It can cleanse, overwhelm, is intuitive, compassionate, self-less—to the point of one’ own detriment sometimes—escapist, and creative. Scorpio is likewise a water sign—powerful, magnetic, emotional, intuitive, secretive, compulsive, inflexible and resentful.

Why am I sharing astrological information for a dream blog? Well, like this dreamer’s dream, this time period offers all of us a deep healing and a time for strong ‘knowing’. In this time period, it is possible to release old karmic ties and patterns—especially those in which we may still wear rose-colored glasses—if we are able to assess the karmic cycles and contracts we have been trying to move beyond for so long.

How does this apply to the dream? I know this dreamer well. We have worked in session through her dreams for many years. She is an intuitive, giving person, but she often has denied what she knows giving her power away to others, under the illusion that they might now better or more. She has been learning to stand in her own power, and the fact that she clearly states that “I choose correctly” shows me she is moving past old karmic patterns of seeking out others opinions, and trusting her own.

The Dream:
It is dark in the dream and I have to choose from some hollowed out rubber tubes. They are red yellow and green. I had to choose the ones that were flexible and could unfold. I choose correctly. Then I remembered I dreamed this dream before and I chose the same tubes before. I told myself I had to remember the dream if I had it before. It must be important, something I need to know.

It is dark in the dream and I have to choose from some hollowed out rubber tubes.

This implies that she feels ‘in the dark’ about something. Something has as yet come into your conscious awareness. Tubes by their definition are hollow, which means they can be filled with something. But to hollow something out, also means to clean something out of an item, to its core level. Rubber indicates that something is flexible, resilient and can be shaped in a new way.

They are red yellow and green. I had to choose the ones that were flexible and could unfold.

On the wisdom wheel, red stands for life force energy, speaking your truth and trusting yourself. Yellow stands for overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of you loving yourself, releasing past injustices, and the persistence to conquer your fears. Green stands for analyzing where you need to deconstruct your world to reconstruct it, self-determination to respect one’s truth, and coming to one’s own self-authority.

She has to be flexible with these choices, and unfold the old story she has told herself; the one’s that have held her back from each of these aspects of herself. The story of the past (its questions, mistakes, alliances), nolonger are important. What is of utmost importance is the story she creates for herself as she moves towards her future choices.

I choose correctly.

She has taken a stand for herself. She knows her truth. She has defined that she made the right choice for herself. No one else needs to know what that is, she has determined it for herself, and only herself. Brava!!!

Anyone of those colored tubes could have brought her to a place of self-actualization, so it almost doesn’t matter which one she chose. That she chose, and sees it as the correct choice, is empowering enough. It implies she has done the self-work she has needed to stand in her own sovereignty.

Then I remembered I dreamed this dream before and I chose the same tubes before. I told myself I had to remember the dream if I had it before. It must be important, something I need to know.

Her dreaming self, the 95% subconscious self, (where so much of our personal ‘iceberg’ dwells), brings her to a memory that she has not only dreamt this same dream before, but that she has chosen correctly before. It is a reminder to take that knowing into her waking state. For not only having made this choice, but other choices she makes for herself moving forward. 

Yes, it is important to know that the choices we make, can untie the karmic cycles we often find ourselves in. That when we trust ourselves, love ourselves, and stand in our self-authority, that we ARE being compassionate, intuitive, and flexible with our own needs….and that is self-realization.
Thank you dreamer.

Salute!!!

My apologies for not getting a dream out at the end of 2017. Like so many things, life simply took over and I didn’t have the time to write. But I did enjoy the holidays with my daughter, and for me to step away from my therapy work for that long during the holidays from others who find this time of year difficult, provided both a blessing and renewal. And that is what Solstice, Christmas, Hanukkah, New Year’s etc. represents—an opportunity to change how we’ve done things and go within, choosing something that nurtures us.

Due to not providing a dream blog in December, I am doing an extra-long interpretation this month. I chose this dream because in a small way, it mirrored my own emotional juggling to take a different path over these holidays, in ways I hadn’t fully allowed myself in the past.

I woke this morning to this dream and it was so strong that I recorded on my voice recorder so I could remember details to write to you.

So:

I am walking across a street at night — not quite running away from something, but definitely staying to the shadows and trying to avoid something. I get across and go to the side/back of a building to have a cigarette (even though, awake, I don’t smoke 🙂 When I finish and go to the front, I run into my parents and one of my brothers. They are going inside the restaurant/bar and I say I will join them and ‘buy a round’ of drinks.

I don’t remember what happens in there but as I’m leaving the building the “government or police” arrest me for smoking. I’m put with a bunch of people waiting to be executed/hung for their crimes. I say to one that I can’t believe this is really going to happen and she says that they don’t go ‘all the way through with it’ (meaning executing people).

My phone is there and I put it down. Next thing I know we (criminals) are being taken out and I see others outside waiting with black veils on their heads and faces. I realize they are the family members of others and are ready to be in mourning because we are going to die. I’m mad that I didn’t make a call to my roommate to feed and take care of my cat (I haven’t had a roommate in over a year in waking life)

We go down a dirt path to where I see 3 stumps with a large ax and some hanging rope near them. Each stump has a circle of dried blood in the center. Right before we reached the location a woman (prisoner) says to me “You don’t want to be in the front with the smokers’ – which of course I am (ugh)

I am able to wake myself at this point with heart racing. In waking, I realize I kept thinking all along that I would be hanged, but actually would have had my head chopped off. I fell back asleep and was back in this place in some hazy way, but it’s not clear. Finally woke exhausted (and late, of course)

 

I am walking across a street at night — not quite running away from something, but definitely staying to the shadows and trying to avoid something. I get across and go to the side/back of a building to have a cigarette (even though, awake, I don’t smoke 🙂 When I finish and go to the front, I run into my parents and one of my brothers. They are going inside the restaurant/bar and I say I will join them and ‘buy a round’ of drinks.

A street represents a life path, walking across it signifies that one is changing the way they have done their life path up to this point. You are not quite running, but you are definitely staying to the shadows, and it is night. Not quit running suggests you may be fearing something about this life change.

To me it is curious that you are staying to the shadows, because shadows show themselves mainly during daylight, and they are an illusion of form. But these shadows (assuming from streetlights or the like) give you comfort from not being seen. My question/s would be how do you see yourself now that you have created this change in your life? And what are you avoiding perhaps, due to this change in your life? Staying to the shadows implies that there is a sense of needing to be either prudent about the change or perhaps you need to revisit some of the options you made for this change.

You go to the back of the building and have a cigarette, even though you don’t smoke. Smoking in a dream often implies feeling stressed, and going to the back of the building implies trying to hide something (either from yourself or another). It also carries implications to watch for high blood pressure.

Seeing family members can mean many things. They can represent themselves or something about you. I know that your parents have passed, so when we dream of parents who have crossed over (like you have done on the street, and in your new life) it is asking us to let go of a way we see ourselves and learn to ‘parent’ ourselves in a new way. They are with your brother. What was your relationship with your brother? What is one word you would use to describe your brother? That’s a clue for you. Is the interaction a pleasant one, are you glad to see him, is there a dispute you have had with him….what is your connection in one word.

They are going inside a restaurant. Restaurants, like families can suggest nurturing. But if the restaurant is not good, or the family wasn’t supportive, or possibly even distant, it says something about a conflict within yourself that you might need to change, address, and/or nurture within yourself moving forward. You offer to buy them a drink. This appears like you wish to celebrate something or toast something. Maybe about what it has taken you to change your course and release stress from your world? To drink something in a dream (and you didn’t say what, which also carries a symbology) represents the ability to take in a new idea or implement a new concept.

I don’t remember what happens in there but as I’m leaving the building the “government or police” arrest me for smoking. I’m put with a bunch of people waiting to be executed/hung for their crimes. I say to one that I can’t believe this is really going to happen and she says that they don’t go ‘all the way through with it’ (meaning executing people).

You don’t remember, which could suggest that you don’t know the new way to fully implement this new life. Also I have suggested in other blog posts, that other people in the dream represent themselves as well as aspects of our self. The police and government imply monitoring agents; they suggest there are new rules and regulations that you need to implement in your life now. They also suggest that some aspect within you is putting stress in the form of ‘rules’ about something in regards to this change. It would be good to take some time and think on what that might be.

The ‘bunch of people’ waiting to be executed are perhaps aspects of yourself that that are ‘dying’ to an old way of doing things, i.e. your life as you once did it. There is a part of you though (the woman), who knows that we really don’t need to let go of all aspects of our self if we do not wish to, it is merely a metaphor of how we speak of our self and are heard in the world now….especially if your past job was one where you spoke, lectured, taught, or counseled because hanging implies the throat chakra and voice.

My phone is there and I put it down. Next thing I know we (criminals) are being taken out and I see others outside waiting with black veils on their heads and faces. I realize they are the family members of others and are ready to be in mourning because we are going to die. I’m mad that I didn’t make a call to my roommate to feed and take care of my cat (I haven’t had a roommate in over a year in waking life)

You put your phone down. Phones are access of communication to the outer world. You have put aside how you communicate with the outer world, and decide how to do that perhaps differently in your life now. Criminal from the Latin root means “to decide.” Deciding how, when, and what you wish to do, is all yours.

The others are wearing black veils on their heads and faces. Black on the Wisdom Wheel is about going within, listening to one’s inner guidance, and finding one’s own source of truth moving forward. These are the most important symbols in this dream as I see it, because it gives you the direction you need to go, within “to decide” how you wish to proceed. The family they represent, is the new ‘inner family’ you are formulating now that you are “parenting” yourself to take a new direction.

The old is dying away, but you know that death is simply transformation to another awareness. Some part of you, subconsciously, is mourning the old you, or old position, as you redefine your new life. This could be as simple as the day-to-day time/structure of your life having changed, to the location you lived and worked that you once knew so well.

Your roommate is you, the one that lives within your psyche and the cat (in dreams) represents intuition and mystery….which we get to fully tap when we are in the ‘black position’ on the Wheel, because we now have the time to explore another part of our selves that needs voice.

We go down a dirt path to where I see 3 stumps with a large ax and some hanging rope near them. Each stump has a circle of dried blood in the center. Right before we reached the location a woman (prisoner) says to me “You don’t want to be in the front with the smokers’ – which of course I am (ugh)

I could interpret a dirt path in two ways, and would need to ask you more questions to assess which interpretation might be right for you. Dirt is needed to seed something, and it is already laid out in path which means the direction is there for you, to release the old and grow something new. But again there is a need for prudence, because not all seeds planted take in dirt. The other way it can be interpreted is that a dirt road can portend a possible struggle, and you may be encountering that internally by the way you are fearing punishment ahead.

A stump represents the ‘tree’ is no longer what it once was. The Tree Of Life, symbolizes our life’s path in many forms, and this stump appears to signify that you do not feel the lushness of the growth of the tree anymore.

Three (3) on the Wheel symbolizes “regulating and refining.” It has to do with new ideas and impressions; reorganization of our behavior; discipline, growth, precision and commitment. To what? Your new life. How will you enhance your life source energy? What will you choose to do? 

Dried blood may signify that you feel a lack of life force energy, but it is in a circle, and circles represent eternity. You are in the front of the line. This new path and the seeds you plant are entirely up to you; this is a new beginning.

I am able to wake myself at this point with heart racing. In waking, I realize I kept thinking all along that I would be hanged, but actually would have had my head chopped off. I fell back asleep and was back in this place in some hazy way, but it’s not clear. Finally woke exhausted (and late, of course)

When we wake up sharply like that, with a start, or our heart racing, or a jolt, it is our Higher Self, the most conscious part of our being, trying to make sure “we got the memo.”

Believe it or not, beheading in dreams represents personal freedom. Why? Because the head and mental body that defines often how and what we should do, is severed from the body and the pleasure centers that desire. Thus you are not relegated to any one else’s systems, time-lines, or rules, other than creating your own script.

Death becomes your liberation here, not as a reality, but as a new beginning from the old way you did your life for so many years; it offers you new freedoms and explorations. The dream does ask you to review where you may still feel connected to a past definition of yourself that no longer serves the new life you can embrace, as it has ‘your heart racing’. Although, the liberation to plant new seeds and discover whatever brings you to a celebration of your new life, is right there too. Salute!!!
Thank you dreamer for sharing.

Nothing is only Black or White

Today is Thanksgiving in the US, a day set aside for gratitude, family, friends, and the bounty of what the Earth offers us, and the generosity of what those First Nations People, the Wampanoag, offered those first refugees of religious freedom. Our country from the very first landing of those ships, was based on refugees looking for a better way of life, for themselves, and their children. We are at our best when we keep that in mind, as our global situation–where all colors and creeds are forced into situations where they become refugees–to be cognizant of what those Pilgrims really were, and remember the assistance to their survival that those they did not know, the Wampanoag, offered them.

Why state all that in a dream blog? Because the Pilgrims dreamed big to find a place to celebrate their religious beliefs. And the Native People dreamed big to step outside of fear of strangers and instead encourage, teach, and welcome these refugees. And our dreams are big opportunities that show us, life and choices is neither black nor white; and between the two often lies sacrifice, trust, and new beginnings to change old ways. This dreamer’s, dream brings this to mind.

The Dream: This was a long dream, and I don’t remember anything else but this fragment. I don’t know if it is enough for you to decode, but I thought to send it along.

I am looking in lots, and lots of rooms for something, or someone. I go into one room that is very sunny and I see a tiny black puppy all alone. I don’t want to leave it there alone, but I also know I can’t take it with me because I travel so much. I go into another room and see a small white puppy, exactly the same size and breed as the black one, only this one is with its mother, so it is easier to leave it there. 

The scene changes and becomes almost cartoon-like. There is a big game going on, and Tom Brady is yelling at everyone to be aware of something. I wake up.


Aside: even one sentence, or perhaps if you title your dream…even if you just have a feeling about the dream. These can all be decoded, because they are simply your dream-self giving you clues to something that needs to be addressed, uncovered, discovered or released.

I am looking in lots, and lots of rooms for something, or someone.

The dreamer is on a search for something, possibly someone (their inner knowing) that can inform them of a turn they need to explore on their path. Searching enables one to transform, or to awaken to something they have been denying or ignoring. Lots and lots of rooms signifies that they need to search all levels of themselves: physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, whatever domain they can explore, that may trigger awareness for a growth process.

I go into one room that is very sunny and I see a tiny black puppy all alone. I don’t want to leave it there alone, but I also know I can’t take it with me because I travel so much.

There is a place within the dreamer that is trying to light her way forward. The lit room represents a clear situation she must look at, or that might prove brighter or clearer for her growth should she explore it further. There is a tiny black puppy. Puppies signify a dog that still needs to mature. Black on the Wisdom Wheel (as Gram Twylah taught me), signifies listening to yourself, sound, harmony, the balance of one’s truth (which is never simply black or white). It’s adversary is anxiety, because anxiety triggers us into a vibration where we often can’t hear the truth, or listen to our Higher self’s caution/s. 

Dogs are about loyalty, pursuit, and how to play while holding a profession. I would assess that because the dreamer travels so much, that she doesn’t have enough time to play. No down time. Something is trying to light-up that fact within her (all the rooms represent all the places within her). She feels she cannot take the time to play, and be loyal to her own needs, and leaves that truth (the black puppy) behind. She is not listening to herself.

I go into another room and see a small white puppy, exactly the same size and breed as the black one, only this one is with its mother, so it is easier to leave it there. 

She is given another perspective. Same size, same breed, different color. This one is white, and it seems it may be easier for her to nurture this aspect of herself in the immediate, because “the mother is there.”

A couple of observations. First, on the Wisdom Wheels, black falls opposite white. White represents magnetism, boundaries, sharing, and release. In order to work one side of the wheel (in this case, her inner ‘black’ desires) , one must approach from the opposite side. So she needs to nurture herself to create better boundaries in her work, while also magnetizing that which she needs to grow and that which she needs to release (‘white puppy’).  Sharing with others is not fulfilling if we cannot share with our self, our own self needs. She needs to create a strategy to bridge the two ‘puppies’ to be loyal to herself.

The scene changes and becomes almost cartoon-like. There is a big game going on, and Tom Brady is yelling at everyone to be aware of something. I wake up.

A scene shift in the dream-time often is our dreaming selves way of trying to impart the message again. In this case it is cartoon-like, making the dreamer curious because for her to note that, suggests it caught her attention. 

There is a big game going on…yes the ‘game’ of her life. Tom Brady (for those of you who are not sports fans or from New England), is the quarter-back of the Patriot’s. The quarter-back is the central figure on the field, he controls the plays. This represents the part of her Self that not only wants her to play more, but who needs to gain control with how she has been addressing her life to create more balance.

And, the ‘patriot’s’ represent having the courage to do something different, possibly something that others won’t back. Maybe travel less, maybe have more spontaneous fun, maybe take time to meditate to listen to herself needs, maybe creating boundaries with others usurping her time….it could be many things, and that is for the dreamer to decide. BUT, Tom (her inner personal quarter-back) is yelling “to be aware.” Aware of her needs so she has the ability to control them, instead of them controlling her.

Thank you dreamer for sharing…….and Happy Thanks that life is not simply black and white.